Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Honestly, I am not the rebellious type of person in terms of work. I have had about 6 jobs before this one. Yeah, they were all only my part time jobs, but still, they were not easy ones. Some of them at least. I respected my supervisors. I listened to them and believe it or not, I never go against them. Now? Gosh..I can be very vocal and straightforward. Hopefully, one fine day, I will get to prove something out of this. Amin.
Hm..so yeah, that was it for my updates..oooh! I found the picture of my-oh-so-excited-about bag..hehe..lemme just share it with y'all allright?? OMG..i just canNOT believe how excited I am about this new bag of mine..Erm..maybe it's simply because I've been working hard to actually purchase one bag for myself since I came home.. (erk, yes, I DO have tons of handbags..back then, buying a bag is like buying a magazine..with a 'click' of my mouse; if u know what i mean..hheeeee!)
So there it is, my konon-mak-datin bag..*wink wink* ENJOY! until then..lata~
Saturday, December 09, 2006
So there I was..in the training..the whole week. Got to meet some people from other companies, learn new stuff (yea right!) and the most exciting part was that I got to taste the food at the hotel for free..haha! Not to forget, I got to go home on time. hey, i don't get to go home early every day ok? This going home early thing will lead me to my next update..huhu..
So, after 3 months of full pay check, I finally got to go out shopping with Sue (we spend most of our time together playing sports, movies and FOOD!). I bought a new shoulder bag. GUESS. Hey, I have saved up to actually buy one and trust me, I had a very hard time choosing coz the collection suck more and more these days. Plus, my two babes were not there to give their 2nd and 3rd opinions on the choices, which made it even harder. Regardless of that, with Sue's help, I fall in love with this one the first time I saw it so without any hesitation, I spent like 13% of my paycheck on this new bag of mine..oh my! Some people will never understand what obsession I have for bags. But well..what can I say.
Moving on, more update. Saw Pap on Thursday (the day after the whole short shopping trip) coincidentally during lunch at the hotel where I had my training. Went out on a 'date' with him and I got lucky when he actually bought me the Chocolate. It's not exactly chocolate, it's white. Speechless. At one point, I don't even know if I should be happy or guilty for costing him too much. Heck, bottomline, I deserve this gift from him once in a while..you with me?? *wink wink* (danger alert: jgn2 nnt aku dgr ade org tuh pakai gak chocolate..touch wood please?)
One more day of rest then I'm back to work. Went out with the girls last 2 nights. Movies. Some sports. God knows where we'll be hanging out tonight. Or maybe I'll just stay in and talk to my boo on the web. We'll see. Til later~toodles!
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
U were my best friend
we were suppose to be friends till the end
now thats all down the drain
someone came into Ur life
and she is more important than me
I'm not worth Ur time anymore
so just leave me alone
stop asking to be friends
stop acting like its my fault
I'm leaving u alone
i don't want to deal with Ur problems
i got enough of my own
I'm done with Ur drama
so run to her when u need to talk
I'm out of this for good
moving on with my life
so good bye my ex-best friend
Friday, November 24, 2006
Other updates. Work. I was confirmed in my position as a Quality Engineer in the company after going through my 3-month-probation. Basically, I am still here in Kuching, working in the same company. haha! Trust me, I never thought that I would even stay in this company for at least 3 months but hey, I MADE IT! Yippy yeay yeay! Of course my salary has not changed, but the good news is, now that I'm confirmed, I can definitely claim my callback allowance without any hesitation or may i say, without being SCARED! Haha..such a chicken.
Other personal stuff. I am lonely. My girl, Sue, went off to KK for the weekend and I haven't heard from my beloved Babes for moons now. Well, one of them actually. So my plans for the weekend: Work on Saturday to finish up my junk and stay in on Sunday to get some good rest e.g. Zzzz or some storybook reading..huhu.. Owh, in addition to my loneliness, I'd like to point out that I miss my niece, Asfa Wardina so damn much. She was back in Kuching for 3 days and guess who did not get to spend time with her coz she's too busy being a busy-bee?? ME!!! Just for the heck of it, here's an 'out-of-nowhere' picture of us together..
