*sigh*

I don't know how to start..but I am very sure that something is bothering me at this moment. Hm..let me just put it this way. Humans are unpredictable. At one point, YOU would be badmouthing about some other people's behavior, trying to convince people around YOU that the other person is doing something wrong, illegal or just..not right. Then, one day, without even noticing it..YOU are doing the same exact "not-right" thing.. contradicting what YOU said earlier. Perhaps, it's nothing new, just some human nature..right? Does this sound familiar at all?

Forgive me for thinking out loud, but it's been bothering me..it's on top of my head..at this moment..here, when I am alone in Yana's apartment, at 11pm on Tueday night.

Bottom line, nobody can stop talking badly about anybody behind their back including myself. Nobody's perfect. Maybe, at this point, somebody is enthusiastically criticizing about me.. WALLAHU'ALAM.. But, what do I care? Huh? That won't kill me..will it?

As a reminder for me..and any of YOU out there, before YOU or ANYBODY or MYSELF start criticizing about anybody at all, let's just think more than once, because YOU'LL never know if YOU happen to do the same exact thing in the future..without even realizing it..

Urgh! Craving for some ice-cream.. o wait, I have a 'half-gallon Cookies and Cream flavored' ice-cream in the fridge..so..l8r..

Winter Break'05

Here I am..alhamdulillah..still alive, here, in State College, PA. Many things have happened these few weeks, but as you can see, I am so very busy with my top priorities; school and work. I did not have any time to spare updating my blog this couple weeks.

School is finally over at this point. My semester did not go as well as the previous semesters, as expected, but I am happy with what I got. I am grateful that I went through all my courses without failing. Hehe..

I have made many mistakes thorughout this semester, but some of them are worth while after all but some of them are otherwise. Some stuff that I can list out:

1) I have been working for too many hours in a week, that I get tired very easily and continuously. Worth while doing? Yes, i get to save the money, for my new laptop..and also for my expanses here..without putting all the burden on my mother or my sisters.

2) I was so obsessed to college football, leading to the NFL obsession. I personally think this is healthy, to balance out my nerdy school life! Also, Penn State football team has been great this year, that I am proud that I get to be a part of that, especially during my final year here in Penn State.

3) I have been neglecting my family. I did not call them as much as I used to, due to my busy lifestyle. However, I do know that they are very important to me. They're always in my heart..always..

4) I did not spend much time with my friends, Izzawan, Yana..also, Oja.. being here in Yana & Oja's place with them..making me realize how much fun we've had before..and how much time we've been apart from each other these few years. My Sunway friends.. it's been a while since I heard from Anis, Anna, Idaman, Sheen..Sheen? she graduated..and I did not even get to call her during her graduation day..gosh..!

Hm..so yea..people make mistakes, I know. Forgive me..I am just a normal human being.. all I can do..is move on..and try to fix them.. insyaAllah..

I guess now is the best time to have my friends around me.. it's winter break, and everyone should be free. As I mentioned above, I am living at Yana's place for winter break. I will be working at the museum and creamery for the first week of my break, hibernate for the second week.. and the final week..

I AM FLYING TO MIAMI..BE A PART OF FEDEX ORANGO BOWL
PENN STATE VS FLORIDA STATE (01/03/06)
VISIT ORLANDO.. DISNEYWORLD, UNIVERSAL STUDIO..
MY DREAM VACATION, THAT IS!

Leaving Dec 31st - Jan 6th with Hubby, Yeng, Syah, Capek, Amin, Izzawan, Yana, Sarah and Aishah. So hoping that this trip is gonna be fun. Girls (Nard, Am & Kun), I am so gonna miss u..


Hm..it's 3.09am..hehe..I am browsing for some formal dress..for KIDS (as usual)! And I found this one cute evening dress (on the left, just in case it's not too obvious). I would really2 wanna wear this dress one day. Baby-pink and really girly2..eheheh..So Kak Liza, what do u say abt me wearing this to your wedding reception? *wink wink* Hey, of course I am gonna put on a cardigan on top of this..or a bolero?

Hehe..before I start writing a "book", I'll stop here. So, that's the updates for now. Anything interesting during the break? hehe.. just wait and see..until then.. MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!

It's over..almost, at least.. ;)

I haven't had much time to update my blog. I am drowning in the pile of work that I have since last week. I barely have time to chill or sleep. School and work, have been my top priority..(finally!)..

So, I had my 1st final exam today. I don't really have a comment prepared for that test..but I am definitely glad that it's over. Of course some of the questions look "familiar"..if u know what I mean..hehe..but some of them are not..but special thanx to the IEs for sharing the useful "sources".

Okay, I have 28 minutes before I head to work. Couple things to share.

1. I will be extremely busy as of today..so don't bother to wonder where I am (duh! like anybody does anyways huh?) hehe..here's the list of stuff to do this week..yea..for me to do..!!

Thursday: IE 408W paper due at 2.30pm
Friday: IE 328 lab reports due at 5pm (they're 2 of them) & IE 468 hmw due at 9pm

2. My final tasks before the semester ends next week:

Monday: IE 468 project due by 5pm
Tuesday: IE 402 final exam & IE 328 final exam
Wednesday: IE 468 final exam (so nervous for this one..huhuhu)
Thursday: IE 408W final project due by 5pm

That's the summary for my two most "exciting" weeks of the semester.

Switching gear..Another thing on my wish list for this week (besides getting ALL my work done and getting through with all my courses) I would really, really wish that I'd get a ticket to the Orange Bowl..please, please, pretty please..

Okay..before I go into the details about this Orange Bowl thingy, I'll keyboard-off right now..Until then..take care of me..LOL!

Thanksgiving break...is over.. :(

I still can't believe that it's over. I did have so much fun.. I did enjoy myself.. I did go out of State College.. I did a lot of shopping.. and most importantly, I did take a LOT of pictures..mwahaha!

I went to Washington D.c for the second time. But, this time, I get to meet new people, enjoy the shole trip with hubby, the girls and some other girls and guys. Also, I got to see the Smithsonian and enjoy taking pictures with the old, creepy buldings there. hikhikhik..

Okay, since I have tons and tons of homework to do, I won't keep this entry long..but here are some of my favorite(wait, is that the right spelling?) pictures from the trip. Pictures can actually speak louder that words..hehe.. so, Enjoy!



That's the whole group for our lil' trip to DC.



Me & Hubby..at the side of some river in DC. (Hindustani pose! LOL)



Hehe..speechless..



I love this picture! That's the monument at the center of Smithsonian.



Yes, we love to take pictures!



Me and the white house



All of us, with our warm-hearted host; Cik Wan & Kak Kin.

Overall, the trip was a success..thanx to all of you.
Hubby, the girls, Chi & Megat..thanx a bunch!

Miracle, I might say!

It's been a long day, but definitely an exciting one!
My day started really early, submitted my IE 468 homework and went straight to work at 1pm to 6pm. Now? Kinda beat..but posting my entry..it's a 'must-do' for today. So yea..here goes...

Interesting conversation between Hubby and I while walking from EE East Building to the HUB (directly translated to English):

Me : Hm..is that a football player? He's tall and he's an African American.Maybe?
Hubby: Not all big African American are football player, honey.
Me : Why haven't we ever bumped into any football players on campus? Why? Urgh..Before the end of the semester, I definitely will track them down, take pictures with them and have them sign on my Penn State Sweater, seriously!

(I have my Bill Cowher's face on..hihi..)

