all about her...

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2010-05-06T23:48:00.001+08:00

Never knew that we can actually write a blog from wherever you are.so many things have changed in life, my job specifically. I lost 2 bosses in a month,get a new boss who has a completely different view abt planning,i hv my bestie in my office...and most importantly i have switched to a new role...again!

So yea.the only thing that is stable is my marriage.we've been together for more that 8 yrs now...alhamdulillah,no matter how chaotic the other part of my life turns to be,i can always count on the one certain thing in my life,my hubby n family...just hope i can cope with any challenge.

Til then,thank God i am still alive..

STORM, THUNDER & RAIN...

2010-03-24T17:18:00.007+08:00

i don't know if the title has to do with anything with what i am gonna say here. But right at this moment, i think the STORM will start to strike into my work field. I may be assigned to more challenging tasks, I will have to deal with tougher bosses, I may be working longer hours and I don't even know which direction I am going to.

oh well, anyways, my vacationS for the year has passed (almost). no more vacation for now, gotta focus on work and family.. alhamdulillah, i am still holding on with what i have.. so this year vacation-Bandung, USA and maybe singapore towards end of this year..next year, how? Japan can or not? China pon OK. or maybe Spain???!! ahahahaha.. ok. enjoy the random pics!

HOLLYWOOD! - March 2010

BANDUNG - Feb 2010

Opps. it's gonna rain outside. later toodles!

My Favorite Month is BACK!

2010-02-04T17:44:00.004+08:00

comel kan budak ni?

oh well. there ARE reasons why this month is SO VERY special.

1. Shortest month, therefore...
2. Less expanses, but towards the end..
3. We get profit sharing..so i can..
4. Pamper myself by shopping..for..
5. My BDAY GIFT...coz..
6. I'll have my BIRTHDAY coming up..yay!

ahaha.. so now we know why February is special..kan kan kan? oh! many2 plans made already..
1. CNY - gi Bandung. (yes, i love vacation OK!)
2. My Bday - up to Hubby to plan..(hint hint)
3. Our bestfriends wedding. Bride-2-be is my friend, Groom-2-be is Hubby's friend..and they both met...at my wedding in Kuching! cool huh?
4. Balik Kuching for MaulidurRasul! yay!

right. enuff with the list. i am just going to enjoy the month..as much as i can. *wink wink*
til then, toodles!

new yr, new home, new baby (almost)

2010-01-29T15:50:00.004+08:00

oopps.. yerp. that's right. almost. lost it at early stage. hm. come to think of it, maybe there are blessings in disguise behind the unfortunate incident. true?

so. a lot have happened. hubby and i have moved to our new home last Xmas. new yr celebration, we went to Cameron..mid Jan, we lost the baby. it was supposed to be 8 weeks. but well, we're pulling the trigger "PLEASE TRY AGAIN"

right. January is almost over. Here comes February. as always. older. wiser (maybe). clock is ticking, and i just hope the ONE question stops coming in.. (if you know what i mean..)

alright. for now. let's enjoy some pics for personal happiness. Yee Har!

Cameron Highlands

Random pics of the cutie-pies

Home Sweet Home

aVilion PD

2009-11-30T11:23:00.002+08:00

-Kasih & Sayang-
thanks to the choice of location;
i managed to have a SUPER-RESTFUL weekend with Hubby.

New Project whooop

2009-11-26T12:03:00.002+08:00

nope. it's not baby project. unfortunately.

haha. since the baby project is not yet working, we're switching modes to NEW HOME project.
easy. we're moving. new place. new home. this time, real home.

so yea. it'd be soon. insyaAllah December ni. not easy. house-cleaning. box-packing. baju lagi? isk.
once done, will let you know. maybe pics of new home?

on another note. i am feeling the distance. btwn me and my babes. looked at their get-together pics. i'm not there. positive note. maybe coz i don't hang out at the places that they went to. maybe coz they do things that i don't do. i don't know. but well, that's life. must go on.

oh well, yang penting happy with Hubby. Finally get to tell myself, THANK GOD I AM MARRIED!

look who's talking

2009-09-08T13:47:00.004+08:00

1. I work more than the required hours.
if not: i feel like i am a slacker.

2. I can't afford to ignore anyone's request.
if not: i will feel guilty and irresponsible.

3. I call up my line in the middle of the night to check on my devices.
if not: i can't sleep well that night thinking of my device status.

4. I go extra miles, to get my job done as well as other ppl's portion.
if not: i'd feel guilty. stupid me.

6. I can't keep myself at ease if I don't complete my tasks before i leave my workplace.
if not: i will be moody all day and night.

5. I come for weekend support.
if not: i feel like my boss thinks i am lazy.

6. I follow up on multiple stuff and I don't mind if any parties call me pushy.
if not: my job is delayed and i won't be satisfied.

As long as my job's done...I don't mind all the things on the side.
what have i become? a working donkey? shit. i hate this.

LucKy & Pera$aaN

2009-08-28T15:21:00.004+08:00

Hi Dayang - thanks for all the support for BMS!!!!

We are lucky to have you supporting us.

Best Regards,
Evelyn

my pms is officially over after receiving this message. thanks to Evelyn . seriously, it made my day.

my weekend begins in 1 hour 30mins. yay!
hubby and i..Kuching! Here we come!

**********edit************

apsal tetiba je rs mcm my boss doesn't like me?
sbb amik cuti byk sgt ke?
but i thot that's my right?
i kumpul cuti for couple months..then amik lah cuti kan..!
isk. ke ni perasaan je?
ke mcm sbb pms so suke pk bukan2?
isk. xley jadi ni.
nnt klo die x suke, xpasal2 increment x best.
aaaahh! x suke perasaan camnieh.
sekian. xpe. jgn pk. nk cuti. nk cuti.
sat. is this what u call workaholic?
amik cuti then feel guilty abt it..is it? ke?
dahla. bye.

2009-08-18T17:48:00.003+08:00

kami kan. dah xley shopping tau. dahtu kan. kami pun buat mission baru. that is, mengemas rumah sepenuh jiwa. haha. yela. klo nk jalan2 kene guna duit also. klo nk g malls, hati melonjak-lonjak bersama perasaan yang sgt2 ingin membeli. so. tgkla sendiri hasilnye. :P

iyerla kan. ramadhan hampir menjelma..ape salahnye.. (haha. padahal sengkek sebenanye.hanimun sakan, inilah padahnye! huhu)

our living room where we..erm. bersantai!

our dining area. hehe. finally, the table is cleared!!

fuh! so next mission is to clean all the 3 rooms. have to kemas, kemas and kemas! sekian...kuang3x

al-fatihah

2009-08-14T18:02:00.002+08:00

always remember, no matter how young/old you are, when your turn is up..
no 2nd chances.
always remember.
always be prepared.

To someone that i took for granted all this while, may you rest in peace.
i saw u suffer, and i know He knows best..
May our prayers go with you at your new place..
-amin-

2009-08-13T12:20:00.007+08:00

i am a wife. da setahun dah. huhu. bley imagine?
haha. so yes. my honyemooniversary trip.
i don't know how to type it out in words, but it was D BEST!!
we went sightseeing, we enjoy ourselves, we shop and we drop, we *T0Ot* (hint: sth to do with bonding.hahaaha..)

ha. dah. xley story lebih2. go see the pics below. byk g. nnt la upload kt FB. haha.. saje nk mengisi masa lapang nih. bosan kt ofis. klo nk detail meh wat appointment. kite story lebey2.

somewhere in Melbourne. bridge tu x nampak. hujan...

with 2 of the many landmarks of Sydney

nampak x sydney tower tuh?

lurve this piece! us @ Surfer's Paradise

unfortunately, i am back to the real world. bak kate 1 of my colleagues "Drag Me Back to Hell" lar kan..and ade gamba for this part gak okeeeeeeeey. that's me and my boss. *sigh*

oraits. sekian.

HoNeYm00nNiver$ary

2009-07-28T15:54:00.002+08:00

yes. tomorrow!
but today? sucks so freakin' bad!
work loads. passdowns. unfinished business.
boss plak. hrmph. the only good thing is that he approved my leave.

ok dah. singgah kejap je.
OSTROLIA! Here we come!

Lots and lotsaaaaa'......

wish list

2009-07-16T17:48:00.002+08:00

MY SUPER BIG WISH LIST:

1. Twenties Girl Book by Sophie Kinsella (it's available at bookstores NOW!)
2. MAC foundation powder (da tinggal sekerat kt luar lilitan bulatan tu je. ley imagine x?)
3. Big Apple Donut (nak yang ade almond chunks on top tu..aduh. yummy!)
4. Alice - a pair of CROCS (kaler silver..nape sume dah abes?)
5. Baju baju and baju.. (mcm x byk je variety skang ni...)
6. Contact Lense yg ade Kaler (yang ni hubby teringin tgk OK!)
7. Beetle Baru Kuning 1.6 (RM140K harganye. dream on lah ye?)

sekian list saye. xde makne. sbb hubby x kasik beli pape sampailah mendarat di bumi Australia!
hm wait. rasenye wish no 3 tu bley dpt kot mlm ni. hik3. ok. nk balik dr office sbb nk jumpe Hubby and ckp kt die that bini die ni nak donut tuh!

cau cincau!

mon-day!

2009-07-13T17:46:00.006+08:00

how are you? not much. not much work. not much stories. not much happenings. not yet kot.

hehe. arini is hari bermalasan. sgt malas. sgt rs nak mengular. nak balik awal. nak tgk TV. nak balik jumpe hubby. yes? yummy... hehehehe..malam ni nk tgk muvi lah. we become potato couch malam ni k sayang...

so memandangkan x byk nk story. kite share pics nak? pics si gedik2 yang mengade ni. teka deyrg ni dapat sume ke-gedikness tu dr mane..teka lah! ahahahah..

haih. bile la plak my turn nak turunkan ke"mahir"anku ini kpd my little ones. ngeh3..

minah gedik ngade nakal potpet xtau nk kate ape daaaaaaa

hero kampung manje seriyes anak mak dowh!

gadis manis, turun-termurun dr bonda nyaaaaaaaah!

SMILE...

2009-07-09T17:57:00.003+08:00

it doesn't feel good when u make someone cry kan?
it doesn't feel good when u can't think of anyone else but yourself?
it doesn't feel good when u think you did all the right things to make the other party happy, but end up, the other party thinks otherwise..?

it makes you feel helpless..you don't know what you should do..you don't know what you're supposed to do..worst, you don't even know what you CAN do to fix the situation..

dahtu..you feel sad..you feel demotivated..you feel insecure..

it's hard to be an adult. how do elder people, previous generations, mommies and daddies deal with this? all sorts of complication..
someone once said.."Allah will only test you when He knows that you can handle it"

*Sigh* ONE thing I know I can do best is SMILE, eventhough my heart is aching.....

Mak, i miss you..

relaxed..well-rested

2009-07-06T17:55:00.003+08:00

oh. i can't wait for her new book to be released on July 21st. he he..
hrm. my weekend was really relaxing. i read my book, "Remember Me?". Finished reading in 24 hours. Ada selingan sket2 ok.. yer..sy ni mmg slow reader..tp at least habiskan bacaan kaaaaannn? (oh, aritu ade orang tu nk pinjam buku..still nak ke? habaq la yeee klo still interested....)

back to my weekend story. then of course, took the chance to clean the house..laundry, kitchen spring cleaning, then vacuuming..etc etc..makes me think, how is it like to be a housewife full time? best ke aaa?

hrmph. nk balik rumah la. boring keje arini. x bape busy sgt. seb baik x amik MC pagi tadi. ngeh3.

random

2009-07-02T12:50:00.003+08:00

i hate work.
i miss home.
thank Allah, my personal life is the only thing that's going great right now!
alhamdulillah.
but still, i hate work.
best x jadi suri rumah kan?
sigh.

stressed, i am?

2009-06-22T13:12:00.004+08:00

we have a choice. to be stressed or not to be stressed.

so y am i stressed?

1. I haven't taken any annual leave since March 09?

2. I hate the way new line is treating me?

3. I hate the fact that the Jack Ass is back working?

4. I miss Kuching so damn much?

5. I haven't hung out with my girlfriends for moons now..

i choose not to be stressed..

but how come i am not cheerful that much nowadays?

crap!

fresh start - JUNE 2009!

2009-06-07T12:05:00.006+08:00

yerp. xmo dah story sadness stuff. plus, so far so good (alhamdulillah). things at work are slowly getting in place. moved to another test cell. boss assigned more responsibilities, expanding my knowledge as a planner here..and being busy is keeping away all the sadness and miserable-ness i have at work. so now, refreshed and fully charged, i aim to be 100% at work while in the office, and 100% homey when i'm off work. fair?

my weekends..hrm..me at work now (sbb tu la ade internet! haha) and oh! i went to Bangkok last week. hehe..did some shopping..and jalan-jalan as usual lar..with Hubby and the rest of his family.. it was a great quick get-away from the busy-ness and kelam-kabutness in KL. Now that i'm back..alhamdulillah i am more at peace now.. read some good books..oh trust me, sophie kinsella (author of confessions of a shopaholic) blows me away with all her books..try! not only the shopaholic editions are good, the other ones too! check them out..

read this within 48 hours during my trip in Bangkok. how cool is that???!!

(oh ok. i am a slow reader, excuse me. LOL!)

planning to read this very, very soon.

seems interesting from the first 2 pages of it!!

can't hardly wait to purchase this piece in JULY!

yay!!!

so yea. for those who know me well, they'll know reading has never been my hobby. EVER. but well, trying new activities can be such an exciting experience. why not try? explore...! chewah..

ok. for those who know me well (haha!), my hobby has always been SHOPPING kan? so while shopping with Hubby yesterday..........

i lyke!! cantek x kami berdua?? *wink wink*

so she shops at Nichii..just like me..coolness?? hahhaha..psyched!

oh yea. it's june. hubby's bday coming. ape nak beli ni?! isk..

word of the day - FREAKIN' ?