I have got to plan my working hours and my personal times from now on. *sigh* work is no fun but heck, I WANT THE MONEY! Until then..tata toodles!
Sunday, November 12, 2006
He's arrived in Sendai at noon earlier today. Received 3 calls from him. Gosh I miss him. He's currently staying over at some Malaysian students' apartment and hopefully soon he will settle down and we can talk to each other more. Everyday is like a battle for us. We will definitely try our best to keep ourselves strong. Hm..guess now I have a good reason to actually go to Japan. Wanna join me? Anybody? haha..
So my mini-trip to KL last weekend was in fact the most memorable 48-hour trip for us. I did not really get to see too much of my other friends. Thousand apologies for that. I bet they understand my situation. I got to spend most of my time with Hubby. In addition to that, I also got to meet most of his mom's and dad's family during Raya Open House held in his place. I was super-duper nervous but yeah, I handled myself well. The most exciting moment was to meet his granny. Of course we did not get to build the "connection" right away but I think I managed to break the ice. InsyaAllah this sillaturrahim will continue on until the day we say "i do"...
Ok. enuff of words. enuff of hopes and dreams. I'm back to reality. Hafta move on and continue what I've been doing all this while; WORK. Gotta work hard. Get myself noticed. Learn as much new things as possible. Master what I do. Miss him. Miss him. Miss him. Miss him. Miss him..erk, I can't even say enough of this, can I?
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Moving on..I have been extremely busy lately. Haven't had the time to catch my breathe, sit down and update my blog for this past month. Hari raya for me was a blast but it wasn't as perfect as I expected it to be. No, no, I did not get into any fights or arguments with anybody. Work hasn't been treating me well. I was called-back early in the morning on my first of Hari Raya to help out on the new system the company is implementing. Wrong, wrong, very wrong timing. I was pissed. My backup was nowhere to be found, not until noon, regardless the fact that he's Indian and he's not celebrating Hari Raya. My mom was crying in the car, stopping me from going to work. My phone kept ringing, saying "Sanmina". What should I do then? Between work and family. My mom to be exact. Finally, I had to sacrifice. Tried giving as many reasons as possible to my Project Manager for not showing up to work on my public holiday. It turned out fine at the end of the day. My back-up person was forced to come up to the plant and I got to celebrate my raya peacefully, for the 1st 2 days at least.
2nd day of Hari Raya. Yes, I received few calls in the morning from the plant. Managed to handle them well. Yea haa! I switched off my cellphone..haha. We got to hold our Hari Raya Open House for family, friends and colleagues. It was crazy, but heck yea, the more the merrier! It was a good day with good food and good company.
Next day. Worst raya day ever. I was stuck in the office the whole morning, evening until midnight. No kidding! Reached home at 12.20am. Pictures? Na'ah..did not even have the time to reach out for my camera on this one day. *sob sob* plans made with some friends had to be cancelled and postponed to the next day..
4th day of Hari Raya is indeed the most peaceful Hari Raya for this year. Finally, my director approved my leave for a day and a half and i got to spend my sweet time with family and friends on Hari Raya. The best thing was, Hubby came to Kuching on that very day and it can't be any more perfect than having all my loved ones around during this special celebration.
The rest of the days of my Hari Raya were perfect. Went out to some relatives' and friends' houses, spend some leisure time outside with Hubby and got to introduce him to most important people in my life. So yea..there goes my raya. It wasn;t perfect but the feeling of having your loved ones around on this special day is definitely what I've been longing for for this past 4 years. With this, I'll just share some of the pictures out of the many pictures that we took on Hari Raya. Babe, I still wish you guys were here..
Me and my x-classmates. Thanks for stopping by! :-)
The girls at my crib
The couple la kan..
My best gurl in Kch. *hugs* Haha..
@ Fazlin's place
*Yawn* there's my call. Till later~
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
First pay check. Get to celebrate Mak's birthday. Simple one, but what makes it more special is the fact that I get to hug her on her special day after 5 years being away on her birthdays. Hope she enjoyed her 54th Birthday as much as I did!
Sunday, September 24, 2006
I don't have anything much to say. Hope that Ramadhan will bring us joy and make us better individuals, InsyaAllah.
