Tuesday, November 28, 2006

u know who u r..

For someone out there..yes, I thought you were a real friend..but silly of me to think that way..

U were my best friend
we were suppose to be friends till the end
now thats all down the drain
someone came into Ur life
and she is more important than me
I'm not worth Ur time anymore
so just leave me alone
stop asking to be friends
stop acting like its my fault
I'm leaving u alone
i don't want to deal with Ur problems
i got enough of my own
I'm done with Ur drama
so run to her when u need to talk
I'm out of this for good
moving on with my life
so good bye my ex-best friend

Whether you go to this humble blog of mine or otherwise, trust me, I DON'T CARE coz you are so out of my life! Have a good life and no THANK YOU, I only accept true friends in my life..

Friday, November 24, 2006

So far..yet so close..

It's been 2 weeks since he left for Japan. Not trying to brag here, but honestly, we've never been any stronger than this EVER. We've been trying to keep ourselves updated everyday, listen to each other everyday and the coolest part is that we both get to see each other everyday, er..everynight to be exact. Well, many many thanks to the smart people who invented all these facilities for people like us on the internet; by saying us, I mean some 'young' people who's going thru the long distance relationship thingy. Perhaps it's true what people say about it after all; absence makes heart grow fonder..and it's good that we both get to see the other side of a relationship now. We share, we trust and we keep strong while being away from each other. And again, I never fail to thank Him for all this. InsyaAllah, we will make it thru this..

Other updates. Work. I was confirmed in my position as a Quality Engineer in the company after going through my 3-month-probation. Basically, I am still here in Kuching, working in the same company. haha! Trust me, I never thought that I would even stay in this company for at least 3 months but hey, I MADE IT! Yippy yeay yeay! Of course my salary has not changed, but the good news is, now that I'm confirmed, I can definitely claim my callback allowance without any hesitation or may i say, without being SCARED! Haha..such a chicken.

Other personal stuff. I am lonely. My girl, Sue, went off to KK for the weekend and I haven't heard from my beloved Babes for moons now. Well, one of them actually. So my plans for the weekend: Work on Saturday to finish up my junk and stay in on Sunday to get some good rest e.g. Zzzz or some storybook reading..huhu.. Owh, in addition to my loneliness, I'd like to point out that I miss my niece, Asfa Wardina so damn much. She was back in Kuching for 3 days and guess who did not get to spend time with her coz she's too busy being a busy-bee?? ME!!! Just for the heck of it, here's an 'out-of-nowhere' picture of us together..

Dina and her Ucu..do we look alike? hehe

I have got to plan my working hours and my personal times from now on. *sigh* work is no fun but heck, I WANT THE MONEY! Until then..tata toodles!

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Moving On..

Ok. Don't panic. It's not that the world has come to an end when he finally left for Japan. Heck yeah, we are still together. Stronger than ever! Heh..he left last night. It was hard, I have to admit. But guess what; after thinking about this over and over, I somehow find the silver linings in this whole going-to-Japan thingy. He got to work towards his Masters and for me..hm, perhaps, this gives me enough time to figure out what I'm gonna do in my life. Maybe I can make use of this "space" to focus on my career, spend more time with my family before I actually get "taken" (if you know what I mean..hehe *grin*)

He's arrived in Sendai at noon earlier today. Received 3 calls from him. Gosh I miss him. He's currently staying over at some Malaysian students' apartment and hopefully soon he will settle down and we can talk to each other more. Everyday is like a battle for us. We will definitely try our best to keep ourselves strong. Hm..guess now I have a good reason to actually go to Japan. Wanna join me? Anybody? haha..

So my mini-trip to KL last weekend was in fact the most memorable 48-hour trip for us. I did not really get to see too much of my other friends. Thousand apologies for that. I bet they understand my situation. I got to spend most of my time with Hubby. In addition to that, I also got to meet most of his mom's and dad's family during Raya Open House held in his place. I was super-duper nervous but yeah, I handled myself well. The most exciting moment was to meet his granny. Of course we did not get to build the "connection" right away but I think I managed to break the ice. InsyaAllah this sillaturrahim will continue on until the day we say "i do"...

