Past, present and future

It's been a month in Malaysia. Sadly, I am still unemployed. Bored? Sometimes, yea, but to be honest, I kinda enjoy my life as a so-called housewife. One might think that I will cry to death from boredom but surprisingly, I get to learn a lot of new things by just staying in. I get to cook for my family, yes, real food! I get to spend some time with my friends. Y'know, go out, have a drink and just chit-chatting..

While at home, I get to also learn that at some point, I have to let go of the past, enjoy the present and look forward to the future. I was in the States. I was a student. Now, I am a graduate. I have goals in life. In order to reach that goal, I have to move on and try my best. My memories of my life in Penn State will never be forgotten. I will definitely carry those memories with me wherever I go. My friends too, I will always treasure them all as long as I live.

Here's something to share. Before I actually went to Penn State, I have these 5 personal goals..athough I've never written it anywhere or tell anybody about them, I am really glad that I fulfill all of them as planned. And now that I'm back, I'd like to share them with you..

1. Make a lot of new friends and not CLING with my Malaysian friends all the time. Yes, I went out with my girls and some other Malaysians but at least at one point, you can call a non-Malaysian friend and hang out with them..bowling? dinner? Players? haha..jk! Of course, I tell myself over and over to always hold on to my roots and my beliefs..

2. Get a job..any job..that way, I can make new friends..and make money..which brings me to my next point..

3. Be financially independent. Meaning, I would avoid asking for my allowances from my mom or dad for my expanses, especially for SHOPPING! Malu sket babe!

4. Balance my life..between studying and socializing. Go out. Have fun. At the same time, keep the grades up.

5. Most importantly, I told myself to come back and help my family and help bring Malaysia forward! There is definitely no other place like home..

You might have different views on whatever I listed. Okay..so why exactly I'm revealing my personal goals? Haha..whatever..this is my blog..so I can enter anything that I wish..

So yea..I gotta go..going out with my hunny, Sue. Kinda miss here..haven't seen here for a week..until later..toodles!

Annyoung..

Hi! Assalamualaikum..

It's been a while since I entered anything on my blog. What's going on? Hm..currently I am in my room..in Kuching, Sarawak, Malaysia. Just got up..a big, big THANX to Kak Liza..haha! Well, it's been a month since I left State College, Penn State University and U.S.A. I'm well-rested at home..and sadly, I am still unemployed. Hehe..but anyhoo..I am enjoying my so called "vacation" and I am still waiting for job offers after couple interviews.

The day I left, finally, I got to take some pictures with JoePa's statue, and the Pennsylvania State University's sign near Beaver Stadium..Not to forget, I stopped by at the Creamery to see my family there..sad moment..but sometimes you have to let go right? Yana and Am went to the airport to see us leave..but due to the lateness, I saved my tears until the plane took off from State College..and finally from L.A. Babe, seriously, those tears are especially for you..here's some pictures that we took before we left..for good..

My Creamery Family..picture taken right before I went to the airport..

Love ya Joe Paterno!

You both have always been special friends to me..miss you guys!

Finally..

So, what happened after I got off that plane on June 2nd 2006? It was like the perfect moment. I got to meet up with my whole family right after I claimed my luggage..and as I expected and requested, there were 3 bouquet of flowers and some balloons with the word CONGRATULATIONS on them.. how sweet.. it might seem "simple" and "plain" for some people, but it meant the world to me..seeing my whole family there..after 2 years away..picture time?

This is the plane that took me home..

My family..and some flowers and balloons..haha!

Just for Me..

Hm..yea..although they don't get to be there for my graduation ceremony..but I know..deep in them..they are damn proud of me..!!!!

Moving on..I stayed in K.L. for couple days before I head home for Kuching..we sorta just spend some time together..and of course I had the most FUN!! We went to Times Square Theme Park and Sunway Lagoon..just to entertain the kids..no, of course I did not get to enjoy the parks that much..erm..maybe a lil' by looking at hot guys around (adeke?)..haha..jk..but then of course the main point is to spend some time together..all of us..isn't that what we're supposed to do as a family? Hehe..bottom line is..I am the happiest person in the world to have my family around me..XOXO..more pictures la kan.. *wink wink*

do we look alike?

Aren't they lovely?