Oh! Just in case you're wondering, I am feeling much better now..
well I am not a big fan of posting some lyrics on my entry, but this song actually made me realize the one thing that i might have forgotten..so, just for the sake of sharing..here goes..
Daratan Yang Berduri
Bagiku Bukan Musibah
Malahan Hikmah Berharga
Katalah Apa Saja
Yang Jelik Penuh Dusta
Kau Bebas Warnai Diriku
Di Minda Yang Kelabu
Siapa Diri Ini
Tuhan Yang Memahami
Amarah Dan Kecewa
Hanyalah Bara Membakar Jiwa
Sungguh Pun Ku Terkilan
Ku Pilih Berdiam Diri
Tanpa Dendam Dihati
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Somehow, after crying, I start to realize the silver linings in this black, greyish clouds in my life these days. maybe it will make me be a better person. Those words from her might be a stepping stone for me to move forward. InsyaAllah. Somehow, my inner feelings says it is really hard for me to change who i am..i don't understand..what the hell is wrong with being friendly? i can't be friends with the lower level employees? who the hell set the rules? are they allowed to tell me who i can and cannot mix with? isn't that considered as my personal life? WTF??!! it hurts when i actually had to sit there..listening to her..and not say a word..whatever it is, one thing i told myself, I DON'T WANNA B A STUCK UP ENGINEER..that ain't me! so please understand..judge me based on my work, not my size or my personality. Wasn't that's what you said to me, in my face, during the interviews??!!!
And her. Another thing that's been bothering me all night. I understand my role. I understand that I HAVE to respect her no matter how wrong she can be. Tonight I felt like a bigger person. I had the guts to say sorry. I'm loud. I'm outspoken. I voice out what I feel and think. Maybe for some people including her, that's rude. For me, that's straightforward. Some people refuse to accept the truth and choose to be mad about it and try so hard, in fact, extra hard to defend themselves and prove themselves right. But I don't care. For me, personally, if you think you're right, nobody can stop you from feeling that way. However, if you know you're wrong, be a bigger person by saying sorry. Do not act based on your feelings, but think before you act. Hitting me on the back? Why? Why did she have to do that? Out of control? Or just acting without using her mind? Also, strangling me on my throat? Was i that wrong? Did i deserve to be killed just because i said NO? Some people can really get out of their mind when they're mad. So, I vote for "being straightforward and rude" rather than hurting other people that you love, physically. No matter how hard they hit me on my back or strangled me on top my throat, my respect for them both was still there. Frankly, things will never be the same. Never. Period.
My eyes. Swollen. My heart. Squashed. My head. Spinning. Can't think. Can't run. Live with it. Be strong. Move on. Thanks sayang. Thanks Sue. I have no idea how can I go through these drama without both of you. Praying to Him, so things would be better as time passes by..insyaAllah..
To all the Muslims out there,
Selamat Menyambut bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak. May God bless us all..~Amin.
Also a shout out to Sue,
HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY Gurl! Hope you'll have a great one!
Saturday, September 16, 2006
Friday, September 15, 2006
The doorgift and registration committee (from left):
Jafni, Lilianty, Ting S.L (Dutch Lady costume), myself, Sylvia and Bb (my boss)
Temenggung Juahir, Puteri Rahiza, Jafni and Simson (the person who recruited me..haha! jd geng daaa youuu!!)
Hm..gotta get ready for tomorrow. It's currently Friday, but I still need to go to work tomorrow for a bit to finish up my stuff. Thanx to our callback allowance facility. Without it, I won't even bother to come to my office on Saturdays..huhuhuhuh..(what a spirit..!)
Owh..here's another picture of me at the office with my colleagues on one of the girls' last day at Sanmina-SCI..haiyak! And no, we don't dress up to work..and jeans are totally ALLOWED! Cool huh? I think so.. :P
Until then people.. ~daaaa *wink wink*
p/s: Babe, aku rindu koerg banyak sgt..!!
Monday, August 28, 2006
My first day was fun! I did not really do anything much besides trying to get to know my colleagues..pusing punya pusing, we ended up gossiping about Sitipu (if u know what I mean)..hahaha..yea, since my boss wasn't around..so of course, MERDEKA!! haha..