2009-05-14T10:59:00.003+08:00

i am still at the office. so is Mr J. apparently, HR had executed an action towards Mr J. "yeay" which is.... a FREAKIN' warning! best kan HR kami? i FREAKIN' like la kan..!!!

here i am. macam ni je la. the last time i talked to HR, they were requesting for proof. hrm..macam mane tuh.. maybe i need someone to take our pic together, pastu kannn.. i tell him to FREAKIN' touch me! does that work, bloody HR personnel?

but xpe la..doa2 orang teraniaya InsyaAllah dimakbulkan. nak quit my job, sadly i am bonded for another year..nak meraung, x professional la pulak. so kat office, i chat a lot on YM ke..MSN ke..it works so far..at least that cheers me up..btol x? despite, keje kene jalan la jugaakk of course!

ntahla..maybe berkat doa and advice from my beLOVEd ones, i am more tenang now.. with patience and pieces of strength, i go to work as per normal everyday. 1 thing that i anticipate daily is to come home to Hubby..and get the HUG that i need.. *wink wink*

next, my goal is to show to my boss, and his boss that i don't need Mr J to plan my line. after all, i never needed him before. for me, he's just a puppet in my line. ZERO knowledge on plans and execution. maybe good in bull-shitting management and taking credits..but watever..sepandai-pandai tupai melompat, jatuh tergolek jugak kang nanti..

okeh. let's continue my hard work. hopefully my next entry will be a happy one..

~Amin...

miss u all.. :(

don't play play

2009-05-08T18:07:00.002+08:00

today, i collected ALL the courage to do something that i never thought i will do. it's my 1 year anniversary here and seriously, working here is a lot better without Mr J in the office. from day 1, he's been a big barrier for me to complete my task in my line. i was yelled at yesterday without mercy. our tone of voices were on the top-most pitch and tears were already drowning my face. 1st time in my life, i was really shivering with anger and disappointment.

now that he turned on the switch, i realized i have to let them all out. all the dirty jokes, all the remarks yg jijik and all the touching..all coming back to me now. sorry, but enough is enough. i am no more Mrs Nice Lady from the moment you raise your freaking finger right in front of my face!

and yes, i filed a report today. sexual harrassment against Mr J. Too bad bro, u got the wrong person. thanks to Hubby, my family and my boss for the help and advice.

x pasal2 he was escorted out from the office area by security right away. stay away and never come back! (amin..)

example 1:
Mr J: ko mengandung ke?
Me: Nope.
Mr J: itu la..cuba ko try ngan aku skali. confirm ley mengandung punye!

example 2:
Mr J: laki ko outstation ke?
Me: haah.
Mr J: brape lame..?
Me: 10 days.
Mr J: ko boring2 malam2 tu, meh la g kondo aku. aku temankan ko.

Example 3:
*when a person touch u, then it's a serious offend. Having him pull my bra strap? CRAZY! not once or twice, more than that!*

so pls, if any of the above or anything similar happen to you ladies, pls raise the flag and act!be strong. i am still learning as well. trust me, it's not easy!

lesson 1. i will cut down all my friendly CRAP to this people at the office.
lesson 2. who cares if they hate me? i'm here to complete my tasks and earn a living je right?
lesson 3. never make other people take advantage of my size. NO NO!

sekian cerita sedih for today. i am so tired, my brain and my heart.
leaving this HELL now, at least for 1 day. have to work on Sunday tho. bummer.

2009-05-05T15:18:00.003+08:00

i know it's already long overdued to share weekend activites..hehe. pendek kata, both my weekends were GOOOOOoooDD, oh well. x banyak benda yang bley ditunjuk or diceritakan..

except that..

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now my hair is purple! thanks to Hubby for the words of "advice". haha!

sekian.

2009-04-24T10:29:00.002+08:00

i don't have anything specific to say. bottomline, i am just bored at the moment. when i get bored at work, i tend to yawn. then i look for something nice and funny to read on the internet. then when i couldn't find anything catchy, i become dull and quiet. then i start to think..think and think..till i start to feel down..then comes to one end when i have to make a choice..should i choose to feel down..? or should i choose to be happy and energetic again..?

sigh. life is a matter of choice.
whether u like it or not, u have to choose.
i choose to go home right now and crawl into my very comfy bed.
but cannot lar kaannn..

BECAUSE..I AM AT WORK!!!

sekian luahan perasaan.

am looking forward for a happy weekend though.. *finger-crossing*

WORK & LIFE - blends?

2009-04-16T18:24:00.008+08:00

for the 1st time, i feel very lively at work. wanna know why?

my planning team. tgk la sape yg paling BAHAGIA!

and yes, we did those "stunts" with the approval from my bosses..in fact, they're part of this, i swear! ahahaha..

aiyak!

2009-04-12T00:00:00.004+08:00

Hubby has been "tagged" today. yea. tagged by TAG HAUER. does that mean that i'm off the hook from my shopping therapy? another designer bag by end of this year sayang? Marc Jacobs? Dior? or Ferragamo?? issssskkk..geram!

oh! my honeymoon trip is finally finalized. destination?? tungggguuuuuu... senyap2 dulu..when the time comes, i will have a full description update on the trip.. yoohoo!! kan best if i have the remote control like the one in the movie "Click" and fas fwd the time..aduhs..

my weekend started off with a night out with friends at Delicious bangsar. Love the company. Best part, got to chit-chat and update each other with the FRESH-FROM-THE-OVEN news. Apart from Am's absence, we all had a BLAST "session"! After a while...

by the way, as i mentioned, my next activity this weekend- Ani's engagement ceremony. cantek! theme was pretty easy for me. PURPLE. remember how i have like 5 purple baju kurungssssss in 1 year? so ape lagi...JOIN je la tema nye kaaann..

the planned date is a day after my B-Day next year. insyaAllah. harap2 everything goes smooth for both Ani & the fiance, Mazree. siap dah ready2 pen dlm poket kan.. they should be fine. haha (org2 yang hadir pasti memahami part ni.hik3) The most unique about this couple, they first met on my wedding day! People say, if jodoh they all panjang, so are ours! So we all doa ramai-ramai keh? ~AMIN.....

ok. here goes. pics time people!

the girls & the bride to be..

erm. for now, amik gamba jauh2 sket ye korang! tunggu lagi 8 months ok?

aiyak. Hubby with futsal. *yawn* time for some magz session.
Till then. Have a good rest of the weekend!!

where am i?

2009-04-09T18:47:00.006+08:00

hrm. aneh. but only after attending a dear friend's wedding last weekend, i realized how long i have been married. hrm. oh well, Hubby and I just celebrated our 7 yrs together (since couple day 6th April 2002 1 til this very day)..WOW! amazing..how 2 people from different backgrounds can grow together kan? hikhikhik..

oh gosh. everyone's growing up. 1 after another, my peers around me are moving to another phase in their lives. which phase am i in? am i stuck in time? or maybe unconsciously (btol ke spelling tu?), i already AM more mature than i know?

oh well. i'm just thinking out loud. hehe.

ANYHOO, congrats to a very, very dear friend, Rad and the hubby.

(nak tips lagi? meh aku kasik. offline je ler plis..hikhikhik..)

of course, menggedik with the BRIDE!

(aik? ade jugak org interframe kt blakang tuh..huhu)

menggedik kt pelamin is a MUST! erk. bridegroom xde la plak. ngeh3.

pengantin x baru dah..yay!

hehe. ok peeps. til then.
next event. ade org tunang plak.
see? i told u..everyone's growing up kaaann...??

FuLLy CharGeD

2009-03-30T20:15:00.007+08:00

damn. it's Monday. yea, of course, Monday blues can HARDLY be escaped, but believe you me, I have gone through my day with the most energy, feeling refreshed and enthusiastic..erk. surprising kan? ahaks.. oh, i'm starting to hate my job..think closely..what do i need..new tasks? new team? i dunno..mayb i need something to keep me hanging in there..kan?

my weekend was a relaxing 1. had fun spending alone time with Hubby to recover from the exhaustion we accumulated since the last time i wrote in here. we had our lil' movie night at home. grocery shopping. spring cleaning. home cooked and of course. ehem ehem. erk. NEXT....!

yea, after 1 night back in KL, mom came with her not-so-little troop, Yusri & Amri. it was the school holidays! so kak ani and i planned out a mini family outing. well. incomplete i might say. but it was heck of a trip to PD. hehe..been a while since i saw beaches. sun (yg ni hari2 nampak laaa kann). kites. breezy air. lots and lots of people, chilling and burning out their skins..erk?!

hubby and i, trying hard to fly a kite!

uchu and leesya..inseparable during the whole trip. yikes!

kids enjoying the beach and sand

my 2 best-est people..

mak went home a week after. sob. basically. we burnt our 2 weekends with family. yes, it requires time and energy. but what else counts compared to good times with family? no?

the next to-go-to event..a good friend's wedding this Saturday in Seremban. seeing my very close friend getting married, wow! and really, i'm so happy for u babe..will c u this Saturday, hun..we've had a lil' gathering last Thursday..sending you off to the new world..hope u'll find your happiness there..and glad that u love our "DIRTY" gift as well! XoXo..

oopss..gtg. Hubby sounded upset on the phone on his way home. work stuff. sigh.

till then~toodles!

yay!

2009-03-14T00:59:00.002+08:00

now that i'm back in KL, i'll try my best to update as much as i can..haha..i have this habit of switching hobbies all the time..gosh! tough to stay put to 1 thing when u have so little time yet so much to do..oh watever.

so. i came back last wednesday night. my trip to kuching was short, filled with many many family activities..ermm..which is basically stay home and relax together-gether. ahaks! good times. got to meet some friends, sue n bf, nurul and faizul. we catched up on some things and update each other on our lifes..hehe..few hours with them. not enough of course. but well..better than nothing kan?

the same night i reached KL, another good friend was battling with life, welcoming a new baby to life. magical! we haven't been talking for such long time. i guess the last time we met was before she got married last May'08. yea..i missed her wedding and we somehow didn't make much effort to meet up. i'm glad, somehow, her baby brought us back to where we were..anis delivered a healthy cute little baby boy at 8.15pm on March 11th, weighed 3.17kg. i have to admit. i envied her. she's already a mother and i'm not even close. bila entah rezeki tiba kaann..sabar..my time will come insyaAllah. doa2kan plis..! oh! took some pics while the baby's sleeping.. babies look the same don't they..hehe..ssyhhh..

erk. gotta go before i feel the loneliness waiting for hubby to come home.. i know, it's 12.48am. Pretty much a trade-off for the weekend getaway to PD.
toodles!

spotted!

2009-03-08T23:53:00.002+08:00

look who's back in town?!

2days gone. 3 more to go. love kuching..miss him..can't have 'em all, can i?

hubby, i miss u..

jangan....

2009-02-28T09:09:00.004+08:00

conversation 1:

hubby: honey berjaya x guna cdt card for a month dah.
honey: yeay! i'm off the hook. so dah bley shopping gune cdt card?
hubby: aik? continue lah x gune cdt card. this month, kurangkan beli barang plak. limit. rm100 for shopping spree. (smiling)
honey: (terdiam and ternganga)
hubby: jangan taruh dlm blog plak.

conversation 2:

honey: apsal hubby suke dgr hots.fm?
hubby: ntah. byk variety. lagu melayu n english mix.
honey: eek?
hubby: mcm hitz, hubby x suke lagu die sume same je..pusing2 lagu tu jugak
honey: ape lak? mcm la hotz tu best sgt. (muke x puas ati)
hubby: (laughed) apsal tensen2? ha! jangan tulis kt blog plak.

then we laughed together

conversation 3:

honey: next weekend honey xde, hubby syok la! main futsal dahtu minum2 lepak2 sampai pukol 5am with the boys..xde org marah kaan?
hubby: (smiling) ler.... (xtau ape nk ckp la tuh) mestilah hubby rindu..
honey: yucks! (muke nyampah)
hubby: (gelak je..) jangan taruh kt blog plak.

for those of u who know me well enough, when someone says "jangan.."
u pretty much get it by now kan??
padan muke! huhu..

how are you?

2009-02-26T15:16:00.006+08:00

yes. it only takes a question to brighten you day. received a text from one of my bestest girls, Sue. and babe, i am doing fine i said..it makes me think of how much i missed them all. the days when we just plan and plan to meet up without having any precise agenda or just spend the night sitting at Bing or ice cream place, chatting and laughing our ass off..and not to forget "click click". now that each of us has our own lives, we kinda go apart..but somehow, i believe, in some magical ways, we connect.

believe it or not. this was our most "recent" pics - all 6 of us there..on my wedding, 7months back! *sigh*

my girls back in the states, yana, am and nad. we're world apart. yana is somewhere round the world, am is in Switzerland (i think) and nad's been caught up with work. we still talk sometimes, but we only get to meet once every "quarter" and when we do, we'll also talk and talk and talk. catchup on things. spend the evening at starbucks, enjoying coffee, accompanied by favorite girlfriends and few"clicks"..they do belong to each other, don't they...

our last reunion, a month ago. babe, miss u all -xoxo-

oh well..now i'm in KL, my mmu girls have been close. we've been apart from each other for 4 years while i was in the states but we do keep in touch. amazingly, we're closer than we ever were now that i'm married. hubby has no problems with me hanging out with them at any nights and we just make time for each other..yes b, my curfew always remains.. :P

love this piece. we're still the bunch of girls who loves being around each other..*hugs*

girlfriends are not easy to find..they laugh with you, they spare their shoulders for you to cry on, they listen..oh! they make my life more meaningful..i find myself cheesy today..but heck!

to my girlfriends out there (if you ever have the chance to read this entry);

i love you all!

p/s: yes b, i love u most.. *wink wink*

Elevator Trouble!

