So close to there..

Frankyly, I have nothing interesting to say. I am currently at work. My final shift in ULC for the rest of my life. It hasn't been busy at all tonight. I should be studying right now but obviously I am not. I am done with 2 finals and my last final ever as an undergraduate here will be on Friday noon. Haha..I am still in my denial mode. All I need now is complete focus and study hard for my last final exam. Hehe..

I bet everyone is really tired right now. I mean, these people in Penn State. Soon enough, it'd be over. No more staying up late, no more staring at the freakin' thick textbooks for long, lenghty hours and definitely no more worrying about the grades for a bit (of course for me, I will not experience all those for quite a long time..hehe).

So, hang in there if you're not done with your final exams yet. It will be over in no time.

My graduation. It's held on May 12, 2006 at 7pm in Bryce Jordan Center. My family will not be here to attend my graduation ceremony. However, I really2 hope that my friends here will be there, watch me and cheer for me while I walk up the stage with my cap and gown. All of you, I mean, ALL of you, my blog readers are invited to come! That'd mean the world to me. I will really try my best to not cry..hehe..

Ooppss..I better get back to work before I get caught slacking off. I don't wanna get fired on my last day. Haha! Until then~toodles!

Almost to the end of the road..

I can't believe that I am almost done with school. I have 3 more finals next week..then..I AM DONE!!! Excited? Happy? Sad? Scared? Anxious? Yes, yes, yes, yes and YES!

Last day of classes..here goes..

Us-having fun at Leonhard's computer lab..heh!

From left: Stanley (with his bad hair day), Me and Jared (the daddy-like guy)

Carla (the IE-Diva) and I.

On our way to the project showcase..From left: Jonathan, Me and Pedro

At the project showcase from left: Adit, me, Nicolas, Ayush, Fernanco and Jonathan

These guys..are awesome! From left: Chad (1 of my first IE friend), me and Bill Adler

Moving on, my last day working with my fellow tutors and supervisor, Stefanie..

Thanx to them for helping me out while tutoring..I will definitely miss tutoring!
Clockwise: Jeff, Steve, Jeremy and Ryan & Josh. Center: Stefanie and I

Next, my last shift at the Creamery..I will miss working there..scooping ice creams, stocking, getting free food from our tip box and all the people that I work with! Wish I have all their pictures but here are my shift-mates this semester..

The Creamery's Saturday night closers, Spring 2006. I enjoyed working with ALL of you..lotsa fun, laughters and craziness! From left: Abby, Christine, Andrew, Shannon, Joel & his nipple (yes, he's retarded!) and Me.

So, can I imagine not seeing them again EVER after I leave? NO! I am so gonna miss my life here, my friends and most importantly the good times..

And to my close Malaysian girlfriends here at Penn State..I will miss you guys the most. It's sad that the "era" has to end soon..we will continue in separate paths but I will always cherish our memories together..thanx for making me feel so close to home..can't imagine my life here without you..!

The seniors: Me, Yana & Izza..thanx for being there for me for this whole 4 years!

The junior that makes me go nuts, Nard. You are the coolest, babe!

This chick on the right? You make my world go upside down..haha! You rock, girl!

Finally, a special thanks to my one and only person, who shares my ups and downs here.. thanx for accepting my goods and bads for all this time..

haha..that's us, trying out our cap and gown..

TO ALL MY FRIENDS OUT THERE,
THANKS FOR MAKING MY 4-YEAR JOURNEY HERE MEANINGFUL!

Note: I didn't mean to turn this blog into a fotopage, but I love to share my pictures to my readers. I have more, but
well, here are the best ones! Hope you guys enjoy them as much as I do!

MiXed F33LinG$

Based on the title of this specific entry, obviously, I have mixed feelings right now :
sad, confused, happy, longing, homesick, excited etc etc

I am at work right now, google-ing for some news about the one unfortunate event that almost make me lose my mind before the MASAPSU BBQ today. I couldn't catch my breath when I heard about this tragic mishap but after listening to the healing voice of my beloved mother, I made it through the BBQ without any tears trickling down my cheeks. I managed to put the smiles on my face and also tried very hard to not spoil the afternoon/evening. I had fun..had good food, good company..also, took a lot of pictures of my Malaysian family members here, something to remember them by..I won't even know if I will get to spend much time with them after I leave here for good..right? I will for sure miss them ALL and if I have, at anytime (via direct interaction or blog), hurt anybody that I interact with while I'm here, I WOULD LIKE TO APOLOGIZE..I don't feel like sharing those pictures in my blog..partly b/c I am not in the best mood right now..and b/c I have sOooo many pictures saved on the memory card of mine..

I still can't believe that the last time I was home (almost 2 years ago) was actually my last chance to visit my granny's place. That house was old..but it always brings back all my childhood memories whenever I'm in it. That's the place where I spend most of my time with my granny..and also the place where the whole family would gather for each special occasions. Now, it's gone with all the belongings in it. It caught fire last 2 nights..everyone was safe..there were some minor injuries and traumas going on..but i guess I should be really grateful that no lives were taken away with the house. The two families who were living there are currently staying over at my place (which is 5 minutes walk from my granny's place). Kak Liza scanned an article on the accident with the actual picture of the house when it was on fire.


I recall, last three years, the first time I went home while in the U.S was in fact the last time that I get to kiss, hug and spent time with my grandmother. I never would have thought that I won't even get to be with her or attend her funeral. I personally think that I know her very, very well, but deep in me, I really wish that I could spend more time with her when she's still alive.

Come to think of it, I finally realized how things can actually happen when we least expect them. Nobody can see what's coming. Nobody can predict the future. I actually learn to treasure everybody..yes, I mean everybody that I know, whether I like her/him or not. I tell myself to at least TRY to get to be nice to everybody around me and spend some time with him/her when I get the chance..cause you'll never know if you will get the chance to see them again after that very second.

Nobody would think that in any minute or second, he or she would actually be the one reading Yassin to the person very dear to them or pouring water and flowers on his or her resting bed. Somethings are beyond our control. I won't wanna look back and be sorry for not acting the way I should and not saying the things I want to say to the people around me, especially to the ones I love and care about.

Can't lie, at this very moment, all I can think of is to go home..and be there for my family..support them in every ways that I can..