The Hardest Thing

I am definitely not good in arranging sad words.. not good at saying goodbyes.. but one thing for sure; I am DAMN good on crying my eyes out when i leave my good friends and family behind..

Today is the last day in State College. Will be heading home soon.. to be exact, it's today.. parts of me says,"YEAY! I am coming home!" My family sounded really excited to welcome me home. The IMs, phone calls and messages from family and friends back home brings out the excitement to get off that plane, run to each loved ones and hug them warmly.. that sounds like a perfect moment, doesn't it?

Another part of me believes that this would be one of the hardest things that I have to do; leave State College, my PSU family and my other friends here. State College has been my home for 4 years, my Malaysian friends are like my brothers and sisters. Apart from them, I have my other friends all over the United States, my Sunway buddies and some other people in my batch that never fail to be there for me through my ups and downs.

My other family members here..Nard, Am, Izzawan, Sarah, Zal, Diane, Dart, Daju, Kunod, Mahirah and even Oja..also, the boys.. they will always be missed after I leave here. Although I don't get to spend a lot of time with each and everyone of them during my 4 years here, they have left their footprints on my heart..and trust me, they can never go away..

My circle of trust. Missing: Sarah and Kunod.

We will be miles and miles apart..but you guys will be among the closest to my lil' heart..

I was away for the weekend. Believe it or not, this mini-trip to Madison, WI for the Midwest Games is the most memorable trip I ever had throughout my 4 years here. My last road trip with the Penn Staters, that is. The good thing is, Penn State has won the overall trophy. In addition to that, I got to meet almost all my friends from different colleges in the US. Spend some time to actually share our experiences and ehem ehem gossips and took pictures of our mini-reunion.

Buddies from Univ of Minnesota
From left: Me, Ross and Sri

Sunway buddies..

These are the people that I will treasure forever
From left: Yana, me, Anis and Anna

After this, all of us will be going on our own directions after this but I am pretty sure the phrase FRIENDS FOREVER will always be "valid" for us 4. When I say 4 of us..that'd inlcude myself, Yana, Anna and Anis. It's been a while since we meet each other. Despite the distance, we all can still share our stories, laugh at the same jokes, be loud and enjoy our times together. I am so gonna miss this soon. In fact, I miss them all already..

Moving on.. I will be back in Malaysia.. hoping to get a descent job.. settle down.. wish me luck in whatever I do.. and stay in touch.. I just got an offer for an interview with Texas Instrument. I can't lie. I was psyched. Kinda putting my hopes up high for this one. Say your prayers for me.. even if I won't get the job, I hope the interview experience will keep me strong.. and help me get the job that I desire.. aja-aja fighting..!!

Before I end my last entry from United States, here's a lil' something for all my friends out there..

you're my friend and that is true,
but the gift was given from me to you.
we went thru moments that were good and bad,
even moments that were happy and sad.
you supported me when i was in tears,
we stuck together when we were in fear,

it's really sad that it had to be this way,
but it has reached its very last day.
miles away cant keep us apart,
'cause you'll always be in my heart.

I love you guys..and there ARE NO WORDS to describe how hard it is to say goodbye...