2009-02-24T19:24:00.004+08:00

i could say my day has been interesting. was at work as usual, it was typical until my colleague and i got stuck in the elevator. ahaks...worse, my colleague is 8 months pregnant. another ahaks!

the elevator's door didn't get to open on every floor we stopped. basically we were stuck in there. well actually, the door opened a bit, enough for the skinny me to slip out..but why bother to try when the situation helped me escape from a meeting kan? LOL!

so we had our little chat while enjoying our after-lunch-dessert, mangga and rojak. yummylicious?! we enjoyed our so called "break time" in the elevator, unfortunately, the Facility Team came to the rescue after half an hour.. only then i realized..OMG! what if my colleague's needs to go to labor? what if her tummy ache? what if she passed out, suffocated from the "air-less" condition? erk..i know that won't happen considering she's only 8 months pregnant..but it can happen kan?? kan kannn?? well, maybe i just think too much. haiyak! ok. in short, we were out of there 1 1/2 hr later..yawn yawn! huhu...

oh! took this pic konon2 as a proof to the boss that we were stuck. mane tau that he thinks it's funny that we look like we're having fun being stuck in the elevator! wakakakkaka..siap bersila ok?! (she loves this pic. x nampak perut she says. chets!)

hrm..what do i say next..i'm kinda waiting for hubby to come home. only then we can head to dinner. starving, i am! oh well..i better go..until then..toodles!

typical day

2009-02-21T19:11:00.016+08:00

ok. now that the layout is fixed. the motivation is there, so y not post more updates..kan? my day went by, just like any other day. i had a tour back to my earlier entries. seriously, OMG! there was a lot of my personal memories, written on this blog..it definitely brought me back to the days when i had all my friends around me. brought me back to what my student life is like..oh gosh! miss those days, miss the experience..but oh..we gotta move on..let's start!

my family - an update with new family members added..u notice?

allright. just for the records, my status have changed since the last time i got active on this blogging thingy. i'm a wife now. have been a wife since 7 months ago. i marry the love of my life last August, on the 1st, year 2008. it was in fact the best day of my life since. his name stays as Hubby in this blog (just in case u ask. haha) there's no babies on the way. not yet at least. family updates. clearly shown in the pic above. i've officially moved to KL for good. working in a company i call "X". somewhere in keramat, KL. i call myself an operation planner. oh girlfriends. they will come up into 1 or 2 or a number of my entries eventually. let's just get to know them when the time comes aight? so what's next? hm..hopefully my entries will continue to portray the real me and store all the up-beat moments of my life, just like what i had a year back. u ready?

so. regardless all the beautiful and thoughtful celebration from the loved ones few days back, 1 pretty bad incident occured that bday morning. my windscreen was hit by a little stone. yes, it was a little stone but it brought me an EXPENSIVE effect! had no choice but to replace it with a new one. thanks to the car insurance for the coverage! ahaks..

it was a bad, bad lil' STONE!

so we went, hubby and i. fixed it and now, waiting for the account top up to have it tinted.. oh, yes people! i love my car, i named it Lady B. Swift has been my dream car Level 1 (affordable for my level at this point of time.hikhik) since i graduated. purchasing and owning this particular car on my own has been a huge investment i've ever made so far. call me weird. call me high maintenance to settle with hi-end type of a hatchback, but who cares..?! i lyke la kaaann..!

Perfection. i want it to be perfect. i remember getting it into an accident last yr. i spent my every cent to fix it, and make it perfect again. am i a perfectionist? i don't know..but the imperfection of Lady B bothers me.

Alright, so after the visit to the Dr. Cermin, hubby and i went to the park for a bit. had our little talk, enjoying the nature. oh yea, we don't do this too often. but somehow, it felt refreshing..so what's wrong with spending the evening at the park..? it's "cost"less, it's refreshing..and they provide lots of seats for couple chats..isn't that PERFECT?! plus, at this time of the month, this sort of activities is very much likely ACCEPTABLE! ahaks. watever. shut up and enjoy our pics!

refreshing kan?

hubby and the makeup-less me..*wink wink*

that's it for now folks! toodles!

NEW LAYOUT!!

2009-02-20T21:07:00.002+08:00

yeay. ok. now i'm feeling more motivated to write and express myself..the layout of this blog is ALL new and totally reflects my personality (yeay..!)..and THANKS to hubby for the help while i was all confused with the codings. huhu..not super good with HTML. but heck..interesting experience.

ok. off to dinner. toodles!

WoW!

2007-12-02T15:48:00.000+08:00

OMG! OMG! OMG!

I can hardly remember my password. I can hardly remember. Really. Haven't been updating this blog for like AGES! Seriously, not because I have nothing to write, but OMG! i haven't been blogging in moons!

So well, yea, I am still alive..living my colorful life with ups and downs here and there..guess what?! I am in KL now..after few months putting this blog behind, I finally move to a more challenging place (atleast I think so..who cares abt what u think?!)..switching to a new company, hoping on to a better position, finally, as an Industrial Engineer and staying at a new place..

Herm..hard to predict..but come to think of it, I guess i may have made the right decision; it's either now or never right? being in QA; that is not what i wanna do for the rest of my life yea? so y bother to stay in the suck-ass position and spend your days complaining about your job??!! I was thinking; before i start growing wrinkles on my face along with the hard days, it's about time to think for myself! my one and only self...for once! i will officially start workin in my new company on Monday. tough, but i need to deal with this. first impression is always crucial and i suck at it! urgh!

It's 2.am and i can't sleep..regardless of how right i think i am in this decision, i am scared..i am afraid of changes..i'm away from home..away from my girlfriends over there..away from the most important person in my life; my mom. my ex-company..yes, i hated my job..but the people there..they're a bunch of nice people that i will never forget..it was hard, yes, but with all of my ex-colleagues there with me, i survived for more than a yr as a victim of the evil 'princess' with the so-called 'minister'..

*sigh*

U gotta let go to move on..gosh! some random pics while away from my blog:

The one most important person I left behind..my mother; trust me!
she knows best..

Something that I'll miss;
the gals back home and the craziness we share

The cheerfulness in the ex-office with the GANG BANG!

The outing with the ex-neighbor-company!

The members of my '2nd-home'

Good times with this LADY right 'ere...

Me N the lil' ones..Aleesya & Wardina!
Will def. see them a lot in KL

Another cutie-pie, the Miri/Kuching boy! *wink wink*

Last but not least, the Sanmina-duo..will miss this whacko lady a lot!!

Most importantly, I bring all the sweet memories with me..live my life to the fullest and hope for the best in the future..moving forward? hell, yes i am!!!

Till then..Nighty nite! Toodles!

i'm aLivE!!

2007-05-15T20:22:00.000+08:00

Hey yaaa!!! i am back again. One word to describe the 2-month-blog-off is...WOW!
My life has never been more "colorful" than this. Work, KL, new niece, work some more, new friends and many more things happen. Ok. Obviously, there is NO way for me to write a book about all those..*yawn* but well, lemme just highlight some stuff aight?

March treated me well. I welcome the little, tiny baby in our life (my family, of course) with a beautiful name; Aleesya Waheeda. Guess who came up with the name? *wink wink* so yeah, she was born on March 13, 2007 and she is currently 2 months old now.. so, K.Ani and the family was here for 2 months. Those months are the most hectic, yet FUN times I had with my whole family in the house..after all these years away from home..from them. Now that K.Ani, Wardina (my 1st niece) and Aleesya is back in KL..the most I can do is maybe sms, or CRY for missing them so much..hmph! living my days in denial? DOES NOT HELP!

Syyhhh!! Aleesya's sleeping..

Kak Ani, I miss you..your presence..and your girls..I miss our oh-so-sangap-layan-Fulus-Mania-nights..and our lil' shopping trip..and the times that we both can laugh about anything..*sob sob*

April..hm..what happened in April??!! Wait, it's MAY already?? I better perform a preventive maintenance kinda thing on my personal time machine..how time flies..OMG!!!! Gotta think of what I did in April...NO!!!!!

Hm..I better go..I'll continue writing when I have more interesting things to tell..gotta take my shower..yes, need a long one..after 13 hours in the plant earlier today..haha! toodles!!

Pheuw!

2007-02-25T14:47:00.000+08:00

It's a typical Sunday afternoon. Y'know, finally, a day for me to stay in and rest after the eventful week, I might say. The event started on V-day. I had a great time with my girl, Sue of course. We spent the night together, just the TWO of us. Erm..no other celebration in particular..I got myself a rose..from ehem ehem, Benny! Isn't that sweet? Couple of texts of course..and him? duh! obviously he called.

The one rose for V-day. Thanks Benny Boo! :P

Gosh, I feel old. It's been a week since I turned 24. YES, I AM 24!!!!!! haha..but come to think of it, I guess the figure doesn't matter that much huh? Whatever figure I turn to, the main thing is the...GIFTS! and of course the celebrations..hahahaah..fine. fine. i am old-er than before. I had a blast on my special day. Out with my mom and the lil' ones..good food with good company! Out with the girls at night, tons and tons of thoughts from friends all over the world made my day, and the celebration? SUPER! Gifts..GREAT ones! from the loved ones, near and far. I lyke la kan.

The bracelet..she remembers when i said that i like this specific one..love you, mom!

This is the collection..and the biggest and also the latest release, Shopaholic & Baby..from my lovely sisters..

This package right here? it's been across the oceans and seas..what's inside..the TIME will tell.. *wink wink*

If previously, I have been pampered by surprise parties, ice-cream cakes and Hubby, for a change, this year, i got EGG-ed. Haha! do NOT get me wrong, people. I was thrown with eggs on my night. Er..4 of them. Thank God. It's better that 24 eggs right? So yeah..don't have a picture for the throwing incident, but hell yeah, we have a video of it.

And at the end of the night..after midnight I might say, I was back to reality, being the Cinderella in the house, I gotta clean all the mess and clear the egg-smell from the car porch. Haha..it was a heck of a night! Had so much fun with the girls. Can't thank them enough. But on top of all this, still, I wish him, my babes and my sisters were around. Eeek..it's the thought that counts aite? (sedapkan ati..huhu) Wokeh, next, other pictures of the celebration? here goes..

me & the cake

Blow? Blow?!!! hahaha..

The Gift..from Levi's Lady Style..Lurve it!

The lovely girls..missing: Azian

Complete one!

Bottomline..this one bday of mine..will be stored as one of my best memories..celebrating it here, in Kuching! Thanks girls..

So now I am back to my normal routine. Work. Hard. Smart. Tired. Satisfaction? Not even close..heh! Whatever it is, I will be looking forward to my lil' vacation in 2 weeks, to KL. No biggie..but the most anticipated part will be...meeting all those people that I have always missed..MMU friends, Pennstaters..and Sunway gangs..can't hardly wait..oh! Kak Ani will be delivering soon!! Panic attack..a new niece..i AM old..huhu..so till then...cheers!!

Back on track!!!

2007-02-11T10:26:00.000+08:00

It's been crazy since day 1 of 2007. Haven't had the time to actually sit down, catch my breath and update this blog of mine. Been sick for almost 2 weeks for the first 2 weeks of the yr. Nope, have no idea what type of sickness that i have to lead me to another pass-out at the office. But well, many, many other things have happened..bottomline, I am moving on. Not easy, but hey, life must go on.

Work has been treating me better these days, considering the fact that I get to sit around in my office and pretend to be busy all day. My new boss? Gosh..no words can describe the new organization chart of my department. I just have to swallow the fact that my used-to-be-buddy2-colleague is my boss now. Need to play along and look forward for my account top-up at the end of each month. LOL! That's the whole point of working right?

Here's how I look like when I pretend to be a busybee..!!

Love life. As per normal. We talk online whenever we have the free time. We miss each other. We share. We make new friends. We have our ups and downs. We talk them through. We hope for the best. We count the days that we will meet each other again. Complicated situations? We handle it well enough so far, at least i think so. Still love him as much, as a friend and as a special someone in my life. Keeping it fair for both of us. *wink wink*

Been spending most of my time with my girls here. Regardless the fact that I miss my babes in the States, I obviously need to focus on what's in front of me to keep my upbeat. We go out. We talk. We enjoy cheese cake and chocolate cake at Hilton (yummylicios!) or Bing Coffe House (delicious!). We schedule the time and day (this is tough for working ladies like us, seriously). Finally, we had our FIRST night out where all 6 of us were there. Pheuw..it was one heck of a night. We laughed and laughed all night, enjoying our ice creams and cakes and drinks. Update each other on our lifes. Picture-sharing time!!!!

XoXo!

We girls just wanna have FUN!

Moving on. I hope February will bring better upcomings for me. Valentine's day is coming up. No, I am not gonna celebrate it. Chinese New Year is coming. Maybe, I will go visiting. And in one of the days, I will get older. Gosh, I don't want it to come. Not this year. Have had him, my babes and the rest of Penn State family around me for the last few years. It'll be different this time. Mom and the kids will be around this time. Not my sisters though. They'll be on their own vacation. After all, we've never celebrate it together since like what, 5 years ago? Whatever, GO!

Ok. Enuff already. Before i get all emotional and end up crying in my room I better keyboard off now. Hah! till then..

Slamat Hari Raya Korban & warm welcome to 2007!

2007-01-01T15:26:00.000+08:00

It's the 1st day of the new year, 2007 and we realize that with giant strides we started in January and within a blink of an eye, 2006 is on its back!!!!

A big "THANK YOU" to each and everyone of you, for the huge impact you had on my life last year. I have gone through my ups and downs this past years and without my loved ones, especially, I won't be who I am today.

2006 had been a good year for me though. Regardless of some mishaps and minor arguments here and there, I had achieved and experienced a lot of memorable events in my life last year. For those of you who either read my blog for updates or stalk my blog to find issues to blah-blah about, you might have followed my one-year-journey. Alhamdulillah, I finished the year with gratitude; met my resolutions. Keeping my fingers crossed so I can again meet my new year resolutions as follows:

Life: Be myself at ALL times and be happy. Unit of measure: Gain 10lbs. cool?
Career: Prove that I am somebody; not just a childish girl that has no idea what she's talking about. Unit of measure: good annual performance appraisal from the new boss. heh! tough..but do-able
Financial: Wanna use them up efficiently; help mom, pay debts (if any) and save up for wedding/engagement/vacation to Japan (InsyaAllah, whenever that is! heh..) remaining? pamper myself of course! duh! unit of measure: so what's the bank statements' for?
Love: Our family have met each other. We're getting familiar to each other's family members. So, hopefully this year, Hubby and I can bring our relationship to the next level, InsyaAllah. unit of measure: hm..u can figure this out yourselves buddy!
Family: Spend as much time with my family and help mom as much as I can in any ways that I can. unit of measure: no fights please?
Friends: At least meet up, reunite with my babes, Sunway d'gang (partly; whoever's here), C4 buddies once this year. unit of measure: nice pictures, maybe? huhu..

May 2007 mark the beginning of a Tidal Wave of Love, Happiness and Brighter Future;

To those who need someone special, may you find the true love...
To those who need money, may your finances overflow
To those who need caring, may you find a good heart
To those who need friends, may you meet lovely people
To those who need life, may you find GOD

To all my muslim friends I wish you Happy Eid-Ul-Adha and Happy New Year to all..

Huhu..

2006-12-12T20:23:00.000+08:00

Ok. Since my week goes well, I am gonna post some more updates. I don't know. I just feel satisfied with myself. I feel like I have achieved something in my work. I met with the director today. Told him, or in a more exact term, complained to him about the one job that has been bothering me all this while. It's been 2 months now since I started doing it. It wasn't hard. Tedious. Clerical. I know I should accept whatever's given by my boss, but how can you expect any engineer to perform this task and not learn any other engineering stuff?? So yes, the director agreed with me and I managed to get out of it, alhamdulillah. To my so-called supervisor, SCREW YOU! She might think I'm new that she can definitely treat me like her assistant instead of her engineer, but excuse you, I am not just a timid girl who will nod on WHATEVER you do. I was trained to speak up for myself and not be looked down upon..