Hubby: Hey, that's a football player.
Me : Owh my God! You're kidding!
Hubby: Nope, i'm not!

(me looking really closely)

Me : Owh my God! (jumping around in excitement)
Hubby: Go get his autograph.
Me : O wait..I HAVE A CAMERA IN MY BOOKBAG!
Hubby and I was debating on who should approach him 1st & ask if he wants to take a picture with us.

After a lil' "you-go, no! you-go scene", I got to take a picture with the Penn State cornerback , Alan Zemaitis. God knows how excited I was! I don't even know how to describe this moment in words. We shook hands, Hubby and I congratulated him and let him know how awesome he was last Saturday.



That's the picture! Me & Alan Zemaitis. Hehe..yes, I know..I am LITTLE!

So, after that exciting moment, we (Hubby and I..of course w/o AZ..duh!) went to get my salad at Sbarro..still excited..and gosh, I can't even stop smiling to myself!

Moving out of Sbarro..talking and smiling, I got even more excited when I saw three big guys at the entrance of Barney's. OWH MY GOD! That's like the most memorable moment. I went to them, without thinking any longer..and said to them..

(With my cutie, sweetie-ish voice) " EXCUSE ME SIR, CAN I TAKE A PICTURE WITH YOU??"



and he said," Sure, sweetie..!" Aaaaa!!! Am I dreaming or what? (I need some help, you think?).

YOU KIDDING ME? It's our most beloved Penn State quarterback, Michael Robinson (rightmost), accompanied by Matthew Rice, the defensive line (leftmost) and AZ (middle..yeaa haa!). Is this a miracle or what? So, of course, I got to shake their hands, congratulated them..and most importantly, TOOK A PICTURE WITH THEM. So yea..call me a freak..call me a psycho..but I got what I dreamed for(since I started to become a die-hard football fan..ehem ehem). I've always wanted to take some pictures with the stars of Penn State football team..and I did.

Owh, by the way, Penn State won our last game of the season, against Michigan State, the Spartans with the score 31-22. It wasn't the best game, but it was good enough to earn the BIG TEN CHAMPION TITLE 2005. ssswwweeeetttt...!

Although I could not make it to East Lansing, I got to go to Rec Hall, for the welcoming event. Some pictures from there: (they're not too clear, but you can see how it is).



Try to look for the big ten trophy, held up by M Rob among the crowd. C'mon..you can see that..!



The players' arrival..hehe, can't really see which is which, but they are with the tags on their hats. hehe..

Bottom line, I LOVE TODAY! This day is definitely gonna be stored in my personal Penn State memory. WE ARE...PENN STATE!

Word of the day: Excited, exciting, excitement and any word with the root word 'excite' in it.

Lecture? Pay Attention?

Dr Newman said, " Allright kids, two things you need to figure out before you go out there and make sum big bucks:
1. Know who you are.
2. Be who you are.
So, thanksgiving break, write a paper on these two most important things. I want it on my table by 5pm on the Tuesday right after the break!"

Hm..the question may look easy. But how do u know who you really are. Some people couldn't figure it out & they end up being somebody that they're not. Ala..you know..like..'wannabe'..

That's my homework for the break. Find a little time to explore something about my inner-self and write a 3 page paper about it.

Question for myself: Am I being myself? Or am I just being like this to impress everybody around me? People change..yes? Have I changed? Bad? Good? Am I happy the way I am? Sometimes, people see me as the happy, chatty, giggle-giggle type of gal, but sometimes I find myself crawling in my blanket, crying out loud out of loneliness. So, who am I? 'Good questions,'says me. haha!

I get upset looking at people change. You know..some of them turn to be somebody that I thought I never knew. It's even worse when that person is closely related to me. My best buddies, or my family members..or..some people that I dearly love. It makes me sad..it makes me wonder..how on earth can people change drastically?

Well, maybe it's nature. Everybody's growing, and things cannot remain the same at all time, of course. Maybe that's one of the reasons I hate to browse through friendster. Looking at the pictures, you know. Seeing how people change through time. It's different. I can't turn back time. I can't. I just can't.

My heart says: 'I want her back. I want her back to who she used to be.'

Allright, back to freakin' IE 468 homework. Cavalier, please..why Cavalier? why??!!

hehe..emo mode! u know.. *wink wink*

It's DELIVERED!

The package was delivered to Mak yesterday. Alhamdulillah everything worked out fine for everybody. I hope all of them like the gifts I sent. Hehe.. I just got off the phone with Mak, and how relieved I am when she said that she likes the cellphone. Kak Liza worn the shirt out already and Kak Ani, was debating on taking the handbag I sent for Mummy (my aunt). Haha, funny! I knew it's gonna happen. I knew that they're gonna be arguing about the bags. Be patient Kak Liza. InsyaAllah I will get you your engagement/wedding gift when I come home.

One interesting thing my mom told me. If you don't think this is interesting, your prob, not mine. hehe, so, while my mom was looking at my picture hanging on the wall with her "timang-timang", Dina, my niece got all jealous. Haha, i like la kan..so Dina, once Ucu comes home, your NENEK is mine (like she can read this..huhu). Hm..I don't think this little girl is gonna like me. I'll be her rival when I come home.. MWAHAHAHA (my evil laugh, sorta) Owh, below is a picture of her with my dream cellphone. Here's the cutie pie Wardina..buwek!



So, today. I am in Leonhard (as usual, my second home). Gotta head to work in like 20 minutes. Basically, my day is plain today. Nothing interesting, nothing new.

Hm..boring huh? At this moment, all I can think of is to get out of State College and get my mind off my school work, quizzes, tests and projects! I guess I am too worn out from school. In few days, we will have our Thanksgiving break, and hopefully when I come back from that break, I will be more motivated to struggle for my grades. And few weeks after that, I'll be off for about 3 weeks. Huh! Seriously, I can't wait!

Time definitely flies really fast. After the end of this semester, I only have one more semester to go and I will be done for school .. yippy! Yea..at one point of my life, I will go back to school but na'ah..won't bother thinking about all those until I get my precious bachelor's degree. hehe..

I am so gonna miss State College. If I am rich in the future, I'll definitely come back. Hehe, maybe for one of the football games..haha..ok ok..i better stop b4 i start daydreaming again..

Owh btw, I feel a little better today. I am over it, and I am so ready to work my hardest for the rest of the semester (for some of you who know what happened to me yesterday).

Couple thoughts..

It's 2.12am in the morning, and I just can't put myself to sleep. Tired, yes, but I just couldn't get this things outta my head now. I don't know..this question is playing on top of my head. Kak Liza asked me,"Is Aim coming home with me after we graduate?" (translated from Sarawak's dialect).

On the left, is the picture of my chubby hubby. That one question is still lingering on top of my head. I know this may sound pathetic or clingy, but seriously, how can I bear with the fact that we're gonna be apart from each other? I know, I have my family and friends, but it won't be complete too without him. We've gone through our ups and downs since the three years ++ we've been here. He's always here when I am down, when I am excited, when I am lost or when I am over-active (haha!). Basically, he's always by my side in any point in my life here in Penn State. I remember back then, the first semester we were both here. He's doing so well in his courses that I almost break down and gave up on myself (since I did not do as well). Without complains (not that I know of), he's there to provide moral supports, brought back my confidence and never fail to make me realize that I can do it. Although that had been my hardest semester, I was able to go across the obstacles and move on. I crawled up the ladder until I reached to where I'm at today. Not on the highest point yet, but Alhamdulillah so far I am happy with where I stand. Improve myself? Yes, insyaAllah. His words are always with me and they keep me strong, always.

