The Hardest Thing

I am definitely not good in arranging sad words.. not good at saying goodbyes.. but one thing for sure; I am DAMN good on crying my eyes out when i leave my good friends and family behind..

Today is the last day in State College. Will be heading home soon.. to be exact, it's today.. parts of me says,"YEAY! I am coming home!" My family sounded really excited to welcome me home. The IMs, phone calls and messages from family and friends back home brings out the excitement to get off that plane, run to each loved ones and hug them warmly.. that sounds like a perfect moment, doesn't it?

Another part of me believes that this would be one of the hardest things that I have to do; leave State College, my PSU family and my other friends here. State College has been my home for 4 years, my Malaysian friends are like my brothers and sisters. Apart from them, I have my other friends all over the United States, my Sunway buddies and some other people in my batch that never fail to be there for me through my ups and downs.

My other family members here..Nard, Am, Izzawan, Sarah, Zal, Diane, Dart, Daju, Kunod, Mahirah and even Oja..also, the boys.. they will always be missed after I leave here. Although I don't get to spend a lot of time with each and everyone of them during my 4 years here, they have left their footprints on my heart..and trust me, they can never go away..

My circle of trust. Missing: Sarah and Kunod.

We will be miles and miles apart..but you guys will be among the closest to my lil' heart..

I was away for the weekend. Believe it or not, this mini-trip to Madison, WI for the Midwest Games is the most memorable trip I ever had throughout my 4 years here. My last road trip with the Penn Staters, that is. The good thing is, Penn State has won the overall trophy. In addition to that, I got to meet almost all my friends from different colleges in the US. Spend some time to actually share our experiences and ehem ehem gossips and took pictures of our mini-reunion.

Buddies from Univ of Minnesota
From left: Me, Ross and Sri

Sunway buddies..

These are the people that I will treasure forever
From left: Yana, me, Anis and Anna

After this, all of us will be going on our own directions after this but I am pretty sure the phrase FRIENDS FOREVER will always be "valid" for us 4. When I say 4 of us..that'd inlcude myself, Yana, Anna and Anis. It's been a while since we meet each other. Despite the distance, we all can still share our stories, laugh at the same jokes, be loud and enjoy our times together. I am so gonna miss this soon. In fact, I miss them all already..

Moving on.. I will be back in Malaysia.. hoping to get a descent job.. settle down.. wish me luck in whatever I do.. and stay in touch.. I just got an offer for an interview with Texas Instrument. I can't lie. I was psyched. Kinda putting my hopes up high for this one. Say your prayers for me.. even if I won't get the job, I hope the interview experience will keep me strong.. and help me get the job that I desire.. aja-aja fighting..!!

Before I end my last entry from United States, here's a lil' something for all my friends out there..

you're my friend and that is true,
but the gift was given from me to you.
we went thru moments that were good and bad,
even moments that were happy and sad.
you supported me when i was in tears,
we stuck together when we were in fear,

it's really sad that it had to be this way,
but it has reached its very last day.
miles away cant keep us apart,
'cause you'll always be in my heart.

I love you guys..and there ARE NO WORDS to describe how hard it is to say goodbye...

I MADE IT!

It's been a week that i became an official Penn State alumni. Haven't had the chance to "report" on one of the biggest events in my life.. MY GRADUATION! It was filled with pride, joy, fun, excitement, hugs, kisses(erk?) and some goodbyes. Although my family didn't make it there to the ceremony, I felt really blessed to have my friends around me.

To my Malaysian Penn State family, my IE family and my other friends;

THANX for keeping me strong..
THANX for being there..
THANX for the cards, gifts, phone calls, text message and wishes..

No words can describe how thankful I am to have all of you close to me on my special day.

Well, I took uh-looott of good pictures. However, I know that it is impossible to post all of them on this entry..right? So as usual, here's the selected ones!

Having him there..graduating with me..is in fact the sweetest thing..

Can't thank them enuff for spending the big day with me..

My Penn State family..without you guys there..I'll be standing at the side..crying..i guess..

My IE friends..can't imagine not seeing any of you again..*sob sob*
From left: Lydia, Luanne, me, Carla, Jackie, Jess, Stanley and Adit

My classmate, Brad (left) &
My first IE friend, my classmate, groupmate and "argue"-mate Chad (right)

sigh.. From left: Joe, Jeff, me, Carla and Travis a.k.a Ty

To these guys, thanx for showing up!
From left: Ed, Ricky, me and Chris

My Creamery buddies. You girls mean so much to me!
From left: Allison, Shannon and Cara

More creamery gang. From left: Tim, Brian and Andrew
Erk..maybe this is why they don't let me be in charge of the cash register..LOL!

Pheuw..so, what's new with me..?? It's been a week since I last became a Penn State undergraduate..I am an alumni now and I am very proud of my personal accomplishment. It may not be as "wow" as some other people's victory, but I am still proud with what I achieved.

This degree in Industrial and Manufacturing Engineering is for my mom..for her hard work..her support..and prayers..

I'll be coming home..for good..with this degree, I hope that she can now sit back and relax..it's time for her to enjoy her "investments" on her daughters..
Malaysia, here i come..!!

Recently, I have been away this whole week.. went for a mini-vacation, with Hubby, his family along with his aunt's family. Tired, happy, nervous, anxious, excited, afraid..but I guess, overall, I can summarize the whole trip in 2 words: INTERESTING yet CHALLENGING! I got to know his family members and I learned how to be around them..most importantly, I get to spend valuable times with them. I hope this mini-trip that we had brought lotsa fun to everybody as it was for me. I admit that I got nervous and scared at times, somehow, I guess that is what every girl has to experience especially when they get to meet the boyfriend's family. This trip meant a lot to me, and this might be a stepping stone for both of us to bring our relationship to the next level. Doakan kami allright? Well, this time, I have less pictures but enough to summarize the trip..here goes..

Hubby and I in Niagara Falls

Totally soaked with Aiman, Hubby and his mom..

That's us on the boat to the Falls

Hubby and I (again) on the ferry to the Statue of Liberty

At Central Park, us, his cuzzy (Nana) and his aunt and uncle

Bonding with Lala in Central Park

The girls and I

Although I wasn't on my best condition for a few days of the trip, I was glad that I was part of hubby's family's trip. *Yawn*- i guess, i've updated this blog more than enuff for now..i better head to bed before i collapse right here, in front of my lappy..until then..toodles!

So close to there..

Frankyly, I have nothing interesting to say. I am currently at work. My final shift in ULC for the rest of my life. It hasn't been busy at all tonight. I should be studying right now but obviously I am not. I am done with 2 finals and my last final ever as an undergraduate here will be on Friday noon. Haha..I am still in my denial mode. All I need now is complete focus and study hard for my last final exam. Hehe..

I bet everyone is really tired right now. I mean, these people in Penn State. Soon enough, it'd be over. No more staying up late, no more staring at the freakin' thick textbooks for long, lenghty hours and definitely no more worrying about the grades for a bit (of course for me, I will not experience all those for quite a long time..hehe).

So, hang in there if you're not done with your final exams yet. It will be over in no time.

My graduation. It's held on May 12, 2006 at 7pm in Bryce Jordan Center. My family will not be here to attend my graduation ceremony. However, I really2 hope that my friends here will be there, watch me and cheer for me while I walk up the stage with my cap and gown. All of you, I mean, ALL of you, my blog readers are invited to come! That'd mean the world to me. I will really try my best to not cry..hehe..

Ooppss..I better get back to work before I get caught slacking off. I don't wanna get fired on my last day. Haha! Until then~toodles!