Honestly, I am not the rebellious type of person in terms of work. I have had about 6 jobs before this one. Yeah, they were all only my part time jobs, but still, they were not easy ones. Some of them at least. I respected my supervisors. I listened to them and believe it or not, I never go against them. Now? Gosh..I can be very vocal and straightforward. Hopefully, one fine day, I will get to prove something out of this. Amin.

Hm..so yeah, that was it for my updates..oooh! I found the picture of my-oh-so-excited-about bag..hehe..lemme just share it with y'all allright?? OMG..i just canNOT believe how excited I am about this new bag of mine..Erm..maybe it's simply because I've been working hard to actually purchase one bag for myself since I came home.. (erk, yes, I DO have tons of handbags..back then, buying a bag is like buying a magazine..with a 'click' of my mouse; if u know what i mean..hheeeee!)

So there it is, my konon-mak-datin bag..*wink wink* ENJOY! until then..lata~

Yes?

2006-12-09T17:47:00.000+08:00

It has been a cheerful week for me..and today, I finally get my rest at home after a colorful week, I might say. Monday. Work as usual. Not too much time to 'play' around since I had to prepare a whole bunch of reports. Tight deadline due to my 4 days training since Tuesday to Friday. No no, i was psyched about the trainings. Who'd want to miss the opportunity of being away from si kangkang for the whole entire week and get paid for that?? Not me of course..haha!

So there I was..in the training..the whole week. Got to meet some people from other companies, learn new stuff (yea right!) and the most exciting part was that I got to taste the food at the hotel for free..haha! Not to forget, I got to go home on time. hey, i don't get to go home early every day ok? This going home early thing will lead me to my next update..huhu..

So, after 3 months of full pay check, I finally got to go out shopping with Sue (we spend most of our time together playing sports, movies and FOOD!). I bought a new shoulder bag. GUESS. Hey, I have saved up to actually buy one and trust me, I had a very hard time choosing coz the collection suck more and more these days. Plus, my two babes were not there to give their 2nd and 3rd opinions on the choices, which made it even harder. Regardless of that, with Sue's help, I fall in love with this one the first time I saw it so without any hesitation, I spent like 13% of my paycheck on this new bag of mine..oh my! Some people will never understand what obsession I have for bags. But well..what can I say.

Moving on, more update. Saw Pap on Thursday (the day after the whole short shopping trip) coincidentally during lunch at the hotel where I had my training. Went out on a 'date' with him and I got lucky when he actually bought me the Chocolate. It's not exactly chocolate, it's white. Speechless. At one point, I don't even know if I should be happy or guilty for costing him too much. Heck, bottomline, I deserve this gift from him once in a while..you with me?? *wink wink* (danger alert: jgn2 nnt aku dgr ade org tuh pakai gak chocolate..touch wood please?)

One more day of rest then I'm back to work. Went out with the girls last 2 nights. Movies. Some sports. God knows where we'll be hanging out tonight. Or maybe I'll just stay in and talk to my boo on the web. We'll see. Til later~toodles!

u know who u r..

2006-11-28T20:09:00.000+08:00

For someone out there..yes, I thought you were a real friend..but silly of me to think that way..

U were my best friend
we were suppose to be friends till the end
now thats all down the drain
someone came into Ur life
and she is more important than me
I'm not worth Ur time anymore
so just leave me alone
stop asking to be friends
stop acting like its my fault
I'm leaving u alone
i don't want to deal with Ur problems
i got enough of my own
I'm done with Ur drama
so run to her when u need to talk
I'm out of this for good
moving on with my life
so good bye my ex-best friend

Whether you go to this humble blog of mine or otherwise, trust me, I DON'T CARE coz you are so out of my life! Have a good life and no THANK YOU, I only accept true friends in my life..

So far..yet so close..

2006-11-24T20:35:00.000+08:00

It's been 2 weeks since he left for Japan. Not trying to brag here, but honestly, we've never been any stronger than this EVER. We've been trying to keep ourselves updated everyday, listen to each other everyday and the coolest part is that we both get to see each other everyday, er..everynight to be exact. Well, many many thanks to the smart people who invented all these facilities for people like us on the internet; by saying us, I mean some 'young' people who's going thru the long distance relationship thingy. Perhaps it's true what people say about it after all; absence makes heart grow fonder..and it's good that we both get to see the other side of a relationship now. We share, we trust and we keep strong while being away from each other. And again, I never fail to thank Him for all this. InsyaAllah, we will make it thru this..

Other updates. Work. I was confirmed in my position as a Quality Engineer in the company after going through my 3-month-probation. Basically, I am still here in Kuching, working in the same company. haha! Trust me, I never thought that I would even stay in this company for at least 3 months but hey, I MADE IT! Yippy yeay yeay! Of course my salary has not changed, but the good news is, now that I'm confirmed, I can definitely claim my callback allowance without any hesitation or may i say, without being SCARED! Haha..such a chicken.

Other personal stuff. I am lonely. My girl, Sue, went off to KK for the weekend and I haven't heard from my beloved Babes for moons now. Well, one of them actually. So my plans for the weekend: Work on Saturday to finish up my junk and stay in on Sunday to get some good rest e.g. Zzzz or some storybook reading..huhu.. Owh, in addition to my loneliness, I'd like to point out that I miss my niece, Asfa Wardina so damn much. She was back in Kuching for 3 days and guess who did not get to spend time with her coz she's too busy being a busy-bee?? ME!!! Just for the heck of it, here's an 'out-of-nowhere' picture of us together..

Dina and her Ucu..do we look alike? hehe

I have got to plan my working hours and my personal times from now on. *sigh* work is no fun but heck, I WANT THE MONEY! Until then..tata toodles!

Moving On..

2006-11-12T22:25:00.000+08:00

Ok. Don't panic. It's not that the world has come to an end when he finally left for Japan. Heck yeah, we are still together. Stronger than ever! Heh..he left last night. It was hard, I have to admit. But guess what; after thinking about this over and over, I somehow find the silver linings in this whole going-to-Japan thingy. He got to work towards his Masters and for me..hm, perhaps, this gives me enough time to figure out what I'm gonna do in my life. Maybe I can make use of this "space" to focus on my career, spend more time with my family before I actually get "taken" (if you know what I mean..hehe *grin*)

He's arrived in Sendai at noon earlier today. Received 3 calls from him. Gosh I miss him. He's currently staying over at some Malaysian students' apartment and hopefully soon he will settle down and we can talk to each other more. Everyday is like a battle for us. We will definitely try our best to keep ourselves strong. Hm..guess now I have a good reason to actually go to Japan. Wanna join me? Anybody? haha..

So my mini-trip to KL last weekend was in fact the most memorable 48-hour trip for us. I did not really get to see too much of my other friends. Thousand apologies for that. I bet they understand my situation. I got to spend most of my time with Hubby. In addition to that, I also got to meet most of his mom's and dad's family during Raya Open House held in his place. I was super-duper nervous but yeah, I handled myself well. The most exciting moment was to meet his granny. Of course we did not get to build the "connection" right away but I think I managed to break the ice. InsyaAllah this sillaturrahim will continue on until the day we say "i do"...

Picture perfect

Ok. enuff of words. enuff of hopes and dreams. I'm back to reality. Hafta move on and continue what I've been doing all this while; WORK. Gotta work hard. Get myself noticed. Learn as much new things as possible. Master what I do. Miss him. Miss him. Miss him. Miss him. Miss him..erk, I can't even say enough of this, can I?

Never too l8!

2006-11-02T23:09:00.000+08:00

First of all, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to everyone. If ever I hurt anybody physically, mentally or psychologically, I would like to take this opportunity to actually apologize and say Maaf Zahir Batin. I know, it's been more than a week since Eid, but well, it's never too late right?

Moving on..I have been extremely busy lately. Haven't had the time to catch my breathe, sit down and update my blog for this past month. Hari raya for me was a blast but it wasn't as perfect as I expected it to be. No, no, I did not get into any fights or arguments with anybody. Work hasn't been treating me well. I was called-back early in the morning on my first of Hari Raya to help out on the new system the company is implementing. Wrong, wrong, very wrong timing. I was pissed. My backup was nowhere to be found, not until noon, regardless the fact that he's Indian and he's not celebrating Hari Raya. My mom was crying in the car, stopping me from going to work. My phone kept ringing, saying "Sanmina". What should I do then? Between work and family. My mom to be exact. Finally, I had to sacrifice. Tried giving as many reasons as possible to my Project Manager for not showing up to work on my public holiday. It turned out fine at the end of the day. My back-up person was forced to come up to the plant and I got to celebrate my raya peacefully, for the 1st 2 days at least.

2nd day of Hari Raya. Yes, I received few calls in the morning from the plant. Managed to handle them well. Yea haa! I switched off my cellphone..haha. We got to hold our Hari Raya Open House for family, friends and colleagues. It was crazy, but heck yea, the more the merrier! It was a good day with good food and good company.

Next day. Worst raya day ever. I was stuck in the office the whole morning, evening until midnight. No kidding! Reached home at 12.20am. Pictures? Na'ah..did not even have the time to reach out for my camera on this one day. *sob sob* plans made with some friends had to be cancelled and postponed to the next day..

4th day of Hari Raya is indeed the most peaceful Hari Raya for this year. Finally, my director approved my leave for a day and a half and i got to spend my sweet time with family and friends on Hari Raya. The best thing was, Hubby came to Kuching on that very day and it can't be any more perfect than having all my loved ones around during this special celebration.

The rest of the days of my Hari Raya were perfect. Went out to some relatives' and friends' houses, spend some leisure time outside with Hubby and got to introduce him to most important people in my life. So yea..there goes my raya. It wasn;t perfect but the feeling of having your loved ones around on this special day is definitely what I've been longing for for this past 4 years. With this, I'll just share some of the pictures out of the many pictures that we took on Hari Raya. Babe, I still wish you guys were here..

Me and my lovely sisters in green

Me and my x-classmates. Thanks for stopping by! :-)

The girls at my crib

The couple la kan..

My best gurl in Kch. *hugs* Haha..

Beautiful Friends

@ Fazlin's place

Ehem ehem..

Currently I am in my room, waiting for Hubby's call. Y'know..those calls before you go to bed. Hehe..I am leaving for KL tomorrow..will be there until Sunday night to see Hubby. Yes, see him before he flies to Japan and be there for 2 yrs. I don't know if I am excited or sad to actually fly to KL tomorrow. I am definitely psyched to see him tomorrow but then, I don't wanna leave KL and say goodbye to him when I have to come back to Kuching. It'd be extra hard knowing that we will be apart for 2 years. Hmmph..I just hope that I can face this strongly and patiently. It won't be easy, I know but as what he always tell me, it won't be impossible either. We just have to go through all this before we get to the happy ending, InsyaAllah. Pray for us yea? May we both be strong together. -Amin-

*Yawn* there's my call. Till later~

Hoopla!

2006-10-04T19:47:00.000+08:00

I am still alive. Hehe.. it's not that I have no interesting and exciting stories to tell, but I just have much better things to do than sitting around and updating my blog daily. So, whenever I feel like updating, I will definitely start to type up something for all to see. For now, I will keep it short and simple. I am still here, happy and living my life to the fullest.

First pay check. Get to celebrate Mak's birthday. Simple one, but what makes it more special is the fact that I get to hug her on her special day after 5 years being away on her birthdays. Hope she enjoyed her 54th Birthday as much as I did!

Mak's (a.k.a Nek Cuk) Cheese + Chocolate Cake. Yummy!

Happy Ramadhan!

2006-09-24T16:00:00.000+08:00

After 4 years away, I finally get to be home for Ramadhan and Eid (InsyaAllah). Being with family at this time of the year is in fact the best feeling in the world.

I don't have anything much to say. Hope that Ramadhan will bring us joy and make us better individuals, InsyaAllah.

Oh! Just in case you're wondering, I am feeling much better now..
well I am not a big fan of posting some lyrics on my entry, but this song actually made me realize the one thing that i might have forgotten..so, just for the sake of sharing..here goes..

Lautan Yang Berapi
Daratan Yang Berduri
Bagiku Bukan Musibah
Malahan Hikmah Berharga

Katalah Apa Saja
Yang Jelik Penuh Dusta
Kau Bebas Warnai Diriku
Di Minda Yang Kelabu

Siapa Diri Ini
Tuhan Yang Memahami
Amarah Dan Kecewa
Hanyalah Bara Membakar Jiwa

Sungguh Pun Ku Terkilan
Terguris Perasaan
Ku Pilih Berdiam Diri
Tanpa Dendam Dihati

From now on, I guess I have to bear with whatever they say about me. Only He knows..

They complete me..

Feeling down..to the ground..

2006-09-23T00:23:00.000+08:00

It felt wrong. It felt empty. I feel sad..disappointed..frustrated..mad? confused and upset. I guess I couldn't find the right words to describe my emotions today. It was in fact a mixture of feelings..bad ones!

Somehow, after crying, I start to realize the silver linings in this black, greyish clouds in my life these days. maybe it will make me be a better person. Those words from her might be a stepping stone for me to move forward. InsyaAllah. Somehow, my inner feelings says it is really hard for me to change who i am..i don't understand..what the hell is wrong with being friendly? i can't be friends with the lower level employees? who the hell set the rules? are they allowed to tell me who i can and cannot mix with? isn't that considered as my personal life? WTF??!! it hurts when i actually had to sit there..listening to her..and not say a word..whatever it is, one thing i told myself, I DON'T WANNA B A STUCK UP ENGINEER..that ain't me! so please understand..judge me based on my work, not my size or my personality. Wasn't that's what you said to me, in my face, during the interviews??!!!

And her. Another thing that's been bothering me all night. I understand my role. I understand that I HAVE to respect her no matter how wrong she can be. Tonight I felt like a bigger person. I had the guts to say sorry. I'm loud. I'm outspoken. I voice out what I feel and think. Maybe for some people including her, that's rude. For me, that's straightforward. Some people refuse to accept the truth and choose to be mad about it and try so hard, in fact, extra hard to defend themselves and prove themselves right. But I don't care. For me, personally, if you think you're right, nobody can stop you from feeling that way. However, if you know you're wrong, be a bigger person by saying sorry. Do not act based on your feelings, but think before you act. Hitting me on the back? Why? Why did she have to do that? Out of control? Or just acting without using her mind? Also, strangling me on my throat? Was i that wrong? Did i deserve to be killed just because i said NO? Some people can really get out of their mind when they're mad. So, I vote for "being straightforward and rude" rather than hurting other people that you love, physically. No matter how hard they hit me on my back or strangled me on top my throat, my respect for them both was still there. Frankly, things will never be the same. Never. Period.