His plans is to pursue his dreams to go to Grad school after we both graduate. If there's a will, there will be a way (or maybe more ways) for us to be together, no matter how long it'd take. Hm..guess let's just leave it all of this doubts and worries to our fate. Try hard? That's for sure! InsyaAllah, we'll make it thru the rain *sob sob*


I hope that I will always be blessed with my family, him and my beloved friends around me. Without all of you, I may never be who I am today. All the things that you have done for me, it's priceless and there's no way that I can pay you enough for all the support and good times.

Mak, Kak Liza, Kak Ani, and all my beloved friends out there, thank you for loving me as I am.

Enough already of this heart-to-heart trash talk. Gotta cut it out and hop on my bed.

Reminder for myself: next time, do not 'terhegeh-hegeh' to sleep more than 10 hours and skip all your classes. As a result: I can't sleep tonight and end up thinking too much until my head is gonna explode. Urgh! Bad, very bad for my grades..kehkeh

P!nK ob$3ss!oN

It's Sunday already. Just got back from brunch with couple girls and boys. I was up early, like at 11.15am (wow..'very' early), crawl out of bed and went out for brunch.

Friday was my pink obsession day. Gotta do a lot of shopping, with PINK as my shopping theme. I bought a pink bag, another pink bag (hehe!) and a pair of pink shoes. Hm..I am starting to like the color pink that I cannot lie. Wait, what is wrong with pink anyways? I used to refuse to admit that I like pink. Of course my favourite color is still RED, but sometimes, I need to pick on other colors too. It's a girly-girly color, I know, but what's the point of denying myself? To act cool? What? Cool people don't like pink? Come on..grow up! Pink is a cute and beautiful color. Period. Hehe..before I get too emotional, I'll just switch gears to something else. LOL!

Yesterday, no PSU football game (boring..!) but I got to watch some other games for a bit. Fun..but not as fun as watching our own team..right? So, the girls and I had our masak-masak night and fortunately nobody had any symptoms of food poisoning YET..it went good and it's definitely a good time. Yana, next time, you should be there..!

Not long after the yummy-yummy dinner, we had our own little tournament, Dance-Dance Revolution! Bounce bounce! We did not really come up with a winner since it wasn't really a rreeeaall tournament..it's just a bunch of people having fun.

So, the host, Hubby, Chi and Megat, THANX for letting us cook at your stove. Am, Kun, Nard, THANX for helping out with the cooking and to everybody..THANX for helping out with the eating..hehe!

These pictures are taken before the so called DDR tournament and during the so called DDR tournament. Enjoy!


The girls, after dinner


Nard & Megat


Am & Megat..focus! focus!


Nard & Me..erk..


Hubby & Chi..uik? Nard, Megat..no 'interframe-ing' please!

Another SPONTANEOUS event that we have after the so called DDR tournament; TRIP TO WALMART! haha..the girls get to buy a one-dollar-Maybelline lipstick (o wait, not just 1, in fact a hand full of them!). The guys? Hm..bored waiting for the girls to finish shopping..LOL!

There goes my Saturday. Main point; I have had fun. Thank u guys!

Friday...finally..

Currently in Leonhard..done with classes and all. It's been a crazy week (haha..same old stuff). Got back my exam..as I expected, not good, but HELL I DON'T CARE!

Last night was fun. Went out with the girls, SPONTANEOUSLY..to Walmart! (of all places). Shop, shop and more shopping. I had no idea what to pick up for myself, until we all found ourselves standing at the cosmetic aisle. Guess what? I bought some make-up stuff for myself, with the help of the professional AM, and not so professional, Nard..LOL! What a night! We should do this more girls!

What else is new..owh yea..Hubby and I fixed my ibook last 2 nights. Long process, but we made it through. Heh, so now, I have 2 laptops in my room. Ridiculous, but FUN! I have Mac Operating System and also Windows Operating System. Cool? Na'ah..

Hm..i am so not in the mood of writing up my entry right now..but I gotta kill time before I head to work. I need some air..and maybe more shopping.

Good news from home. My buddy in Kuching, E-za, is getting engaged this December. Of course it's with a guy! Too bad that I can't make it to the ceremony, but my prayer is always gonna be with you hun! I hope that I can make it to your wedding, I will TRY my very best! Another good news, my second sister, Kak Liza is getting married next year, somewhere in August/September. So, that wedding, I'll be there (with Allah's willing). Me? Wedding? Heh..speechless..let's just wait and see. I promise, if my "time" comes, I will definitely tell the whole world about it (thru the internet..huhuh).

So, ok, this Saturday, masak-masaking at Megat/Aim/Chi's place allright girls? Nard? Am? Kun? Time suggestions? So that's the weekend plan. Shopping plan..hmm..we can arrange that SPONTANEOUSLY..it seems like that's the word of the day..haha!

It's almost work time. GTG! Looking forward for more and more fun this weekend. Keeping my fingers crossed (as always)!

Killing time

Yes, this is to kill time before I get to break my fast today. Hm..the picture on the left is Bill Cowher. Hm..he is known for his "masam-ness" most of the time. Why is his picture posted here? haha..hubby said we (me and Cowher) have one similarity, the frown that is. What were u thinking? Me? Head coach of Pittsburgh Steelers? Keep on laughing people..not gonna happen! Well, I can frown like him for hours, seriously. But, I can't be a good football team head coach.(duh!)

Yesterday, was a long day. Work, classes, lab and an exam at night. I missed my Gilmore Girls show and currently I am downloading the episode on my computer. UNBELIEVABLY SLOW.

My exam was bad..hehe..u heard me, it was BAD! I cried, yes, in LEONHARD! That was the first time I cried in front of my friends there...erk? They were panicking when they saw the tears trickling on my cheeks. Poor them..they know me as DAY, the cheerful, loud girl in the computer lab. They've never seen the cry-baby in me..hehe, they managed to cheer me up though. Many many thanks to them. Heck yea, I feel a lot better today..no more worries. Spanish words they taught me: JOSTOY BIEN (I am good!).

Oo..it's time for me to fill up my flat, lil' tummy. So..until then..

AM, QUN, NARD, care to shop?

Wonderful Monday

First of all, I would like to wish one of my best buddy here in PennState a HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY. So we had the suprise little gathering for her last night ad midnight and I hope that somehow, she will know how much we love her..Aww..so sweettt..hehe..to NurIlliana Amir Hasrat, may God bless you and hope that u will enjoy your special day..okie dokie?? Mwahs mwahs to you..

Next, currently I am in my room, skipping class..huhuhu..thought of getting started studying for the test tomorrow. AAaaa..I did not skip all the three classes I have, kidding me? I am skipping my last class of the day. That's not too bad..right?? As I mentioned, I have a test tomorrow night..meaning..staying in the room tonight is a No-No..no more watching the Patriots game tonight allright me? Bad for your grade. :(

So this weekend was fun. Saturday was filled with love and laughter and FUN! before the big game against Wisconsion the Badgers, the Msian PennStaters had some kind of a gathering among ourselves. Gather, talk, gossip, hugs, talk some more, laugh, and most importantly FOOD!! Went to Sarah's place in Penn Tower then Bodak's place, Meridian II. Pictures? Of course la kan..many many pictures. I gotta pick my best pictures of course..hehe..