Me..with the most beautiful woman on earth..jgn jeles!

Basically..I am glad that I'm home..back with my family..the people that I have missed the most..for this whole 4 years away...

I promise to update my blog every once in a while..with my most recent activities and stories..

Owh..a shout out to my babe, Nard for her 22nd Birthday..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!!!
HOW I WISH I WAS THERE TO CELEBRATE YOUR BIRTHDAY WITH YOU LIKE ALWAYS..
BUT DO REMEMBER, NO MATTER HOW FAR I AM, YOU WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED!!!!
HOPE U'VE HAD YOUR GOOD TIME ON YOUR BIRTHDAY..CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU AND AM SOON!!!
MISS YOU GUYS LOTS!

Another shout out to my special someone..Aimran Hakim...

GOOD LUCK ON YOUR INTERVIEW 2DAY!
HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY!
NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS IN THE FUTURE, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!!

That's it for now, for all the update request and all..thanx..you make me feel so much appreciated..I will definitely try to update my blog as frequent as I can..have a good day everyday..To all my friends back in State College..I still miss you guys!

The Hardest Thing

I am definitely not good in arranging sad words.. not good at saying goodbyes.. but one thing for sure; I am DAMN good on crying my eyes out when i leave my good friends and family behind..

Today is the last day in State College. Will be heading home soon.. to be exact, it's today.. parts of me says,"YEAY! I am coming home!" My family sounded really excited to welcome me home. The IMs, phone calls and messages from family and friends back home brings out the excitement to get off that plane, run to each loved ones and hug them warmly.. that sounds like a perfect moment, doesn't it?

Another part of me believes that this would be one of the hardest things that I have to do; leave State College, my PSU family and my other friends here. State College has been my home for 4 years, my Malaysian friends are like my brothers and sisters. Apart from them, I have my other friends all over the United States, my Sunway buddies and some other people in my batch that never fail to be there for me through my ups and downs.

My other family members here..Nard, Am, Izzawan, Sarah, Zal, Diane, Dart, Daju, Kunod, Mahirah and even Oja..also, the boys.. they will always be missed after I leave here. Although I don't get to spend a lot of time with each and everyone of them during my 4 years here, they have left their footprints on my heart..and trust me, they can never go away..

My circle of trust. Missing: Sarah and Kunod.

We will be miles and miles apart..but you guys will be among the closest to my lil' heart..

I was away for the weekend. Believe it or not, this mini-trip to Madison, WI for the Midwest Games is the most memorable trip I ever had throughout my 4 years here. My last road trip with the Penn Staters, that is. The good thing is, Penn State has won the overall trophy. In addition to that, I got to meet almost all my friends from different colleges in the US. Spend some time to actually share our experiences and ehem ehem gossips and took pictures of our mini-reunion.

Buddies from Univ of Minnesota
From left: Me, Ross and Sri

Sunway buddies..

These are the people that I will treasure forever
From left: Yana, me, Anis and Anna

After this, all of us will be going on our own directions after this but I am pretty sure the phrase FRIENDS FOREVER will always be "valid" for us 4. When I say 4 of us..that'd inlcude myself, Yana, Anna and Anis. It's been a while since we meet each other. Despite the distance, we all can still share our stories, laugh at the same jokes, be loud and enjoy our times together. I am so gonna miss this soon. In fact, I miss them all already..

Moving on.. I will be back in Malaysia.. hoping to get a descent job.. settle down.. wish me luck in whatever I do.. and stay in touch.. I just got an offer for an interview with Texas Instrument. I can't lie. I was psyched. Kinda putting my hopes up high for this one. Say your prayers for me.. even if I won't get the job, I hope the interview experience will keep me strong.. and help me get the job that I desire.. aja-aja fighting..!!

Before I end my last entry from United States, here's a lil' something for all my friends out there..

you're my friend and that is true,
but the gift was given from me to you.
we went thru moments that were good and bad,
even moments that were happy and sad.
you supported me when i was in tears,
we stuck together when we were in fear,

it's really sad that it had to be this way,
but it has reached its very last day.
miles away cant keep us apart,
'cause you'll always be in my heart.

I love you guys..and there ARE NO WORDS to describe how hard it is to say goodbye...