My eyes. Swollen. My heart. Squashed. My head. Spinning. Can't think. Can't run. Live with it. Be strong. Move on. Thanks sayang. Thanks Sue. I have no idea how can I go through these drama without both of you. Praying to Him, so things would be better as time passes by..insyaAllah..

To all the Muslims out there,
Selamat Menyambut bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak. May God bless us all..~Amin.

Also a shout out to Sue,
HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY Gurl! Hope you'll have a great one!

B!tcH

2006-09-16T15:00:00.000+08:00

Once a bitch, always a bitch. At least I think so. No, no, you don't have to change..just stay away from me..allright? To all the bitches out there, or anybody who wants or intend to be one..a.k.a wannabe's, BUZZ OFF yea? Chow!

Me in emo mode..excuse you!

After some time

2006-09-15T21:47:00.001+08:00

I finally have the time to update my blog. Nothing much is going on. Just work and some events in my life. Recently, the company celebrated its 10th year anniversary. We had our annual dinner and of course I was a part of it as the committee (dah kata baru and fresh, of coz la kene buli kan rakan2?) i didn't get to take too many pictures though. I was too busy helping out. The funny thing is, despite the "busy"ness, I had the chance to walk up the stage..as one of the winners of the best dressed female that night..mwahahahah!!! Just in case you're wondering, the theme was International costumes..x pasal2 I actually earn RM50 for my so-called perempuan melayu terakhir costume..er, shopping anyone? LOL!

The doorgift and registration committee (from left):
Jafni, Lilianty, Ting S.L (Dutch Lady costume), myself, Sylvia and Bb (my boss)

From left:
Temenggung Juahir, Puteri Rahiza, Jafni and Simson (the person who recruited me..haha! jd geng daaa youuu!!)

Now that I am starting to know most people that I interact with at work, I find it easier to get around my work. But of course, it's impossible for me to know all the operator's names..but somehow, I will try my very best to be as polite and friendly as I can with all or er, most of them..afterall, for some reason, most of them think that I am just a clerk..haha! who cares la kan? janji dpt gaji accordingly..yes?

Hm..gotta get ready for tomorrow. It's currently Friday, but I still need to go to work tomorrow for a bit to finish up my stuff. Thanx to our callback allowance facility. Without it, I won't even bother to come to my office on Saturdays..huhuhuhuh..(what a spirit..!)

Owh..here's another picture of me at the office with my colleagues on one of the girls' last day at Sanmina-SCI..haiyak! And no, we don't dress up to work..and jeans are totally ALLOWED! Cool huh? I think so.. :P

From left: Christabelle (last day in Sanmina-SCI), me, Felicia and Carol

Until then people.. ~daaaa *wink wink*

p/s: Babe, aku rindu koerg banyak sgt..!!

Career Lady? Wud??!!

2006-08-28T22:48:00.000+08:00

Haha..it's been a week since I started working in Sanmina-SCI Corporation (M) Sdn Bhd..ahaha..ok. that is the full name of the company..and I double checked before I started posting tonight..mwahahahah..and guess what? after a week working, again, embarassed, I would like to correct myself on my position. I am actually the Quality Assurance Engineer at the company. Ok ok..I promise..no more corrections after this..hehe..unless if I decide to quit and take another job..mwahahah..Na'udzubillah la kan..

My first day was fun! I did not really do anything much besides trying to get to know my colleagues..pusing punya pusing, we ended up gossiping about Sitipu (if u know what I mean)..hahaha..yea, since my boss wasn't around..so of course, MERDEKA!! haha..

The 2nd day was the start of everything, sorta. Get to learn uh-lot of stuff from the production line. Who would've thought that this little girl will end up "auditing" the operators in the production line (eventho I have no idea how the process is done)?? Yea, of course nobody actually thought that I am one of the engineers..so they treated me like the boss's daughter..terhegeh-hegeh observing the Printed Circuit Board manufacturing process. Woohoo..excuse them, do not judge me by my size..hehehe.."line kerek sket"..

A week working, so far so good. I can tell that most people are looking down at me. Not because I am short, but because of my petite body too and my "smile-always" look. Haha..me? smile always? Hm..I quote that from my 2 colleagues, Felicia and Carol..so I accept those "remarks" with open arms, ears and nose..ahahahah..

Last weekend. I went to Miri for a short trip specially for Kak Liza's wedding reception, held at her in law's place. It was like a business trip for me knowing that I departed from Kuching on Saturday and came back on Sunday. Yes, nowadays airplanes are like buses..haha..Air Asia kan ada..but the funny thing is, I naik MAS..jadi??

*SiGh* I have lots and lots of nice pictures to share, but I am too tired to upload them on here at the moment..let's just keep those for my next entry.

I gotta go to bed..*yawn* big, long day tomorrow I might say.. whatever it is, stay tuned...!!

Celebr8!!

2006-08-20T16:44:00.001+08:00

I am currently alone in my home..watching TV with my laptop on my lap..hehe..My mom and the kids have gone to Brunei for the school holidays..so here I am..

I am currently in the 'mood' to actually update my blog..why not??!! At the same time, I am enjoying my leisure time at home before I actually start working this coming week. Owh..correction. In my previous entry, I "announced" my position as a Quality Assurance Engineer but after receiving my offer letter, embarassed, my position is actually as a Quality Audit (QA) Engineer..haha..well, at least I got the company's name right! Now that I got the job, Alhamdulillah..my job-hunting days have come to an end (for now) and I shall move on to a new chapter in my life.

So, last weekend..4 of my 8 MMU-C4 buddies graduated..unfortunately, I couldn't make it to their commencement..but the good thing is, I actually got to get their pictures sent to my email. Yeay! I am so damn proud of them.. I haven't had the chance to actually meet them since I came home; just YM and messages to keep us close. Hopefully, one day, we're gonna get to meet up; ALL 9 of us! Miss all of you so much!!

Again,

CONGRATULATIONS and good luck in your future undertakings!

The graduates. From left: Rad, Sap and Ika

Wish I was there..from left: Ika, Reen, Zai, Sap and Rad

More of them..From left: Sap, Rad, Reen, Ika and Ani

OOoopps..i gotta go..errands! Until then..toodles!

Updates? Here I come..!!

2006-08-15T21:30:00.000+08:00

I have so many things to share..yet I don't know where the hell to start..haha..there are so many meaningful events in my life this past month..and I have been enjoying myself as the time passes by..Hm..I have no idea when was the last time I posted any entry in here..but well, I guess it's never too late to start posting again..

Okay..latest news. I finally got a job as a Quality Assurance Engineer in Sanmina-SCI..and of course the position is based in Kuching, Sarawak. I should be jumping up and down right now, but I guess that can wait..at least until the minute I receive the offer letter in my hands..for those who know me well, they should know that I am a very hard-thinker. Although my boss-to-be (insyaAllah) called me last Friday saying that they are ready to offer me the position, I consider myself unemployed..til' the minute I put down my signature on the offer letter and accept the position officially..haha! I think too much heh? Heck..wudever..that's just me..

So yea..lately, this past month I have been busy with multiple events in my life...it started with a visit from my babes, Nard & Am to Kuching on July 18 - July 21..it was our mini-reunion (since Yana was not here!) before Nard went back to Penn State. It was short, but meaningful and full of fun..I miss both of you so damn much..i couldn't find the exact words to describe how excited I was when I picked both of u up at the airport..and how sad I was letting u both go..but life goes on..just thinking about u guys can definitely makes my day!! Hm..pictures time??

My Babes..in downtown Kuching..

3 of us..with the giant white kitty..hehe

We got to visit Sarawak Cultural Village.. ;)

It was cloudy..but we couldn't miss it for the world..Santubong Beach!

After the seafood dinner..yummy! Thanx Mak.. :D

On the sampan-tour..heh! What an experience..!

Few minutes before I had to let them go for now..*sob sob*

My heart couldn't let go..but I had to..with tears..I waved them goodbye and wish them a safe journey home..and the best of luck in Penn State..can't really help living without them around..but then again, our memories will definitely keep me strong..thanx babes! It's been a blast having u both around..

After they left, I kept myself busy..preparing for Kak Liza's wedding..day after day, night after night, the day came..Alhamdulillah the event went as planned on August 5- August 6 and I guess, I'm next..in few yrs time (maybe, InsyaAllah)..Hubby came to Kuching few days before the ceremony..after 2 months away from each other, we got to spend the week together..aauuww! Nothing much to say..but here are some pictures of the beautiful wedding..

The whole family on Kak Liza's "Akad Nikah" Day

The sisters..and Asfa Wardina..

On the wedding day..at the Civic Center, Kuching Sarawak..the theme color was maroon and white/cream..so here goes..

The Beautiful couple..Abg Erwan & Kak Liza..

We couldn't help it..maroon was the theme color..mwahahaha..alasan!

The family, with the bride and bridegroom..

The siblings..

Myself, Afza and Sue..hehe..

I think I've shown enuff pictures for now..the list can go on and on..but let's just stop here..overall, I am glad that everything went well..and my life has been better and better..I've had so much fun with all my family members, Hubby and beloved friends around..as of now, I just have to wait for my first day of work and start a new chapter of my life..my career. Wish me luck u guys! Hope to receive the offer letter soon!

Last but not least, a shout out to Yana, Anna and Anis,

" CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR GRADUATION!!
I AM SO PROUD OF ALL OF YOU!
WELCOME TO THE REAL WORLD..AND..
MOST IMPORTANTLY, WELCOME HOME!!"

Do keep in touch..hope to hear from all of you when you come home..MISS YOU LOTS!!

Past, present and future

2006-07-07T15:47:00.000+08:00

It's been a month in Malaysia. Sadly, I am still unemployed. Bored? Sometimes, yea, but to be honest, I kinda enjoy my life as a so-called housewife. One might think that I will cry to death from boredom but surprisingly, I get to learn a lot of new things by just staying in. I get to cook for my family, yes, real food! I get to spend some time with my friends. Y'know, go out, have a drink and just chit-chatting..

While at home, I get to also learn that at some point, I have to let go of the past, enjoy the present and look forward to the future. I was in the States. I was a student. Now, I am a graduate. I have goals in life. In order to reach that goal, I have to move on and try my best. My memories of my life in Penn State will never be forgotten. I will definitely carry those memories with me wherever I go. My friends too, I will always treasure them all as long as I live.

Here's something to share. Before I actually went to Penn State, I have these 5 personal goals..athough I've never written it anywhere or tell anybody about them, I am really glad that I fulfill all of them as planned. And now that I'm back, I'd like to share them with you..

1. Make a lot of new friends and not CLING with my Malaysian friends all the time. Yes, I went out with my girls and some other Malaysians but at least at one point, you can call a non-Malaysian friend and hang out with them..bowling? dinner? Players? haha..jk! Of course, I tell myself over and over to always hold on to my roots and my beliefs..

2. Get a job..any job..that way, I can make new friends..and make money..which brings me to my next point..

3. Be financially independent. Meaning, I would avoid asking for my allowances from my mom or dad for my expanses, especially for SHOPPING! Malu sket babe!

4. Balance my life..between studying and socializing. Go out. Have fun. At the same time, keep the grades up.

5. Most importantly, I told myself to come back and help my family and help bring Malaysia forward! There is definitely no other place like home..

You might have different views on whatever I listed. Okay..so why exactly I'm revealing my personal goals? Haha..whatever..this is my blog..so I can enter anything that I wish..

So yea..I gotta go..going out with my hunny, Sue. Kinda miss here..haven't seen here for a week..until later..toodles!

Annyoung..

2006-06-29T08:40:00.000+08:00

Hi! Assalamualaikum..

It's been a while since I entered anything on my blog. What's going on? Hm..currently I am in my room..in Kuching, Sarawak, Malaysia. Just got up..a big, big THANX to Kak Liza..haha! Well, it's been a month since I left State College, Penn State University and U.S.A. I'm well-rested at home..and sadly, I am still unemployed. Hehe..but anyhoo..I am enjoying my so called "vacation" and I am still waiting for job offers after couple interviews.

The day I left, finally, I got to take some pictures with JoePa's statue, and the Pennsylvania State University's sign near Beaver Stadium..Not to forget, I stopped by at the Creamery to see my family there..sad moment..but sometimes you have to let go right? Yana and Am went to the airport to see us leave..but due to the lateness, I saved my tears until the plane took off from State College..and finally from L.A. Babe, seriously, those tears are especially for you..here's some pictures that we took before we left..for good..

My Creamery Family..picture taken right before I went to the airport..

Love ya Joe Paterno!

You both have always been special friends to me..miss you guys!

Finally..

So, what happened after I got off that plane on June 2nd 2006? It was like the perfect moment. I got to meet up with my whole family right after I claimed my luggage..and as I expected and requested, there were 3 bouquet of flowers and some balloons with the word CONGRATULATIONS on them.. how sweet.. it might seem "simple" and "plain" for some people, but it meant the world to me..seeing my whole family there..after 2 years away..picture time?

This is the plane that took me home..

My family..and some flowers and balloons..haha!

Just for Me..

Hm..yea..although they don't get to be there for my graduation ceremony..but I know..deep in them..they are damn proud of me..!!!!

Moving on..I stayed in K.L. for couple days before I head home for Kuching..we sorta just spend some time together..and of course I had the most FUN!! We went to Times Square Theme Park and Sunway Lagoon..just to entertain the kids..no, of course I did not get to enjoy the parks that much..erm..maybe a lil' by looking at hot guys around (adeke?)..haha..jk..but then of course the main point is to spend some time together..all of us..isn't that what we're supposed to do as a family? Hehe..bottom line is..I am the happiest person in the world to have my family around me..XOXO..more pictures la kan.. *wink wink*

do we look alike?

Aren't they lovely?

Me..with the most beautiful woman on earth..jgn jeles!

Basically..I am glad that I'm home..back with my family..the people that I have missed the most..for this whole 4 years away...

I promise to update my blog every once in a while..with my most recent activities and stories..