The girls at Sarah's place


Gadis-gadis NgeGeh..huhu


Hubby and I

After a large amount of food, some of us went to the game. This time, unlike most of the other games, I am NOT the only girl in the Malaysian crowd at the stadium. There's Nard, Dart and Yana. Unfortunately, they didn't make it to the senior section, but still we get to walk to the stadium together until I found out that my ticket slipped out of my pocket..drama..drama..So Hubby and I ran back to see if the ticket can be found anywhere on the road. With my heart beating so fast, I ran as fast as I could, looking for it. LUCKILY, i found it lying on the road, upside down (pheeuww!). I went to the game..in fact the last home game for the season. High possibility that that is my last game for like..ever. So, that's that. I got to take some pictures in Beaver Stadium, as one of the most memorable experience as a student of PennState University. *sob sob*


That's US before the game


Hubby and I at the stadium before the game started


Senior fans after the game

Owh no no, we didn't lose..we look sad b/c it's our last game of the season, or maybe forever. That's why all of us looked a lil' bummed..hehe..especially Anjeet, the guy on the right-most..haha! The score was 35-14 and yes, we scared the badgers!! After the game, I got to wait for the players to walk out of the stadium, and I got some of their autograph, like.. of them. EZ Smith is the only one that I am familiar with..but the most important thing, they all played well, and they deserve a pat on their shoulders..*wink wink*

So, that's it for this entry. Full of memories and good times..until next time..~

Eid Mubarak!

It's so very nice outside. Sun was out, sky was clear. It seemed like the perfect weather to go outside with your baju raya(kurung or kebaya etc etc). Yerp yerp. O wait, I don't have one..hehe..

However, today, I went to work, exam, class and lab with my baju kurung. Purple, it was the one that my bestfriend, Zai gave me. Owh, I'm just gonna post these two pictures 4U2C.




Try to guess..both are my pictures with the same baju kurung. One of them was taken 4 yrs ago and the other is taken like 15 minutes ago..different? I don't think so..

Hehe..so hopefully next year, I will be able to celebrate this meaningful event at home..with my mommy..and my daddy..

Owh..speaking of daddy..I got a good news today, early this morning..Before that, I would like to thank my daddy..Pap..for the gift, A CAR THAT IS! I will definitely appreciate it and take good care of it when I come home..and I will try my very best to give you a call very very soon..hehe..

Before I get off here..I would like to wish everybody "Selamat Hari Raya..Maaf Zahir Batin"..I really hope to see most of the PennStater this Saturday, let's take some nice pictures since this is my last raya here..(i hope!)

I have nothing much to say..enjoy the Raya!

There goes my Weekend

Hm..this morning started with a bad news. I got my IE 468 test back and no, I didn't do too well. But heck, it's not the end of the world. The score spoils my day but I am definitely not gonna cry for the stupid test. It's not like it's gonna change the score anyways. Na'ah..what I can do is just work harder and become a NERD. LOL!

Weekend was fun. Saturday was spent productively (as if..) I worked at the Creamery Saturday morning until 3pm. I got to meet the long lost fwens of mine.. I haven't seen them for like...hm..FOREVER! It's been a while since my last shift at the Creamery. Things just got crazy and I can't afford to wear myself out. But seriously, I miss my friends at the creamery..A LOT! Working with them is so very much fun. Makes me laugh and enjoy myself a lil' u know..*sigh* But don't worry guys, maybe I will be working during the break, so stay tune!!! LOL (again?)


A picture of us, getting ready for the game..huhu..From left: Cory, Nate, Me, Amanda & Vanessa.. The fingers? Ignore them..u don't wanna know..heh heh..

Owh yea..more updates. The girls have break-fasting event at dD and Mahirah's apartment. Had a good time watching the football game(s) and definitely enjoying the FOOD. U kidding me? It's fried fish, MY SO FAVORITE FOOD!! Yummy yummy la kan..Thanx to the host for hosting, thanx to dart and mahirah for masak-ing, thanx to am for kacao-ing, thanx to me for rasa-ing, thanx to everybody for showing up. I had a really a great time!

Saturday: Big Ten Football: Penn State beat Purdue 33-15 (yeay!) Michigan beat NorthWestern (yucks!) Wisconsin beat Illinois (duh!) Ohio State beat Minnesota (hmm?)..
Sunday: NFL sports: hehe..I only watched Eagles vs Broncos and Patriots vs Bruschi. Broncos and Patriots won. Tonight, Steelers game at 9pm. My next agenda. LOL! (shut up!)

That's the updates for the day. I'm getting off work in 10 mins.

P/S: OOPPS..I FORGOT TO PUBLISH THIS ENTRY..HAHA..I ONLY SAVED IT..FOR GOD KNOWS WHY..SO..FOR THE SAKE OF COMPLETION, I'M POSTING THIS ENTRY..LATER THAT IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE..HUHUHUHUH..FUNNY ME..(ERK..)

Luahan hati ke hati

Ok. I need to spit this out of my head before my weekend starts, or I'll be so tensed! I am at work. I was trying to tutor this one guy for his C++ stuff. He was having trouble with his program and he actually expected me to FIX the program for him. I tried. He obviously is doing his homework in the very last minute, and he expects me to just look at it and fix it in a blink of an eye. BULL SHIT!
He didn't even have his notes with him, and why on earth would he think that i can easily look at the mess he created and give him the solution without any single reference? I've helped somebody before, with their C++ homework, BUT with their NOTES!!! DUH! Finally, he left (angrily, I guess) and I feel bad about it. I wish I could just tell him "hey bro, next time, make sure you're prepared. At least have your books or notes with you when you come in!!! I am not a teacher. I am here to help what I can!!!"

That's the end of that. Conclusion: I AM NOT AT FAULT!!

Seriously, he should go to the TA ahead of time. That's what they're there for. Urgh!

So now that it's out there, I can go ahead and enjoy my weekend. :P

Fun..fun..

hahahuhu(that's a good intro..erk?)

I'm in Leonhard right now, with some crazy IEs. So, they are struggling with their homework, projects and stuff while I am sorta wasting my time, typing up my entry. I just got off from my IE 402 group meeting and I have 22 minutes to the next class.

Hubby is nowhere to be found today. He hasn't called and he did not pick up the phone. Hm..well, maybe he's still in bed. Nothing new with that. Kehkehkeh..

So last night, erm..I mean this morning, I had a weird feeling. It's just one of those days, you know, you just feel like crying. Thanx Hubby for the time spent on the phone, listening to me cry. Haha..and special thanx to this pro-Michigan-anti-PennState-football-team guy who actually spent his time talking and "kinda" cheering me up indirectly in the middle of the night. I really, really appreciate it buddy.

So, the agenda for today is halfway done. I was late for the Palmer job, but Lynne, she never fails to tell me that it's ok to be late. Haha.. she's the best supervisor EVER la kan.. spent the whole 3 hours doing homework and reading my notes. So, next, IE 408W class. Fun stuff. No lab today, but I gotta tutor 7.30p to 9p. Steve, you better buy me lunch or dinner someday for this!

Okay..in conclusion (ayat skema), I am in a good mood today (at least I am, so far). So, I'll keep my fingers crossed for now. No more crying tonight allright me?

Owh, I received Zai's raya card. That might be the only card for this year. Erk, sad..But na'ah..that's fine. Owh, don't get me started on the being strong part. Aja-aja fighting!! Huhu.. Thanx Zai..mwahs mwahs..

so, off me go..class! Here I come Dr Newman. I love u too.