The 2nd day was the start of everything, sorta. Get to learn uh-lot of stuff from the production line. Who would've thought that this little girl will end up "auditing" the operators in the production line (eventho I have no idea how the process is done)?? Yea, of course nobody actually thought that I am one of the engineers..so they treated me like the boss's daughter..terhegeh-hegeh observing the Printed Circuit Board manufacturing process. Woohoo..excuse them, do not judge me by my size..hehehe.."line kerek sket"..
A week working, so far so good. I can tell that most people are looking down at me. Not because I am short, but because of my petite body too and my "smile-always" look. Haha..me? smile always? Hm..I quote that from my 2 colleagues, Felicia and Carol..so I accept those "remarks" with open arms, ears and nose..ahahahah..
Last weekend. I went to Miri for a short trip specially for Kak Liza's wedding reception, held at her in law's place. It was like a business trip for me knowing that I departed from Kuching on Saturday and came back on Sunday. Yes, nowadays airplanes are like buses..haha..Air Asia kan ada..but the funny thing is, I naik MAS..jadi??
*SiGh* I have lots and lots of nice pictures to share, but I am too tired to upload them on here at the moment..let's just keep those for my next entry.
I gotta go to bed..*yawn* big, long day tomorrow I might say.. whatever it is, stay tuned...!!
Sunday, August 20, 2006
I am currently in the 'mood' to actually update my blog..why not??!! At the same time, I am enjoying my leisure time at home before I actually start working this coming week. Owh..correction. In my previous entry, I "announced" my position as a Quality Assurance Engineer but after receiving my offer letter, embarassed, my position is actually as a Quality Audit (QA) Engineer..haha..well, at least I got the company's name right! Now that I got the job, Alhamdulillah..my job-hunting days have come to an end (for now) and I shall move on to a new chapter in my life.
So, last weekend..4 of my 8 MMU-C4 buddies graduated..unfortunately, I couldn't make it to their commencement..but the good thing is, I actually got to get their pictures sent to my email. Yeay! I am so damn proud of them.. I haven't had the chance to actually meet them since I came home; just YM and messages to keep us close. Hopefully, one day, we're gonna get to meet up; ALL 9 of us! Miss all of you so much!!
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Okay..latest news. I finally got a job as a Quality Assurance Engineer in Sanmina-SCI..and of course the position is based in Kuching, Sarawak. I should be jumping up and down right now, but I guess that can wait..at least until the minute I receive the offer letter in my hands..for those who know me well, they should know that I am a very hard-thinker. Although my boss-to-be (insyaAllah) called me last Friday saying that they are ready to offer me the position, I consider myself unemployed..til' the minute I put down my signature on the offer letter and accept the position officially..haha! I think too much heh? Heck..wudever..that's just me..
So yea..lately, this past month I have been busy with multiple events in my life...it started with a visit from my babes, Nard & Am to Kuching on July 18 - July 21..it was our mini-reunion (since Yana was not here!) before Nard went back to Penn State. It was short, but meaningful and full of fun..I miss both of you so damn much..i couldn't find the exact words to describe how excited I was when I picked both of u up at the airport..and how sad I was letting u both go..but life goes on..just thinking about u guys can definitely makes my day!! Hm..pictures time??
We got to visit Sarawak Cultural Village.. ;)
It was cloudy..but we couldn't miss it for the world..Santubong Beach!
After the seafood dinner..yummy! Thanx Mak.. :D
On the sampan-tour..heh! What an experience..!
Few minutes before I had to let them go for now..*sob sob*
After they left, I kept myself busy..preparing for Kak Liza's wedding..day after day, night after night, the day came..Alhamdulillah the event went as planned on August 5- August 6 and I guess, I'm next..in few yrs time (maybe, InsyaAllah)..Hubby came to Kuching few days before the ceremony..after 2 months away from each other, we got to spend the week together..aauuww! Nothing much to say..but here are some pictures of the beautiful wedding..
The sisters..and Asfa Wardina..
The family, with the bride and bridegroom..
Myself, Afza and Sue..hehe..