Owh..a shout out to my babe, Nard for her 22nd Birthday..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!!!
HOW I WISH I WAS THERE TO CELEBRATE YOUR BIRTHDAY WITH YOU LIKE ALWAYS..
BUT DO REMEMBER, NO MATTER HOW FAR I AM, YOU WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED!!!!
HOPE U'VE HAD YOUR GOOD TIME ON YOUR BIRTHDAY..CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU AND AM SOON!!!
MISS YOU GUYS LOTS!

Another shout out to my special someone..Aimran Hakim...

GOOD LUCK ON YOUR INTERVIEW 2DAY!
HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY!
NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS IN THE FUTURE, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!!

That's it for now, for all the update request and all..thanx..you make me feel so much appreciated..I will definitely try to update my blog as frequent as I can..have a good day everyday..To all my friends back in State College..I still miss you guys!

The Hardest Thing

2006-05-30T18:40:00.000+08:00

I am definitely not good in arranging sad words.. not good at saying goodbyes.. but one thing for sure; I am DAMN good on crying my eyes out when i leave my good friends and family behind..

Today is the last day in State College. Will be heading home soon.. to be exact, it's today.. parts of me says,"YEAY! I am coming home!" My family sounded really excited to welcome me home. The IMs, phone calls and messages from family and friends back home brings out the excitement to get off that plane, run to each loved ones and hug them warmly.. that sounds like a perfect moment, doesn't it?

Another part of me believes that this would be one of the hardest things that I have to do; leave State College, my PSU family and my other friends here. State College has been my home for 4 years, my Malaysian friends are like my brothers and sisters. Apart from them, I have my other friends all over the United States, my Sunway buddies and some other people in my batch that never fail to be there for me through my ups and downs.

My other family members here..Nard, Am, Izzawan, Sarah, Zal, Diane, Dart, Daju, Kunod, Mahirah and even Oja..also, the boys.. they will always be missed after I leave here. Although I don't get to spend a lot of time with each and everyone of them during my 4 years here, they have left their footprints on my heart..and trust me, they can never go away..

My circle of trust. Missing: Sarah and Kunod.

We will be miles and miles apart..but you guys will be among the closest to my lil' heart..

I was away for the weekend. Believe it or not, this mini-trip to Madison, WI for the Midwest Games is the most memorable trip I ever had throughout my 4 years here. My last road trip with the Penn Staters, that is. The good thing is, Penn State has won the overall trophy. In addition to that, I got to meet almost all my friends from different colleges in the US. Spend some time to actually share our experiences and ehem ehem gossips and took pictures of our mini-reunion.

Buddies from Univ of Minnesota
From left: Me, Ross and Sri

Sunway buddies..

These are the people that I will treasure forever
From left: Yana, me, Anis and Anna

After this, all of us will be going on our own directions after this but I am pretty sure the phrase FRIENDS FOREVER will always be "valid" for us 4. When I say 4 of us..that'd inlcude myself, Yana, Anna and Anis. It's been a while since we meet each other. Despite the distance, we all can still share our stories, laugh at the same jokes, be loud and enjoy our times together. I am so gonna miss this soon. In fact, I miss them all already..

Moving on.. I will be back in Malaysia.. hoping to get a descent job.. settle down.. wish me luck in whatever I do.. and stay in touch.. I just got an offer for an interview with Texas Instrument. I can't lie. I was psyched. Kinda putting my hopes up high for this one. Say your prayers for me.. even if I won't get the job, I hope the interview experience will keep me strong.. and help me get the job that I desire.. aja-aja fighting..!!

Before I end my last entry from United States, here's a lil' something for all my friends out there..

you're my friend and that is true,
but the gift was given from me to you.
we went thru moments that were good and bad,
even moments that were happy and sad.
you supported me when i was in tears,
we stuck together when we were in fear,

it's really sad that it had to be this way,
but it has reached its very last day.
miles away cant keep us apart,
'cause you'll always be in my heart.

I love you guys..and there ARE NO WORDS to describe how hard it is to say goodbye...

I MADE IT!

2006-05-18T11:52:00.000+08:00

It's been a week that i became an official Penn State alumni. Haven't had the chance to "report" on one of the biggest events in my life.. MY GRADUATION! It was filled with pride, joy, fun, excitement, hugs, kisses(erk?) and some goodbyes. Although my family didn't make it there to the ceremony, I felt really blessed to have my friends around me.

To my Malaysian Penn State family, my IE family and my other friends;

THANX for keeping me strong..
THANX for being there..
THANX for the cards, gifts, phone calls, text message and wishes..

No words can describe how thankful I am to have all of you close to me on my special day.

Well, I took uh-looott of good pictures. However, I know that it is impossible to post all of them on this entry..right? So as usual, here's the selected ones!

Having him there..graduating with me..is in fact the sweetest thing..

Can't thank them enuff for spending the big day with me..

My Penn State family..without you guys there..I'll be standing at the side..crying..i guess..

My IE friends..can't imagine not seeing any of you again..*sob sob*
From left: Lydia, Luanne, me, Carla, Jackie, Jess, Stanley and Adit

My classmate, Brad (left) &
My first IE friend, my classmate, groupmate and "argue"-mate Chad (right)

sigh.. From left: Joe, Jeff, me, Carla and Travis a.k.a Ty

To these guys, thanx for showing up!
From left: Ed, Ricky, me and Chris

My Creamery buddies. You girls mean so much to me!
From left: Allison, Shannon and Cara

More creamery gang. From left: Tim, Brian and Andrew
Erk..maybe this is why they don't let me be in charge of the cash register..LOL!

Pheuw..so, what's new with me..?? It's been a week since I last became a Penn State undergraduate..I am an alumni now and I am very proud of my personal accomplishment. It may not be as "wow" as some other people's victory, but I am still proud with what I achieved.

This degree in Industrial and Manufacturing Engineering is for my mom..for her hard work..her support..and prayers..

I'll be coming home..for good..with this degree, I hope that she can now sit back and relax..it's time for her to enjoy her "investments" on her daughters..
Malaysia, here i come..!!

Recently, I have been away this whole week.. went for a mini-vacation, with Hubby, his family along with his aunt's family. Tired, happy, nervous, anxious, excited, afraid..but I guess, overall, I can summarize the whole trip in 2 words: INTERESTING yet CHALLENGING! I got to know his family members and I learned how to be around them..most importantly, I get to spend valuable times with them. I hope this mini-trip that we had brought lotsa fun to everybody as it was for me. I admit that I got nervous and scared at times, somehow, I guess that is what every girl has to experience especially when they get to meet the boyfriend's family. This trip meant a lot to me, and this might be a stepping stone for both of us to bring our relationship to the next level. Doakan kami allright? Well, this time, I have less pictures but enough to summarize the trip..here goes..

Hubby and I in Niagara Falls

Totally soaked with Aiman, Hubby and his mom..

That's us on the boat to the Falls

Hubby and I (again) on the ferry to the Statue of Liberty

At Central Park, us, his cuzzy (Nana) and his aunt and uncle

Bonding with Lala in Central Park

The girls and I

Although I wasn't on my best condition for a few days of the trip, I was glad that I was part of hubby's family's trip. *Yawn*- i guess, i've updated this blog more than enuff for now..i better head to bed before i collapse right here, in front of my lappy..until then..toodles!

So close to there..

2006-05-04T08:18:00.000+08:00

Frankyly, I have nothing interesting to say. I am currently at work. My final shift in ULC for the rest of my life. It hasn't been busy at all tonight. I should be studying right now but obviously I am not. I am done with 2 finals and my last final ever as an undergraduate here will be on Friday noon. Haha..I am still in my denial mode. All I need now is complete focus and study hard for my last final exam. Hehe..

I bet everyone is really tired right now. I mean, these people in Penn State. Soon enough, it'd be over. No more staying up late, no more staring at the freakin' thick textbooks for long, lenghty hours and definitely no more worrying about the grades for a bit (of course for me, I will not experience all those for quite a long time..hehe).

So, hang in there if you're not done with your final exams yet. It will be over in no time.

My graduation. It's held on May 12, 2006 at 7pm in Bryce Jordan Center. My family will not be here to attend my graduation ceremony. However, I really2 hope that my friends here will be there, watch me and cheer for me while I walk up the stage with my cap and gown. All of you, I mean, ALL of you, my blog readers are invited to come! That'd mean the world to me. I will really try my best to not cry..hehe..

Ooppss..I better get back to work before I get caught slacking off. I don't wanna get fired on my last day. Haha! Until then~toodles!

Almost to the end of the road..

2006-04-30T11:32:00.000+08:00

I can't believe that I am almost done with school. I have 3 more finals next week..then..I AM DONE!!! Excited? Happy? Sad? Scared? Anxious? Yes, yes, yes, yes and YES!

Last day of classes..here goes..

Us-having fun at Leonhard's computer lab..heh!

From left: Stanley (with his bad hair day), Me and Jared (the daddy-like guy)

Carla (the IE-Diva) and I.

On our way to the project showcase..From left: Jonathan, Me and Pedro

At the project showcase from left: Adit, me, Nicolas, Ayush, Fernanco and Jonathan

These guys..are awesome! From left: Chad (1 of my first IE friend), me and Bill Adler

Moving on, my last day working with my fellow tutors and supervisor, Stefanie..

Thanx to them for helping me out while tutoring..I will definitely miss tutoring!
Clockwise: Jeff, Steve, Jeremy and Ryan & Josh. Center: Stefanie and I

Next, my last shift at the Creamery..I will miss working there..scooping ice creams, stocking, getting free food from our tip box and all the people that I work with! Wish I have all their pictures but here are my shift-mates this semester..

The Creamery's Saturday night closers, Spring 2006. I enjoyed working with ALL of you..lotsa fun, laughters and craziness! From left: Abby, Christine, Andrew, Shannon, Joel & his nipple (yes, he's retarded!) and Me.

So, can I imagine not seeing them again EVER after I leave? NO! I am so gonna miss my life here, my friends and most importantly the good times..

And to my close Malaysian girlfriends here at Penn State..I will miss you guys the most. It's sad that the "era" has to end soon..we will continue in separate paths but I will always cherish our memories together..thanx for making me feel so close to home..can't imagine my life here without you..!

The seniors: Me, Yana & Izza..thanx for being there for me for this whole 4 years!

The junior that makes me go nuts, Nard. You are the coolest, babe!

This chick on the right? You make my world go upside down..haha! You rock, girl!

Finally, a special thanks to my one and only person, who shares my ups and downs here.. thanx for accepting my goods and bads for all this time..

haha..that's us, trying out our cap and gown..

TO ALL MY FRIENDS OUT THERE,
THANKS FOR MAKING MY 4-YEAR JOURNEY HERE MEANINGFUL!

Note: I didn't mean to turn this blog into a fotopage, but I love to share my pictures to my readers. I have more, but
well, here are the best ones! Hope you guys enjoy them as much as I do!

MiXed F33LinG$

2006-04-17T07:01:00.000+08:00

Based on the title of this specific entry, obviously, I have mixed feelings right now :
sad, confused, happy, longing, homesick, excited etc etc

I am at work right now, google-ing for some news about the one unfortunate event that almost make me lose my mind before the MASAPSU BBQ today. I couldn't catch my breath when I heard about this tragic mishap but after listening to the healing voice of my beloved mother, I made it through the BBQ without any tears trickling down my cheeks. I managed to put the smiles on my face and also tried very hard to not spoil the afternoon/evening. I had fun..had good food, good company..also, took a lot of pictures of my Malaysian family members here, something to remember them by..I won't even know if I will get to spend much time with them after I leave here for good..right? I will for sure miss them ALL and if I have, at anytime (via direct interaction or blog), hurt anybody that I interact with while I'm here, I WOULD LIKE TO APOLOGIZE..I don't feel like sharing those pictures in my blog..partly b/c I am not in the best mood right now..and b/c I have sOooo many pictures saved on the memory card of mine..

I still can't believe that the last time I was home (almost 2 years ago) was actually my last chance to visit my granny's place. That house was old..but it always brings back all my childhood memories whenever I'm in it. That's the place where I spend most of my time with my granny..and also the place where the whole family would gather for each special occasions. Now, it's gone with all the belongings in it. It caught fire last 2 nights..everyone was safe..there were some minor injuries and traumas going on..but i guess I should be really grateful that no lives were taken away with the house. The two families who were living there are currently staying over at my place (which is 5 minutes walk from my granny's place). Kak Liza scanned an article on the accident with the actual picture of the house when it was on fire.

I recall, last three years, the first time I went home while in the U.S was in fact the last time that I get to kiss, hug and spent time with my grandmother. I never would have thought that I won't even get to be with her or attend her funeral. I personally think that I know her very, very well, but deep in me, I really wish that I could spend more time with her when she's still alive.

Come to think of it, I finally realized how things can actually happen when we least expect them. Nobody can see what's coming. Nobody can predict the future. I actually learn to treasure everybody..yes, I mean everybody that I know, whether I like her/him or not. I tell myself to at least TRY to get to be nice to everybody around me and spend some time with him/her when I get the chance..cause you'll never know if you will get the chance to see them again after that very second.

Nobody would think that in any minute or second, he or she would actually be the one reading Yassin to the person very dear to them or pouring water and flowers on his or her resting bed. Somethings are beyond our control. I won't wanna look back and be sorry for not acting the way I should and not saying the things I want to say to the people around me, especially to the ones I love and care about.

Can't lie, at this very moment, all I can think of is to go home..and be there for my family..support them in every ways that I can..

IIE Banquet

2006-04-14T22:25:00.000+08:00

The best night as an IE: We (IE department) had our banquet last night, to celebrate the outstanding seniors and faculty members, as well as the graduating seniors this year. It was held in Days Inn last night from about 7pm to 9.30pm. How was it? Unbelievably fun! It's really nice you know, having your classmates around you..socialize with them..and see them all dress up! hehe..pictures time??!!

Me with 2 beautiful girls, Adrienne (left) and Lauren (right)..

That's me again..with all the Asian senior girls..(I think!)

Haha..that's me, as always..with my 2 pimps (Khitab:left and Emeka:right)! Mwahaha..

Me with Hispanic girls and guys..hehe..

Me with the two bodyguards (Jeff:left and Ty:right)..isn't that HOT??!!

Me with the Indonesians..o crap! I have that thing on my head..!
From left: Stanley, me, Adit and Jackie

So, my favorite instructor was awarded the best faculty member of this year, Dr Leah Newman. I was honored to get the chance to take another picture with her..heh! My TA was awarded the best TA of the year..Paul Linch. The outstanding senior..that's Nate. The best thing was, he was sitting at our table...how cool is that??!! haha..