Grasias (is that right Jonathan?)

For a change..

It's late. Me not asleep yet. Just got off the phone, talking to mak. haven't called her in a while. It's been crazy this week. Exams and all. No different from any other weeks.

Now? Tears filled up my two big, wide eyes. If I have more than two eyes, I bet that I would fill those up fast too with these feelings I have.

Basically, I don't know what to feel, how to act. I miss home, yes. Miss my family, yes. However, I still do not think the WHOLE family misses me, if you know what I mean. Sometimes, I cry at night, thinking abt all the things that I did, all the words that I said, all the hearts that I've broken. And why exactly am I crying in my room right now again? I don't think the whole thing was totally my fault!

One simple wish I have; I do want things to be right again. Everything. What if this is gonna be the last time you hear from me? Are you gonna cry for me anyway? Aren't you gonna miss me at all? Not even close? Naaa..whatever..*sigh*

Today, JPA deposited the Nov-Dec-Jan allowance. Kinda excited about that. But na'ah..considering that I won't be receiving my paycheck this Friday, due to some Human Resource's fault, I am not too excited anymore afterall.

Another sad news. Mak's package-shipment exception. What does that suppose to mean? Erk? Of course I did call the FedEx people, and they need confirmation about the content of the package. No no, it's the Malaysian inspection, they are so full of crap! I had already declared the things I sent into this one long document, but NNNOOOO they need EXTRA EXTRA info. WHAT???!! Urgh, I hope the package will be delivered really soon. Before Raya please?? Pretty, pretty pleaassee..?? *another sigh*

I am seriously CRAVING to type up something happily on my blog. I seriously do, but there is NO WAY that I can lie about my inner feelings. I can't fake it (unlike some people..) so do not expect all the fakeness to come from me. At least not for now. hehe..

I gotta get going. If you're confused of what I posted in this blog, ignore it. It's just this stupid mixed-feelings of mine. Tomorrow: work, meeting, class, work. Conclusion: duh!!!

Nighty nite..~layter!

cool stuff abt ME!

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You give and take equally in relationships. You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

10 things I hate to do during Raya season..

1. I hate to miss home so much, that it makes me sick.
2. I hate to crave my mom's cooking although she doesn't cook very much.
3. I hate to remember those small fights between my sisters and I and laughed out loud when thinking about.
4. I hate to want to come home during every holidays.
5. I hate to think of buying gifts for each of my family members when I go shopping.
6. I hate to cry whenever I see the "incomplete" family pictures at my sister's fotopages.
7. I hate to put the raya songs on my iTunes b/c they remind me of being away from home.
8. I hate to call home because I don't wanna burst into tears at night, wishing that I'd be there.
9. I hate to wake up and find that I'm alone here therefore I make myself busy.
10. Lastly, I hate being away from home, it makes me realize the little things that I miss most back at HOME.

To those of you whose close to home right now, appreciate it. *sob sob*

Another weekend

Today, yes, I do take a break from school work and work. I took some time watching the game (obviously) and I spent the night watching movies, hanging out and eating with couple friends at hubby's place. Lotsa fun..hehe..

Talking about fun, erm..makes me think of my life to come. what would it be like after I graduate? will i have this much fun with my friends aagain? Hubby? what's gonna happen to us. Spending some time with my beloved ones here makes me feel closer to being apart. Hubby, Nard, Am, Kun, Yana, Oja, Izzawan and the rest of Pennstaters? what'd would it be like not having you guys around anymore? Gosh..it must have been a while since I last see some of them, most of them. I've been to busy with work and school that sometimes I tend to forget the people around me.

My decision to come home and get a full-time job is final. I decide to live with my mom for a bit and go wherever my job wants me to go. Hard, I know but I guess that's how it's gonna be for now. I will be away from him but closer to my family. It's time for me to serve my family, especially my mom and be a grown up. I've never afford to be in a long distance relationship but as a grown up, I should give this a shot. As long as I have faith in us, I will try my very best to make "us" happen.

The agenda for this coming week, I have one midterm on the hardest course that I am taking, IE 468: Optimization Modelling blah blah. I'm definitely gonna be busy starting from tomorrow but right after the test, I will be off the hook for quite a bit. Seriously, being a busy lady makes me feel less alert of what's coming. I mean, I will not be thinking about my future or anything that can make me scared of moving on with my life. Hmmph..

My I-94 stuff, it's been settled. I renewed my I-9 form and I am eligible to work until the rest of my studies here. So, to my family, no need to worry. Aa yeah..I mean, do not START to worry (since I know you guys never have) about my financial stuff. I will try my best not to burden you guys with my financial support. Na'ah..I don't think you guys care, do you? What the heck!!

Okay, enough already. With regards to Oja's request, I changed my comments-settings to allow anyone to leave comments on my blog. Feel free to do so if you want. If not, I don't care too. So, whichever that makes you happy, allright?

Owh yea..Penn State won again tonight. They beat Illinois with the score 63-10. So now, we're left with 7-1 4-1. Good job, guys! Kepp it up!

Kinda tired, might as well go to bed before I add more emotions on my blog. Good night and pray for me..always! Salam~

Just a summary..huhu

This week. Tired. Exam. Need sleep. Too much crap. Hate faker! erk.. Yucks!

Weekend. Football. Study. Work. Sleep more. Huhu.. miss home. Miss mak. Mail the package. Wait for package. IE 468 Ie 468 IE 468!!! You fake!!

Tired..tired..tired..urgh!!!

For you..

Too many things going on these days. Exams, quizzes, projects, homework and quizzes. Here's a little something for my friends out there..

A Shoulder To Cry On - Tommy Page

Life is full of lots of up and downs
but the distance feels further
when it's headed for the ground
and there's nothing more painful
than to let your feeling's take
you down

It's so hard to know
the way you feel inside
when there's many thoughts
and feelings that you hide
but you might feel better
if you let me walk with you
by your side

And when you need
A shoulder to cry on
when you need
a friend to rely on
and the whole world is gone
you won't be alone
'cause I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be your friend to rely on
When the whole world's gone
you won't be alone 'cause I'll be there

All of the times
when everything is wrong
and you're feeling like
there's no use going on
You can't give it up
I'll help you work it out
and carry on

Side by side
with you till the end
I'll always be the one
to firmly hold your hand
no matter what is said or done
our love will always continue on

Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on
Everyone needs a friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone, you won't be alone
'cause I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be your friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone, You won't be alone
'cause I'll be there
You'll have my shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be the one to rely on
When the whole world is gone, you won't be alone
'cause I'll be there

And when the whole world's gone
You'll always have my shoulder to cry on

We have to move on and pray for the best! Glad that I have a shoulder to cry on. You, thank you!

What if..

I'm in my room, on this one fine Saturday morning. Being alone, making me start thinking of so many things; my past, my sweet memories with my family, my friends and my special one, him. It makes me think of bad memories, also with the people that I love. Externally, people see me as a cheerful, happy girl. Inside, nobody knows but me..and of course Him. Today-football day-happy?-maybe.

Yesterday, spent some time with the girls; Am, Kun and Nard. Had so much fun. It's always nice to have such good times with the girls. They make me forget about the crap that happened the night before. It made me stop crying. Made me feel entertained and soothed, indirectly. Shopped, talked, laughed a lot. But all the laughters..gone when I am left alone here in my room at night. I feel like crap. Having a fight like that with her makes me feel uncomfy. I tend to want to cry all the time. Maybe I was wrong after all.