Picture perfect

Ok. enuff of words. enuff of hopes and dreams. I'm back to reality. Hafta move on and continue what I've been doing all this while; WORK. Gotta work hard. Get myself noticed. Learn as much new things as possible. Master what I do. Miss him. Miss him. Miss him. Miss him. Miss him..erk, I can't even say enough of this, can I?

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Never too l8!

First of all, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to everyone. If ever I hurt anybody physically, mentally or psychologically, I would like to take this opportunity to actually apologize and say Maaf Zahir Batin. I know, it's been more than a week since Eid, but well, it's never too late right?

Moving on..I have been extremely busy lately. Haven't had the time to catch my breathe, sit down and update my blog for this past month. Hari raya for me was a blast but it wasn't as perfect as I expected it to be. No, no, I did not get into any fights or arguments with anybody. Work hasn't been treating me well. I was called-back early in the morning on my first of Hari Raya to help out on the new system the company is implementing. Wrong, wrong, very wrong timing. I was pissed. My backup was nowhere to be found, not until noon, regardless the fact that he's Indian and he's not celebrating Hari Raya. My mom was crying in the car, stopping me from going to work. My phone kept ringing, saying "Sanmina". What should I do then? Between work and family. My mom to be exact. Finally, I had to sacrifice. Tried giving as many reasons as possible to my Project Manager for not showing up to work on my public holiday. It turned out fine at the end of the day. My back-up person was forced to come up to the plant and I got to celebrate my raya peacefully, for the 1st 2 days at least.

2nd day of Hari Raya. Yes, I received few calls in the morning from the plant. Managed to handle them well. Yea haa! I switched off my cellphone..haha. We got to hold our Hari Raya Open House for family, friends and colleagues. It was crazy, but heck yea, the more the merrier! It was a good day with good food and good company.

Next day. Worst raya day ever. I was stuck in the office the whole morning, evening until midnight. No kidding! Reached home at 12.20am. Pictures? Na'ah..did not even have the time to reach out for my camera on this one day. *sob sob* plans made with some friends had to be cancelled and postponed to the next day..

4th day of Hari Raya is indeed the most peaceful Hari Raya for this year. Finally, my director approved my leave for a day and a half and i got to spend my sweet time with family and friends on Hari Raya. The best thing was, Hubby came to Kuching on that very day and it can't be any more perfect than having all my loved ones around during this special celebration.

The rest of the days of my Hari Raya were perfect. Went out to some relatives' and friends' houses, spend some leisure time outside with Hubby and got to introduce him to most important people in my life. So yea..there goes my raya. It wasn;t perfect but the feeling of having your loved ones around on this special day is definitely what I've been longing for for this past 4 years. With this, I'll just share some of the pictures out of the many pictures that we took on Hari Raya. Babe, I still wish you guys were here..

Me and my lovely sisters in green

Me and my x-classmates. Thanks for stopping by! :-)

The girls at my crib

The couple la kan..

My best gurl in Kch. *hugs* Haha..

Beautiful Friends

@ Fazlin's place

Ehem ehem..

Currently I am in my room, waiting for Hubby's call. Y'know..those calls before you go to bed. Hehe..I am leaving for KL tomorrow..will be there until Sunday night to see Hubby. Yes, see him before he flies to Japan and be there for 2 yrs. I don't know if I am excited or sad to actually fly to KL tomorrow. I am definitely psyched to see him tomorrow but then, I don't wanna leave KL and say goodbye to him when I have to come back to Kuching. It'd be extra hard knowing that we will be apart for 2 years. Hmmph..I just hope that I can face this strongly and patiently. It won't be easy, I know but as what he always tell me, it won't be impossible either. We just have to go through all this before we get to the happy ending, InsyaAllah. Pray for us yea? May we both be strong together. -Amin-

*Yawn* there's my call. Till later~