The Award winner, Dr Newman..and I

Award winners , Paul (right) and Nate (middle) with Dr Wysks

The best times of the whole evening were when we, the IE students had our own little gathering before and after the banquet. Some sort of pre- and post- banquet. Where did we go? Heh..somewhere for a lil' gathering party..

On top of all this, however, I CANNOT deny the fact that the fun I had was not complete..without him wimme..I really wish that he was there..!!

3 more weeks to go!

2006-04-11T00:30:00.000+08:00

I have 3 more weeks to the final week and 5 more weeks to commencement. How do I feel about it? Clueless..!! I am missing a whole bunch of stuff back home..and I am very sure that I will be missing a lot of people and stuff after I leave..but well..life isn't fun without sweet memories..right??

10 things that I miss back home:

1. My mother (duh!) who doesn't know that??!!
2. My room? erk..wait..I don't have a room anymore..i'll say..my home..
3. Laksa Sarawak..in fact, I called my mom recently..and told her how much I crave for it!
4. Kolok Mee..OMG..I am so hungry at this moment..
5. My girls back home..Sue, E-za, Sharaine..
6. My MMU girls..Zai, Reen, Ika, Ani, Ami, Sap, Rad, Nad..
7. Driving? Altho I admit that I am no good at it..but I still miss driving..
8. Watching Malay movies/drama..what's wrong with that? not cool enuff? nonsense!
9. All the beverages..iced tea..iced milo..syrup..etc etc
10. Nice movie theaters..yea..they're a lot better than the ones in State College..heh

10 things that I am gonna miss most about my life here:

1. Having him around..anytime I need him..except when I am asleep at night..I wish..huhuhuh
2. Living by myself..with the coolest girl next door..u know who u are!! :-P
3. Shopping and going out with my girls..nobody can ever replace you girls on this..seriously!
4. Creamery buddies..indirectly, they showed me how much I can be loved by being my true self..*sob sob*
5. My IE friends..our chit-chats in Leonhard computer lab as early as 8am..our bagel moment..another *sob sob*
6. My beloved instructors..Dr Cavalier, Dr Newman, Dr Voigt, Elena Joshi..THANX for ur help!
7. Malaysian "family" here..you make me feel closer to home..
8. College football and NFL..haih..
9. Leonhard building, my 2nd home..I won't realize how much I love that building until this time of the semester...
10. Online shopping..can't imagine how to live without it..uwaa!!

Come to think of it..I have many, many things that I am gonna leave behind here..but..yerp..I gotta be ready to face all these stuff sooner or later..for now, let's just enjoy life and live it to the fullest..!!

4 wonderful years..

2006-04-07T01:19:00.000+08:00

Today..after 4 years..I am still in love with him, Aimran Hakim..this entry might be as cheesy as it may sound..but this is dedicated to us both..on our 4 year anniversary..hopefully InsyaAllah we both will get to celebrate our anniversaries for many years to come. I want us to grow old together and adore each other until the end of time..~amin..

Hm..Nothing fancy for the day..both of us will be busy and jammed with work (as usual)..but hopefully tonight we will get to take some time enjoying our nice little dinner at some nice restaurant together...

Come to think of it, it's like being on a long journey..I myself have never thought that we will get this far when we first started dating..it's funny how two people who used to argue and hate each other's guts can end up loving each other this much. He is always full of surprises and that makes it still exciting even after couple years. Of course there are times that you feel like punching each other in the face.. but.. that is a part of the whole excitement, isn't it?

I don't know how else to say it, but from the bottom of my heart, I am very blessed to have him by my side...No words can describe how thankful I am for having someone like him in my life..

Here's couple pictures..for you guys to see..

2002

2003

2004

2005

2006

Haha..yea..we change over time..physically I mean..but one thing for sure, my feelings for him? They grow more and more as the days go by..wish us luck..when it's time for our big day, we will definitely keep you guys in mind..

Oowwhh..a shout out to Kak Ani and Bang Asri..

HAPPY 4 YEAR (wedding) ANNIVERSARY!!!

Just for Kak Liza to See!

2006-03-31T05:24:00.000+08:00

Hey kak..

I am at work. Since I am kinda bored..with nothing much to do, I took some time looking for bedding sets for your wedding. I kinda have a hard time deciding..coz I have very little to no idea on how wedding bedding sets have to be. So, you're not online right now..but here's a picture of this one bedding set that I think you might like..provide me your feedback(s) as soon as possible aight sister dearie? lurve yaa..!!

what can i say..

2006-03-28T03:40:00.000+08:00

basically, it's my fault..i just got out of the restroom..'partially' done calming myself down. My blood rushed up to my head the second i got back my IE 453 test. How was it? Bad! So bad that I can kill myself right now. Of course I won't do it cause I know I have people around me who actually care..a lot! So, I'm still here, in Leonhard computer lab, spitting out whetever's on top of my head for everyone to see. Bottomline is, I feel like crap today.

I failed my test with a 56% (yea..this is in fact the worst grade I've ever had in any of my IE courses!)..that's fine..but considering the fact that i studied SUPER hard for the freakin' test, I am totally frustrated. Some fakers and stalkers who actually stop by at my blog might be laughing and "giggling" right now..but believe you me, I have some people around me here..telling me over and over that I'll be fine, lending their shoulders for me to cry loudly on..they say that the class is freakin' hard..but if it's that hard, why can other people get 76% or 82% or 90% on the test..and not me???!!!

Life goes on..I can make it thru the rain..that's what I tell myself. I want to graduate so bad..but not with these sucky grades I'm having this semester..how can I move on? It's so freakin' true when the say life is like a wheel..sometimes you're up there..sometimes you're lower than people around you..maybe it's just a matter of time you know..

I NEED STRENGTH..I NEED SUPPORT..I REALLY DO..

(and there goes my frustration tears..down my not-so-chubby cheeks..damn!)

Finally..!!

2006-03-18T02:31:00.000+08:00

It's Friday..and I have to say how glad I am today. I'm totally done with all my midterms this semester, my final semester..so basically, I'm done with midterms for the rest of my life as an undergraduate student..woooohoooo!!

After a super long day yesterday, I took a day off today and decide to have a personal day. Skipped class..and walk around..chill..and have fun. Currently at work, but I will definitely be out the whole day today, for a change I thought. heheh..

Weekend plans? You tell me! Haven't been shopping for a week. So far I'm doing good on the "shopping-fasting" thing huh? Well, don't blame me! I'm a girl and I can't resist the pleasure of shopping, especially if my girls are around me. Bottomline, we love to shop. Period. But i guess, I'll have to pass on this one favorite activity of mine this week. I'll keep it for later this month..heh!

Hm..I guess that's all for now.
Nothing new, nothing much exciting except for the fact that it's Friday!

One thing for sure, at this point, I promise to treasure every single day, hour, minute or second of me here in Penn State before I fly home to where I belong.

Back in SkewL

2006-03-14T08:28:00.000+08:00

I have 7 weeks left in school. Yes, 7 weeks (excluding this week, I think!). hehe.. so things are gonna get hectic around here..school work, studying for final exams (yea right!), projects and such. Hopefully everything will go well as planned.

My spring break..it was fun. Have had my lovely girls around me..almost at all times during the break..and of course we came up with something crazy, spontaneous and wild (erk, wild? not so true! LOL!)..so after few days "hybernating" in Kunod's apartment, we thought..

"Hey, let's not stay here for the whole break..let's go outside of State College!!"

After some discussion and a lot of thinking..we decided to go to DC..(yeay?) This time, just the girls! Yea..we've been there before..but it doesn't hurt to just go again and find some valuable time outside our beloved town, State College.

Hm..pictures..erm..okay..I'll just post one of them..since i don't know what else to say..and how else to explain our simple yet enjoyable little trip..heh..

That's us, at CikWan's home's neighborhood.Peaceful,with lotsa cool houses..i like!!

It'll be hard for me to go online these days..FYI. I am currently computerless..do not ask me why..just stuff..ain't that sad? My loyal companion now? TV. Period.

I miss home..Till then..toodles!

Senior-ism

2006-03-01T02:46:00.000+08:00

What is it? I don't know..symptoms??

1. being lazy..very lazy
2. skipping classes..hmm..yea..lotsa them!!
3. wasting away..instead of studying for my midterms/quizzes..like what I'm doing right now!
4. counting days to every weekend..so i can chill..all day/night long..LOL!
5. thinking abt my commencement..what to wear..who's gonna come..and all that
6. crying my eyes out..thinking abt leaving my girls here..and the good times together..uwaa!!

Whatever "sickness" that'd be, please go away..uhuhk uhuhk uhuhk..
i have a test tomorrow..which carries 25% of my grade..but I can feel the strong resistance to open my book(s) and start studying.. urgh..fcuk it..i'm outta here..till then..~toodles!

Party!

2006-02-24T09:02:00.000+08:00

Been busy this whole week..erm..not with homework, really... My b-day..I know..it's so yesterday..but just when I thought it's over, Joel called..and asked me out..oh cut it out, it's not a date! The creamerians held a so-called surprise b-day bash for me..at the bowling alley.. It was simple, but really, I felt so loved and appreciated by my dear creamerian buddies. There were pizza, drinks (non-alcoholic,duh!), strikes, high-school bowler, first-times, sucky bowler etc etc..with the nicest people..

Thank u guys! Can't deny no more..Spending some time with the ones that I love, without the ones that I don't love is the BEST way to get older..muwahaha..! So now, picture time..!

Me & my bowling shoes

Shannon, Me & Amy

Joel (left), me and Andrew

We were the blacksheep of our teams..huhu..

All of us..ooppss..Joel were excluded..

This whole experience..reminds me of that one question somebody asked me..I'm not gonna expose the question..but here's the answer:

NO, I DON'T HAVE TO CHANGE TO FIT IN. I JUST HAVE TO BE ME.

A Weekend in the Lala Land

2006-02-20T10:47:00.000+08:00

Weekend is over..and it was SUPER FUN!!! I turned 23..sob sob..but after spending some time..erk..and money with my lovely girls, turning 23 is like the best thing EVER.

Started with a Friday night dinner. No, no, not the Gilmore Friday night dinner but it's the Girls' Friday Night dinner. Both Daju and I have had our b-day last Saturday, so, as a mode of celebration (I guess) we all went out for a nice, lovely and descent dinner. Although Sarah and the gang were not there (another sob sob) but overall it was really nice to be appreciated by a bunch of people here in State College. Knowing that this is the last year celebrating my b-day here, I felt so blessed to get spend the night with the people that I really2 care about. Thanx u guys!

That's us, at Chilli's with Izzawan-behind the camera!

I had my little surprise b-day gathering after dinner with the people that I really really enjoy being with. Had my b-day cake and all..most importantly, I HAD THE BEST TIME!!!

Next day, another surprise..I guess for this specific surprise, pictures do speak better than words..so here comes..

Thanx Nard for the decorations on my door! Big, big surprise..and I LOVED IT!

My actual b-day was in fact the peak of the weekend for me and the other girls, I think. I get to go to a place that I call "The Lala Land" and do the one thing that I am very very good at..SHOPPING! Along with that, I also get to spend some precious and exciting time with the "most-est" fun girls; Nard, Am and Yana and with the guys; Hubby, Chi and Megat. We drove up to New York to the Woodbury Premium Outlet for some shopping and had some great times, just the 7 of us. Well, I definitely can't put those good times in words, but again, the pictures will summarize the whole mini-trip we had!

Yes, we look so very excited to spend our dollars $$$

The lovebirds..breakfast at Perkin's

Megat, Chi and Hubby..got food?

Hm..reading? NOT!

Hello!

After breakfast, we drove some more..and there we were... So no, we don't have any pictures of us shopping, but we DO have a picture of us after the whole fun, exciting experience!

do NOT ask me about the bags..not all of them are mine..hehe..

Good time? Good deals? You BET!!

Now, I'm back in State College..moving on to the real world..hehe..so thanx to everyone..for the wish, cards, e-cards, gifts and thoughts..they really mean the world to me.

Specially for Hubby, the girls, Chi and Megat..

I CAN'T THANK YOU ENOUGH FOR MAKING MY B-DAY A PERFECT BIRTHDAY FOR ME!!!!

BUMMER!!!

2006-02-16T01:17:00.000+08:00

Ok..so my week is officially spoilt by that freaking hard quiz. Don't blame me!!! I studied freakin' hard for it and still I couldn't answer the freakin' questions and it will be returned on freakin' Friday!! (hey..Freaky friday..sounds familiar..owh yea..the movie..o well)

So basically, I am so pissed right now, but I won't let it spoil my weekend. Crossing my fingers for that! heh..I have so much to do right now but I just thought that I can drop off some words and thoughts in here for a bit. At least this way, I can totally get over the freakin' quiz and move on..I guess..

Yesterday was Valentine's Day, the day where most girls walk around with roses in their hands or bags..heh..I did not intend to celebrate it but I sorta celebrate it indirectly when I received 2 roses (one white and one red), a box of chocolate, a rose-shaped chocolate, a heart-shaped candy and a valentine's card. No, not all of them from Hubby. Surprise, surprise..!

Hm..i gtg..i have so much shit to do..URGH!!! Can't wait for the week to be over.

It's not too late to wish all my blog readers (if any),

HAPPY BELATED VALENTINE'S DAY!
A dozen of roses just for you..

p/s: word of the day = freakin'

Oh Amerike..

2006-02-12T03:56:00.000+08:00

I was browing through my stuff & boxes today..and I saw this one piece of paper..it brought back the sweetest memories..Sunway 2002..this song..unforgettable (at least for me)

Sedih rasenye,
Bile waktu dah tibe,
Kite akan pergi ke amerike
Waktu dahulu
Tak sabar nak menunggu
Nak terbang bersame ke awan biru
Ingatla wahai teman2 semua
Kiter pergi bukannye nak joli saje
Pergila kiter bersame-same
Ke amerike
Jangan dilupe pesanan ibu bape
yang tercinta
Janganla malas
Nak kontek member-member
Bukan ke internet dah banyak ade
Ade ke LA
Ader juge ke PA
Yang penting kiter sume ke USA
Kalau takut mati kebuluran
Jadik bawakla bekal berkoyan-koyan
Yang ke Marquette
Janganla kerek, Janganla lokek
Ingatla member yang takde duit
Supportla siket
Yang di PSU jangan pilih bulu
Kena bersatu
Dengan OSU
Janganla malu buat tak tahu
USC puler janganla leka
Asyik bercinter
O Minnesota, ramai wanita
Yang solehah
Ingatla kiter, ingatla semua
Pesanan keluarga
Sekian saje persembahan kiter
Untuk semua maaf dipinte
Kalau teraser lupekan saje
Suke dan duke kongsi bersame
Sampai bile2
Oh AMERIKE!