If YOU happen to see this, I would like to apologize from deep down my heart. I am sorry for acting the way I did. Being disrespectful of YOU and all. From now, I won't interfere with your life..One thing that I ask, please be the old YOU again. I want to have the relationship that we once had again. I want us to share our laughters and sadness like we used to. I don't wanna stay in a fight like this, EVER.

Is my decision right? Do they really want me home? Do they really miss me after all? My presence there, I don't think it's needed in anyways. I am just one heck of a neglected girl..Wallahu'alam..

To Zai especially; I miss you.. MMU girls: Reen, Ika, Rad, Ami, Ani, Nad, Sap - you guys are always in my mind. Wish I could go back to the times that we have so much fun together..miss you guys so DAMN much!

Huh..

I don't understand why some people can lie and lie about stuff. It's even more disappointing when one lies to the one that he or she loves. It's unacceptable. If that's the case, nobody can trust anybody anymore.

Today, I discovered something; frustrating and disappointing. I never thought that she will have the guts to do such things and hurt the person that I love most. How could she? Can't she see what she's caused? Can't she see what the consequences from her behavior are? Can't she even think it through before she does something? God! What the hell did she think she's doing?

If this is how she behaves, I really2 wish that one day she will learn her lesson and have some other people do the same thing to her. Liar! YOU should be ashamed of yourself. Look around YOU. See what YOU've done.

Whatever it is, I have no respect for YOU anymore, EVER. Although I am younger that YOU, YOU don't deserve to be treated with respect by me. Get away from me, I don't know YOU anymore. You've changed too much and YOU've gone over the line this time. I want the OLD you back. I miss her and I hate YOU!

Long, long day

I'm at work. Waiting for the break-fast time. So, here I am..bored and tired at the same time. this has been the longest day. My class started at 8am this morning until 11am, one hour break before my first shift in Learning Center at 1pm-4pm. After that, I walked over to Leonhard again for a group meeting and run back to learning Center for my 2nd shift of the day at 6pm-9pm. No, I'm not done at 9pm. I have another group meeting at 9pm tonight. Hmmpphh..long day..I told you so!

Today, I get to straighten things out with Yana about the apartment thingy. I have no idea WHY am I dragged into the picture but seriously, please, I don't mind listening to anybody's problem at all, but do not expect too much from me. For example whenever anybody feel like telling me their problem, do not expect me to do the things FOR them. You have your problems, try to find your own way to fix it. You're a big girl/boy now. Act like one..!!

How can people not be independent. I thought independence is in fact in everybody. Everybody has to learn how to be independent..right? When you reach a certain age, you have to know how to deal with stuff. make decisions for you, your significant other or your friends if you have to. You can't seek for help EVERY single time you face any problems. What do you call somebody who seeks help from other people EVERYTIME they are in trouble? LOSERS! Some things, you can seek for help. Most of the time, you're on your own. It's your life! Make it happen!

Sekian, wassalam.

Unproductive me..erk?

Here comes another week. As usual, classes and all are trying to crawl back into my schedule. The good thing is, I have no exams until next Monday. Sob sob, I wish I could be in Muchigan this weekend to watch the football game. But hell yea..I have tons of homework and studying to be done. Hik hik hik..

more news. Midterm 1 402 was not as bad as I thought it would be. I really thought I screwed up, but Mr Chandra saved my life, sorta. I did not do like super well in the test, but it's good enough considering that I studied only the night before the test due to some other commitments such as watching TV and chilling. Wahahah..

And another good news is, I improved my grade in 468 with my 2nd homework. It was more or less the average of the whole class and I am glad for my current score. Next homework, Gary, Candice, be ready to pick up my calls. uh..Mr Cavalier too, be ready to see me in your office..LOL!

I have nothing much to say actually. I gotta start studying from now. But before I "keyboard-off", I'm just gonna post this little picture that was taken by Adrienne from Penn State Vs Central Michigan game last couple weeks. I look so damn happy in my Medium Kid's sized Penn state Jersey..woohoo. Enjoy!

WE ARE..PENNSTATE!

I love my life..ahahha..I love Penn State..I love football..believe me..I understand the game..

Well, yesterday, Penn State beat Ohio State..with score 17-10. Although most people believed that Penn State is gonna lose, but seriously, since I went to every single game of their this season, I do have faith in them. So, to anybody who has not seen the games, or does not understand how the game works, STOP UNDERESTIMATING PENN STATE FOOT BALL TEAM!!! You deserve a kick in the head. The game was super. The defense teams were both very strong and high skilled I might say. It was really hard for both teams to get to first down. penn State did really well on eliminating their turnovers compared to Ohio State; 1 interception and 1 fumble. The interception lead to our second touch down. That was the turning point of the game. Thanx to the players and of course special thanx to us, as the loyal fans!!

Today, we (the Malaysians) have a meeting with the MSD. I didn't get to stay for long since I have some other commitment, such as work. Bummer? Na'ah..kinda prefer being here at work than being there listening to lectures etc etc..I was rewarded the Ceritificate of Merits for getting a 3 pointer last Spring'05 (Alhamdulillah) and I will try my very best again this semester to boost up my CGPA for my own sake. Hehe..

Owh..one more new stuff. I bought a new laptop! Erk..huge huh? I decided to swith to Windows system considering that most softwares that I am using in my senior courses and projects are only compatible with Windows, not Mac. So, I bought one hell of a Sony VAIO notebook (definitely not telling anybody the model) and for now I am thinking of keeping my first and foremost iBook for sentimental values. Of course when it's time to get rid of it, I'll do it. Another good reason to sell it is when I am broke. Haha..so we'll see how that goes..good?

What now? I don't know what else to say but now that I know the true feeling as a Penn Stater..We are...PENN STATE!!!

The weekend is back!

You have no idea of how relieved I am today. I have no exams or quizzes next week. How cool is that?? So, this weekend, my plans. Friday night. I'm going out with my beloved to dinner and to the movie theatre for "WAIT-ing". Saturday. Work in the morning at the creamery. Yea..haa!! I am fasting!! Then that night; the big game. Penn State Vs Ohio State. Go Lions!!! Then on Sunday. Just plain homework and also work at the Learning Center. Sounds good??

Owh yea..I felt terrible this morning when I received a replied email from my best friend, back in Malaysia. Nurzaiha Mirawati..I am so sorry for forgetting your 22nd birthday. I had too much crap on the back of my head and I did not try hard enough to fit you in. But hey, I hope the email I sent counts. You were seriously on my mind on that day.

So, Zai, "HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY. I MISS YOU DAMN MUCH. I REALLY HOPE THAT YOU HAD A BLAST ON YOUR SPECIAL DAY AND PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO NOT TAKE ME OUT OF YOUR HEART."

Also, one picture from her had actually made my day. She sent me her graduation picture..aaawww..I wish I was there to see you walk up that stage. I am definitely so proud of you my friend.


That's zai in her square hat. So, I'll make sure that I will get to wear that cool hat too! :P


Switching gears, yesterday, I finally got the chance to purchase a birthday gift for my dearest mother. I know that it might be a little late but since I am still a student, waiting for my next pay-check is an acceptable reason allright? I bought her the cellphone that I think she might like and it will be delivered to my home around next 2 weeks (I hope!). Just in case any of my family members read this post, please keep it a secret. It's a big big surprise to my dearest mother. Don't worry, you will get your incentives for keeping this out of mak's knowledge ok? Just wait and see.