Last but not least, a shout out to Yana, Anna and Anis,
I AM SO PROUD OF ALL OF YOU!
WELCOME TO THE REAL WORLD..AND..
MOST IMPORTANTLY, WELCOME HOME!!"
Friday, July 07, 2006
While at home, I get to also learn that at some point, I have to let go of the past, enjoy the present and look forward to the future. I was in the States. I was a student. Now, I am a graduate. I have goals in life. In order to reach that goal, I have to move on and try my best. My memories of my life in Penn State will never be forgotten. I will definitely carry those memories with me wherever I go. My friends too, I will always treasure them all as long as I live.
Here's something to share. Before I actually went to Penn State, I have these 5 personal goals..athough I've never written it anywhere or tell anybody about them, I am really glad that I fulfill all of them as planned. And now that I'm back, I'd like to share them with you..
1. Make a lot of new friends and not CLING with my Malaysian friends all the time. Yes, I went out with my girls and some other Malaysians but at least at one point, you can call a non-Malaysian friend and hang out with them..bowling? dinner? Players? haha..jk! Of course, I tell myself over and over to always hold on to my roots and my beliefs..
2. Get a job..any job..that way, I can make new friends..and make money..which brings me to my next point..
3. Be financially independent. Meaning, I would avoid asking for my allowances from my mom or dad for my expanses, especially for SHOPPING! Malu sket babe!
4. Balance my life..between studying and socializing. Go out. Have fun. At the same time, keep the grades up.
5. Most importantly, I told myself to come back and help my family and help bring Malaysia forward! There is definitely no other place like home..
You might have different views on whatever I listed. Okay..so why exactly I'm revealing my personal goals? Haha..whatever..this is my blog..so I can enter anything that I wish..
So yea..I gotta go..going out with my hunny, Sue. Kinda miss here..haven't seen here for a week..until later..toodles!
Thursday, June 29, 2006
It's been a while since I entered anything on my blog. What's going on? Hm..currently I am in my room..in Kuching, Sarawak, Malaysia. Just got up..a big, big THANX to Kak Liza..haha! Well, it's been a month since I left State College, Penn State University and U.S.A. I'm well-rested at home..and sadly, I am still unemployed. Hehe..but anyhoo..I am enjoying my so called "vacation" and I am still waiting for job offers after couple interviews.
The day I left, finally, I got to take some pictures with JoePa's statue, and the Pennsylvania State University's sign near Beaver Stadium..Not to forget, I stopped by at the Creamery to see my family there..sad moment..but sometimes you have to let go right? Yana and Am went to the airport to see us leave..but due to the lateness, I saved my tears until the plane took off from State College..and finally from L.A. Babe, seriously, those tears are especially for you..here's some pictures that we took before we left..for good..
So, what happened after I got off that plane on June 2nd 2006? It was like the perfect moment. I got to meet up with my whole family right after I claimed my luggage..and as I expected and requested, there were 3 bouquet of flowers and some balloons with the word CONGRATULATIONS on them.. how sweet.. it might seem "simple" and "plain" for some people, but it meant the world to me..seeing my whole family there..after 2 years away..picture time?
Hm..yea..although they don't get to be there for my graduation ceremony..but I know..deep in them..they are damn proud of me..!!!!
Moving on..I stayed in K.L. for couple days before I head home for Kuching..we sorta just spend some time together..and of course I had the most FUN!! We went to Times Square Theme Park and Sunway Lagoon..just to entertain the kids..no, of course I did not get to enjoy the parks that much..erm..maybe a lil' by looking at hot guys around (adeke?)..haha..jk..but then of course the main point is to spend some time together..all of us..isn't that what we're supposed to do as a family? Hehe..bottom line is..I am the happiest person in the world to have my family around me..XOXO..more pictures la kan.. *wink wink*
Basically..I am glad that I'm home..back with my family..the people that I have missed the most..for this whole 4 years away...
I promise to update my blog every once in a while..with my most recent activities and stories..
Owh..a shout out to my babe, Nard for her 22nd Birthday..
HOW I WISH I WAS THERE TO CELEBRATE YOUR BIRTHDAY WITH YOU LIKE ALWAYS..