Hmmph..I feel good today. I don't know why. I hope it's gonna stay this way at least till the end of the weekend. Until then~

....losing myself

It's been a long day. Work 10a-12p, test 12.30p-2.00p, class 2.30-3.30p, lab 3.30p-5.30p then class 6p-9p. Isn't that exciting? I feel like crap today. I am totally beat, I feel lonely and I feel like breaking down and cry towards the end of the day. Why? I don't know. Maybe it's just one of those days.

So yes, I made my decision oon coming home after I graduate for good. Full-time job? Yes..in Kuching? Maybe. Aim? Apart..fate?? yes.. we will try hard to make it happen. Although I know it's gonna be hard for us, but if this is gonna make everybody happy, I'll do it. Who knows..I might be happy with my decision later...right?

I told Lynne, Ron and Bill (palmr Museum family) about it. Can't help seeing the reaction on Bill's face. He's like a dad to me here and he seemed to be very upset with my decision. I will not be seeing him again here..I will not get to have our little talk at the museum and most importantly, I will not get to cry happily or sadly in his arms anymore. I am damn sure that I am gonna miss him. I wish I have a picture of him right now and post it onto this blog, but my computer's dead, so, yea..maybe later.

Basically I'm back to square one. Thinking and thinking if I am actually making the right choice.

Nope..I don't wanna cry. I got a homework due tomorrow. I havent even started working on that yet. Better go..till then..assalamualaikum..

To my beloved family back home, Selamat Ramadhan. I really miss u guys. Oopps..there goes my first drop of tears in the month of Ramadhan...

And the week begins..

It's Monday. The first day of skewl. I was late this morning. Skipped one lecture and attend half of one lecture after that. Why? becoz my body can't take it anymore. Yesterday was a productive day. Completed my homework which was due earlier this morning and studied for my test tomorrow. So now, I am at work until 6pm and right after work, I'll head back to my room for prayers and continue on studying for tomorrow. Interesting? hehe..

Oct 3rd, 1977-28 years ago, a child was born, my eldest sister!!!

To Kak Ani;
"HAPPY 28TH BIRTHDAY!"

I know, i know, I didn't get to call you on your cell or talk to you online. I remember your birthday. Yes, I really do. I can't go online as much at night due to my dead computer and erk, I have no reason not to call. But hey, it's the thought that matters ok my sister sayang? Hope u had a good one allrighty??

Switching gears; today, it suddenly came into mind that my W-4 form is gonna expired in a month. I haven't got my new I-94 card yet. Aaaargh! without that card, I won;t be able to work! without work, I'll be out of money! without money, I will be broke! No!! That can't happen! I need to work! In fact work is my middle name..wahahah..!! I am definitely freaking out right now but there's nothing else I can do except for waiting for the freakin' card to arrive in my mailbox. Hm..or maybe I can check in to the International Office and ask them what they can do.

Tonight, study study and more studying. I need to do well in my test tomorrow. Hm..what about studying now? Aaa..that's a good idea. Catch u later! ~

Ooops..

Opps..this might be a little too late, but I would like to wish a friend of mine, OJA a Happy 22nd Birthday (Sept 30, 2005). Hehe..I was too busy to go online and of course it's even harder to go online when the computer in my room is dead. So Oja,

"I hope you had a very happy birthday and may all the blessings be with you.."

Today, I am busy with my IE 468 homework which is due tomorrow in class. Hope I can manage to get up that early tomorrow. I don't understand how much time I spent on this second homework; simply because I did poorly on the first one. Currently, I'm at work in Sparks and I guess I will be finishing up that homework after work and then start studying for my exam this Tuesday, IE 402. YES, MY LIFE IS BORING!!!

And uhm..yesterday, I went to the Penn State Vs Minnesota game. Believe it or not, WE WON!! We scored 44-14 and currently Penn State is ranked on the 16th spot. Isn't that great? At least I get to be involved in Penn State's "football world" in my final year. I'm pretty sure that I am gonna miss all this after I graduate.

I have nothing much to say for now. Until next time~

Hm..

Hi again,

I am at work right now. Yes, this is my only way to get access to the internet. My computer is still broken and I am just too busy to think about it. It's okay, I'll try a way to fix it. The only think I can think of is to buy a new hard drive for it. Heck yea!! It's gonna cost me at least $50 for that. Money, money money..hehe

Well, I skipped both my classes today. I did not do it on purpose. Yesterday was a long day for me. That was basically why I couldn't get up this morning. I was too tired and I had too much crap on the back of my head. So, once in a while, I need a long sleep too.

I called Mak today and guess what?? It's her BIRTHDAY (according to Malaysian date). And the best thing is, I am the first person to wish her a happy birthday and sing her a birthday song right at 12am (Malaysian time). I am so glad!! She "claimed" that she is turning 35 today. Aww..let's just believe her for today ok? (Hint: of course it's the numbers should be in the other order..hehe) I really miss her. I hope you're happy on your birthday allright Mak?

Hugs to my cute & adorable & beautiful & young (inside) mother:




Okay..I got to go. I need to meet with my instructor. Hope he can help me on my homework. Ta-ta~

Urgh!!

So yes, I am definitely calling off the master plan to go to graduate school. Why?? I am sick of studying!!!!!!! I HATE MY CLASSES RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!

Aha..currently, as usual, I am in Leonhard, trying so freakin' hard to complete my IE 468 homework. But honestly, this software, LINGO is driving me crazy. I just couldn't figure out how to fix the so-called syntax error. I sat here since like 2pm and currently it's 5pm. Imagine sitting here for 3 hours when for nothing. This is seriously VERY VERY frustrating.

Damn! My head is about to explode right now. I need a break. Until next time! Hubby..where are YOU?? I need you.. :(

Life is about making CHOICES!!!

Grad school? yes? no?

My priority?

Urgh..!! I hate to make decisions!!!

Aja Aja Fighting!!

My day? Bad.
School? Bad.
Weather? Bad.
Work? So-so.

But life goes on.
From this point onwards, no more playing around. Yea yea..I can save some time having fun..but please..ONLY during the weekends!!

Aja aja fighting? Hehe..That's just some beautiful phrase that I picked up from a korean drama. I know most people, especially females know about this drama.

Whatever it is, I'll work things out. I know it's gonna be fine (keeping my fingers crossed). Thanx to hubby for the continuous support. Thanx to Tom Cavalier too! Haha.. until next time..

PS: MAK..I MISS YOU SO DAMN MUCH!!!!

Day of Achievements!!

First of all, I would like to congratulate my beloved eldest sister, Kak Ani on her graduation past Saturday. She got her Masters Degree in Human Resource from University of Putra Malaysia and I am very2 proud of her achievement. She has gone through a lot of ups and downs and I am just glad that she'd come this far. Again, CONGRATULATIONS!!! I really wish that I can be there to see her walk up the stage but unfortunately, I am here trying to achieve my own dreams. So, my prayers is always with you and may your prayers be with me here too. *sob sob*.

Yesterday, was a BIG Football Day for Penn State. We actually beat the NorthWestern by one touchdown at NorthWestern. That was a big achievement for Penn State considering we haven't performed since the last two years. I was watching the big game yesterday. In fact, I was watching 3 football games yesterday. And that actually reflects how I am very good at procrastinating especially when it comes to school work. HEheheh..so Congrates to our football team for defeating NorthWestern by 6 points. The final score was 34-29. Hopefully by next week, Michael Robinson would hang on to the ball and please..no more turnovers yeaa?? heeheh..like he can hear me..LOL.

Owh..one more thing, my computer crashed 2 days ago. So, I would have a hard time to get the access to the internet. It might cost me some money to fix it, but I will work things out (I hope!). I really miss my laptop. On the bright side of this, I will have more time to focus on studying than browsing the internet and end up shopping online. Till next time..~

In Leonhard

I am in my crappy mood today. I was late for my first class this morning and of course I end up copying the notes written on the board without knowing what the heck they mean. And worse, I got my quiz back. And I scored below the average of the whole class. God!! What is wrong with me? I did all so freakin' many careless mistakes that I actually lost so freakin' many points on the quiz. Damn!!!

Phheuuww. It definitely helps when you actually get to spit your mind out. I don't care if anybody knows that I am doing badly on my quiz. That's fine because I know after this I am gonna turn myself into a more extra extra hardworking girl (that's the spirit I need. You go girl!!) I just need the "studying-momentum" back. Prolly my head is not completely stable right now. I seriosuly need a vacation. Get out of State College and clear off my mind a lil'. I have too much crap on my mind.

First midterms are around the corner. I really need to start studying hard for all the tests. I gotta stop procrastinating. Most importantly, I gotta balance out work and school. I need to extremely do well this semester.

Help me!!! I need help!!!!

Owh..before I forget, I would like to wish Nursuryati a.k.a Sue for her 22nd Birthday. It might be a lil' late for Malaysian time but definitely not late for United States time. Hehe..hope you have a good time on your birthday and we really2 need to talk some time soon girl!



so, the pic above is a picture of my two best friends back home. The left is E-za and the birthday girl is on the right, SUE. Miss u girls lots!!!

Until next time, da~~

Me & The Creamerians

This is actually the second entry for today. No! I am not a blog-freak. hehe..i just don't feel like doing any school work tonight. I decided to give myself a break for the day. Hey, gimme a break..I am not some kind of a robot that does its chores all the time. I actually decide to post pictures of me at the Creamery. So, Steve, if you visit this site, you can save them in your computer.

STEVE!! TAKE CARE YO!! (I am definitely not mocking you..! Haha!) I miss you already STEVE. Do keep in touch and I really hope that u will not forget me.. EVER!

These pictures are PARTLY posted for u. Hehe.. Hope u enjoy them..!!



Picture 1: From left to right: Andrew, Steve & Me



Picture 2: from left to right: Tim, Me & Jon



Picture 3: from left to right: Me, Dan (he is bending his legs to look as "tall" as me) & Kristen



Picture 4: from left to right: Ralph, me & Andrew



Picture 4: from left to right: Kristen, Catherine & me



Picture 5: that's just Jess and me..

Okay..those are some pictures of me and some of my co-workers at the Creamery. Those of you who are not in the pictures, set a time and date. We can have a special photo session together..ahahhahha..! Till next time..~la la la

In my room

It's a lovely day outside. And the best thing is, I have no classes at all today. My one class is canceled due to the Career Fair, and one lab is cancelled also due to the Career Fair. So, basically I am pretty much free today. I was at work from 10am -1pm at the Palmer Museum....so here I am..bored..and sleepy..in my messy room.

Somebody actually inquire about the title of my blog; Day & Night. Well, that's actually my nickname at the Creamery. For some reason, my American friends seem to have a hard time pronouncing my name right. Hehe..so, to make it easier for them, I picked up the first three letters of my real name as my nickname, which is DAY. However, since the creamery is always filled with cracked-head people, which actually makes it fun, they added a little spice to my nickname. So, the better version of my nickname is Day & Night. If you get confused, it's okay. You're just a lil' bit slow..ahahahah..I'm just kidding..

So, I was browsing and browsing the internet considering I am totally bored at this moment. After sometime, I went to my 2nd sister's (Kak Liza's) fotopages page. There are a bunch of pictures there. Well, let me just upload the most eye-catching picture that I see below:



So..that's a picture with all the people that I miss most. My family. The person on the right-most is my lovely mother. The lady in the middle is Kak Liza and the left-most is my eldest sister, Kak Ani. And that little girl is Wardina, my niece who is Kak Ani's daughter. Looking at this particular picture, I really feel like catching the first flight home right now. I haven't been home for a year already. It's a long time for me considering that I went home on every summer before this. But well, there are some things that I have to do here and also some things that I have to consider before I decide to come home this end of the year.

I'm kinda tired. I'll just "keyboard-off" for now. Until next time.. *wink wink*

At work

Gosh..15 minutes for maintenance? NO!!!! I typed up a long entry..and where did it go? But well, that's fine. This gives me more things to do while waiting for another student to show up for help. Yea..now I'm at work. Of course my job is not to write this piece of thought of mine. I am a technology tutor. I tutor students at the University Learning Center (ULC) in technology stuff like Frontpage, Dreamweaver, HTML, Adobe, C++ etc etc.. I just started working here and this is just my 5th shift. Hehe..well, it is not as bad as I thought it's gonna be. You know, of course there's this nervous feeling in me when I started. I was so afraid that I fail to help the students with their problems. What if I don't know the answer? What if I make them more confused? What if..? I hate "what-if's" but seriously, I find that question wimme most of the time. hehe..don't worry. I am starting to love this job. I get to help students, gain more friends and most importantly I get paid!! ahahah..kidding! I really love all my jobs now. Yes, you heard me..I said ALL!! I have two other jobs on-campus. I also work at Palmer Museum, and the creamery. Overall, 7 hours in ULC..no..wait..9 hours in ULC, (Stephanie just added 2 hours on my schedule..SWEET!!) 6 hours in Palmer and flexible hours in the creamery. ?? Flexible?? What do I mean by that. Well, since I have been working there for quite a while now, I get to be the substitute. I'll work if I am available and if I want to. If otherwise, I am nowhere to be found there. Hehe..good deal huh? The BEST!! Workaholic? maybe..this is one way for me to gain more experience. I work in different fields. I don't mind working as long as I enjoy myself at work. That makes sense, doesn't it?

So, today..hm..what happened...nothing much actually. First, I get to create my own blog (finally!! after 2 years procrastinating it..hehe) and secondly, I was done with my two important quizzes for the week. So basically, from today until next week, I am not too packed with my school work. Of course I would wanna start early on every single school work I have..eheheh..(as if)

As I said at the beginning of this entry, I am at work right now. I helped one guy today on his HTML homework. I think I helped (at least I think so..) Atilla is helping that one lady. So, whoever comes in anytime now, he/she's mine..hehehe.. Okay, I might want to do something else right now. Maybe bug the receptionist..ahahah..so..until next time...wow..it's a freakin' long entry..ppsshh

Testing 1, 2, 3

As my intro..I just want to introduce myself. Obviously, the picture posted above is a picture of myself. That's just one of my many pictures saved on my laptop. I will be posting more but for now, we just leave that there just for the sake of introducing myself.

This blog is gonna be a source for some of my friends to update themselves on what's going on in my life..maybe this is one way for me to permanently store my experiences in class, at work or anytime from now until I graduate. So, I'll post some more stuff as the time goes by. Anything interesting for me is not always interesting to anybody else. So, if it happens that you hate anything posted on my blog, too bad!