BUT DO REMEMBER, NO MATTER HOW FAR I AM, YOU WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED!!!!
HOPE U'VE HAD YOUR GOOD TIME ON YOUR BIRTHDAY..CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU AND AM SOON!!!
MISS YOU GUYS LOTS!
HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY!
NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS IN THE FUTURE, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!!
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Today is the last day in State College. Will be heading home soon.. to be exact, it's today.. parts of me says,"YEAY! I am coming home!" My family sounded really excited to welcome me home. The IMs, phone calls and messages from family and friends back home brings out the excitement to get off that plane, run to each loved ones and hug them warmly.. that sounds like a perfect moment, doesn't it?
Another part of me believes that this would be one of the hardest things that I have to do; leave State College, my PSU family and my other friends here. State College has been my home for 4 years, my Malaysian friends are like my brothers and sisters. Apart from them, I have my other friends all over the United States, my Sunway buddies and some other people in my batch that never fail to be there for me through my ups and downs.
My other family members here..Nard, Am, Izzawan, Sarah, Zal, Diane, Dart, Daju, Kunod, Mahirah and even Oja..also, the boys.. they will always be missed after I leave here. Although I don't get to spend a lot of time with each and everyone of them during my 4 years here, they have left their footprints on my heart..and trust me, they can never go away..
We will be miles and miles apart..but you guys will be among the closest to my lil' heart..
Moving on.. I will be back in Malaysia.. hoping to get a descent job.. settle down.. wish me luck in whatever I do.. and stay in touch.. I just got an offer for an interview with Texas Instrument. I can't lie. I was psyched. Kinda putting my hopes up high for this one. Say your prayers for me.. even if I won't get the job, I hope the interview experience will keep me strong.. and help me get the job that I desire.. aja-aja fighting..!!
Before I end my last entry from United States, here's a lil' something for all my friends out there..
but the gift was given from me to you.
we went thru moments that were good and bad,
even moments that were happy and sad.
you supported me when i was in tears,
we stuck together when we were in fear,
it's really sad that it had to be this way,
but it has reached its very last day.
miles away cant keep us apart,
'cause you'll always be in my heart.
I love you guys..and there ARE NO WORDS to describe how hard it is to say goodbye...
Thursday, May 18, 2006
To my Malaysian Penn State family, my IE family and my other friends;
THANX for keeping me strong..
THANX for being there..
THANX for the cards, gifts, phone calls, text message and wishes..
No words can describe how thankful I am to have all of you close to me on my special day.
Well, I took uh-looott of good pictures. However, I know that it is impossible to post all of them on this entry..right? So as usual, here's the selected ones!
From left: Lydia, Luanne, me, Carla, Jackie, Jess, Stanley and Adit
My first IE friend, my classmate, groupmate and "argue"-mate Chad (right)
To these guys, thanx for showing up!
From left: Ed, Ricky, me and Chris
My Creamery buddies. You girls mean so much to me!
From left: Allison, Shannon and Cara
More creamery gang. From left: Tim, Brian and Andrew
Erk..maybe this is why they don't let me be in charge of the cash register..LOL!
Malaysia, here i come..!!
Recently, I have been away this whole week.. went for a mini-vacation, with Hubby, his family along with his aunt's family. Tired, happy, nervous, anxious, excited, afraid..but I guess, overall, I can summarize the whole trip in 2 words: INTERESTING yet CHALLENGING! I got to know his family members and I learned how to be around them..most importantly, I get to spend valuable times with them. I hope this mini-trip that we had brought lotsa fun to everybody as it was for me. I admit that I got nervous and scared at times, somehow, I guess that is what every girl has to experience especially when they get to meet the boyfriend's family. This trip meant a lot to me, and this might be a stepping stone for both of us to bring our relationship to the next level. Doakan kami allright? Well, this time, I have less pictures but enough to summarize the trip..here goes..
Although I wasn't on my best condition for a few days of the trip, I was glad that I was part of hubby's family's trip. *Yawn*- i guess, i've updated this blog more than enuff for now..i better head to bed before i collapse right here, in front of my lappy..until then..toodles!