Bottom line is..I MISS THE GOOD, OLD TIMES!

Slacking off

2006-02-11T02:32:00.000+08:00

Crying your eyes out does make you feel a LOT better the next morning. I finally agree with Nard's entry on her blog couple weeks back but as a result of agreeing with Nard, I skipped my one and only class this morning.

What I learn from my "full-of drama" night:
I can tell myself OVER & OVER of how independent and strong I am..but the truth is.. inside, I am still my mom's little baby and I will always be..

From now on, I don't care what anybody thinks about me..
Jerks, call me selfish, call me SNOB..
As long as I have the support and blessings from Him, my mom, Hubby and my loyal friends,
I can live my life..without regrets!!

p/s: i just learned how to add some formating to my entries..wahahaaha..how weird is that?

2006-02-09T10:47:00.000+08:00

Game over, jerk!

Rough Nite

2006-02-03T12:06:00.000+08:00

Just got back from the hospital. Yes, you read it..HOSPITAL! The one place that I would never wanna be at. The smell, the environment..yucks..scares me big time..!

No, no, it wasn't me. It wasn't me who's admitted to the ER. It's hubby. He was rushed to the hospital this evening while I was at work. Went to the hospital right after work. Thanx to Josh, for clocking me out earlier than I'm supposed to, thanx to Bill for calling off the lab meeting and Parag for understanding my condition. Ooh..not to forget Chad, for offering his notes for tomorrow's class just in case I couldn't make it tomorrow morning. Megat and Hase and Abang for accompanying me to the hospital.

Rough, rough night. Seeing him on the hospital bed like that, in the hospital 'gown', my tears just trickled down my cheeks.. silently, I walked away from the bed-side and went somewhere where I can actually calm myself down. I can't make him see me crying, not this time. I have to act strong..and take care of him. I just wish that I could be with him tonight, just to make sure that he's fine just like what the doctor wrote on the medical sheet.

At this moment, he's sound asleep in his bed. I hope he's gonna be fine. Well, maybe I haven't been a good girlfriend lately. Always busy with my own thing, my own self, my own world. He'll always be in my prayers. Please, make him well again. Amin~

sob sob

2006-01-30T13:00:00.000+08:00

At this point, the only thing I can think of is home. It's been so easy for me to cry nowadays. Y'know..it's the time of the month..when I get grumpy..moody..and my tears? they can rush down my cheeks at any time any where.

These are the people that I want to be with right now. Wish you guys were here.

It's kinda late..and I am still waiting for the email from my one group member before I can finish up my lab report..which is due..TOMORROW!! not my fault..not..so not my fault! I should be the one who's putting everything together, not revising what everybody wrote. Sheesh..gimme a break!

See? I can get so emotional right now so I better stop right here.

My weekend? It was ok. Had fun with the girls. Had lil fights here and there with Hubby. Missing home so badly. Overall, I need sometime alone. Adioz!

Nothing new..hrm..

2006-01-27T11:28:00.000+08:00

So, my official Thursday night activity - watching 'Beauty and the Geek' on the WB channel..haha..well, I am definitely not a die-hard reality-show fan but somehow I am so attracted to this show. Hey, it's different. In my opinion, this show makes the world see how geeks can actually change and find their way to see the world in different perspectives and how beautiful girls can be so ignorant about the world around them with the "It's all abt me mindset". Well, we can't blame them. It's not easy to be somebody that you're not. As long as you're happy, I don't see what's wrong with being a geek, a nerd or anything at all. Hm..well, at least that's what I think. I don't wanna go on and on about being a fake..but bottomline..i love that show..hehe..

Switching gears. Tonight has been unproductive. I did not get to open up my books. I am so worn out this week. Sick hubby, early classes, senior design, meetings, meetings and more meetings throughout the week. Thanks to my course-mate, Chad, for sharing some of the notes with me..

Another spontaneous thing I did; I quit from Palmer Museum Store after 3 years working there. Hard decision, that is. But my only shift,which is (erk..was) on Sunday afternoon does not work well for me. That time slot happens to be the perfect time for my team to meet and get stuff done every weekend. I can't afford to prioritize my part-time job over my senior project. Sacrifice..yes, that's the key word. So I did quit and I hope I made the right decision. I will miss all the nicest people there. I will stop by to say HI sometimes. It has to end sometime..yes?

Allright..it's getting late..Gotta go to bed and have enuff sleep..it's gonna be a long day tomorrow..!

Havva good weekend everybody!

In conclusion..

2006-01-25T12:16:00.000+08:00

To make the long story short, I am so glad that Hubby's fine after the 24-hour rest.

Sayang, please get well. I hate to see you the way you were for the last long hours. He's back at his apartment safe and soundly asleep..

I am well right now..hopefully I will be able to get into tasks IMMEDIATELY, as in right NOW; update my notes, work on my homework, and prepare myself well for every class (keeping my fingers crossed on that one!)

Allright.. I'm off with my pile of books..

Shoot! I gotta decide on my "business-casual" outfit. Worse, I have to get dressed for the event at 7am in the morning tomorrow (considering that my 1st class starts at 8am)! Sheesh..! The event doesn't start until noon!

Aaa...l8r!

Momentum..where are you?

2006-01-23T08:54:00.000+08:00

I'm losing my studying momentum.. I need it..badly..
But being sick like this.. it will definitely be a lot harder to focus on my schoolwork..
Currently at work.. yes.. sick.. and working?
I am so going to bed after this.
Urgh! Miss home! Got HUG? Anyone?

Girls Night Out

2006-01-15T14:07:00.000+08:00

Allright, I just got off from work at the Creamery. Currently hanging around in my super messy room, not knowing what to do. Tired from work and not ready for bed YET. So, this weekend is supposed to be enjoyable. It's only the first week of class, but YYYEESSSS..I am already occupied with tons and tons of homework, reading assignment etc etc..overall, 4 homework assignments, 1 in-class quiz/test to prepare for and many many readings to complete before the weekend ends. You canNOT imagine how grateful I am for having an extra day off on Monday.

Nothing much interesting about my Saturday night, BUT my Friday night? One heck of a fun and exciting night. It was Friday, the 13th in January. It was Ms Muliani a.k.a Am's 21-st birthday!! No, no, we didn't get to do the bar-hoping or what not..HEY, WE'RE NOT A BUNCH OF THE AMERICAN-WANNABE GIRLS ALLRIGHT? Instead, we have our own culture, the so-called surprise celebration..with the ones that we love.. Owh..btw, HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO AM!!! Hope you enjoy yourself last night..and love the gift, sincerely from Nard and I.

That's Am..21 years old? beautiful eh?

So, after the little celebration, all of us (including Am, Kunod, Yana, Izzawan, Hawa, Dart, Daju and Diane) went to the HUB for some late-night at PennState activities, "Little Drawer Painting". Ok ok, it might sound lame..but you have NNOoooo idea how much fun we had. It'd be more fun if Sarah and Zal went along with us too. But well, we'll try to do this again some other time. You girls definitely light up my Friday night!!! Pictures time...Enjoy!

All of us on the painting table..oopps..Diane's not in..she's behind the camera..

Am, Hawa and Nard - they DO look like the enjoy themselves, don't they?

The 3 seniors..you juniors are so gonna miss us..hikhikhik..(perasan)

These are what we came up with..cute eh?

So, that's ALL of us..I very the like this pic..

Hehe..We love to pose..

From Nard and I..notice the blue bag? Am, hope you lurve it..!!

So, these pictures..stored in one of the sweetest memories with my only lovely Msian girlfriends in Penn State..!!

Oooppss

2006-01-13T05:56:00.000+08:00

In addition to what I posted earlier, I received another thing, which actually makes this day "best-est".. a card from one of the best instructors that I have ever had in the IE department, Dr Leah Newman. It was an unexpected Thank You card from her, with a Good Luck note.

Owh well.. below: that's me and Dr Newman..

Shout out and more!

2006-01-13T04:45:00.000+08:00

It's lovely outside. Perfect weather for a walk at the park. Hm..but, of course I have no interest in doing that. Not until Hubby's done with his classes today, at least. Also, I have a survey to complete by tonight or I will not get any credits for it. Hehe..

So, it's 01/12/2006. A special day for my lovely sister.. DAYANG YUSLIZA.. She was born 25 years ago in Kuching.. with this I would like to wish her a HAPPY BIRTHDAY and may God bless you in everything you do. I don't have a more recent pictures of us together..yea..we do look alike..mesra gitu..!

Next, I received an e-mail from my supervisor at the University Learning Center. It had definitely made my day even better..

Hi Day,
I apologize for not saying hello to you last night, I didn't realize
until I left that I missed seeing you. I hope you had an enjoyable break.

These evaluations are going to be very informal, just my thoughts on
your performance and any thoughts/suggestions I have for this
semester. If you have any feedback or questions, please stop by my
office any time or email me back.

Overall, your performance was excellent! I was very impressed with
your tutoring abilities and customer service skills. I appreciate
your kindness and ease with the students, they feel very comfortable
in your presence when you are tutoring them. This is a very important
trait to have as students work better with a tutor that's likable and
respected as well as knowledgeable. Your willingness to assist me
with projects was excellent. I find that I can trust you with
responsibilities easily and know that things will get done. Your
communication skills are among your best traits as I often hear you
conversing with students, receptionists, and other tutors. All of
these skills contribute positively to the team atmosphere the ULC
wants to project over all of it's units.

I'm looking forward to working with you again this semester. If you
have any goals that you wish to achieve before the end of the
semester, in regards to training, skills you wish to learn/update,
projects related to your interests, please share them with me and I
will work with you to help achieve them. My goals for you are to
complete your ongoing projects from Fall 2005. For your first
official shift (next Wednesday), I would like you to finish up or
continue the project you started in the Fall. Please let me know the
status of your project and if there's anything I need to do to assist you.

Thank you for dedication to your position as a Technology Tutor. I
deeply appreciate you as a team member in the Technology Center.
Stefanie

Delighted and proud at the same time. So, this semester, my goal is to work even harder at ALL my jobs and work super hard on ALL my courses. That's it for now peeps..Until then..

To Nard, Am, Kunod and Yana.. I love you guys..!! (where did that come from?..huhuh) and also to all my LOYAL friends out there..you know who you are..!

I'm back!!

2006-01-10T04:40:00.000+08:00

I haven't been updating my blog for quite a while already..(obviously)..but hey, I am back in my so-called room sweet room and I have much privacy to type up my entry..(but of course my entries are not private)..ehem ehem..ekekek..

I have too much stories and updates to include that I don't know how to start. Hm.. okay..first thing first. My break..A-W-E-S-O-M-E! I got to spend a lot of time with the girls..stayed at Yana's place..and had my dream-come-true vacation, to Miami and Orlando, Florida!!

Ten things about the trip:
1. Tired
2. Spend lots and lots of money and it's not even funny
3. Fun
4. So fun
5. Fun, very very!
6. It's super, super fun
7. Can't even describe how much fun I had
8. 'fun-est'
9. couldn't be more fun
10. Owh, did I tell you how much fun I had? huhuhuh

So yea..that's the basic summary. hehe..there were 10 of us altogether for the trip. 5 girls and 5 guys. Overall, you guys have been great and very cooperative.

Hm..pictures..there are lots of them..I don't even know how to post them on here, but I guess, I will register for either Fotopages, Snapshots or Yahoo Pictures soon. For now, I will just have my fav pictures on this entry. How's that sound?

Don't we look sweet together u guys? In South Beach, Miami

The ladies on the trip..in BayFront Miami, FL..

in Universal Studios..it looks real, doesn't it?

The 6 out of 10 people on the trip in DisneyWorld

A bunch of happy people with Mickey

Next topic. FedEx Orange Bowl. It's ours. And I am proud to be part of the celebration. Spent a bunch for the ticket, but hell yea, it is definitely worth the money! It was held at the Dolphins Stadium, Miami. Pictures? Yes..I have a lot of them and most importantly, I got to take the autographs of the PennState football players along with some pictures WITH them.

Me & Chris Harrell...awwww la kan...

Tamba Hali..woohoo!

That's me again..with PennState's kicker..Kevin Kelly

third picture with this talented player..AZ..

Overall: Bowl ticket? $150.00 Flight ticket? $183.00 Hotel, food and transportation? $500.00 Admission tickets to Universal Studios + DisneyWorld? $130.00 Sweet memories on the vacation? PRICELESS!!!

Unfortunately, the vacation-mode has to end soon enough. School starts today. Switching gears to the school-mode instead. No more shopping unconsciously, no more sleeping in every morning and no more FUN! But, considering this is my final semester here as an undergrad student in Penn State, I have got to find my momentum and do SUPER well like I never have. A promise to myself. Hehe..crossing my fingers..Do leave me a good luck note if you see this..at anytime..

Allright, it's been a super long entry..gotta go..until then, enjoy the pics and enjoy the rest of your day or night, people!

sigh

2005-12-21T11:55:00.000+08:00

I don't know how to start..but I am very sure that something is bothering me at this moment. Hm..let me just put it this way. Humans are unpredictable. At one point, YOU would be badmouthing about some other people's behavior, trying to convince people around YOU that the other person is doing something wrong, illegal or just..not right. Then, one day, without even noticing it..YOU are doing the same exact "not-right" thing.. contradicting what YOU said earlier. Perhaps, it's nothing new, just some human nature..right? Does this sound familiar at all?

Forgive me for thinking out loud, but it's been bothering me..it's on top of my head..at this moment..here, when I am alone in Yana's apartment, at 11pm on Tueday night.

Bottom line, nobody can stop talking badly about anybody behind their back including myself. Nobody's perfect. Maybe, at this point, somebody is enthusiastically criticizing about me.. WALLAHU'ALAM.. But, what do I care? Huh? That won't kill me..will it?

As a reminder for me..and any of YOU out there, before YOU or ANYBODY or MYSELF start criticizing about anybody at all, let's just think more than once, because YOU'LL never know if YOU happen to do the same exact thing in the future..without even realizing it..

Urgh! Craving for some ice-cream.. o wait, I have a 'half-gallon Cookies and Cream flavored' ice-cream in the fridge..so..l8r..

Winter Break'05

2005-12-18T15:45:00.000+08:00

Here I am..alhamdulillah..still alive, here, in State College, PA. Many things have happened these few weeks, but as you can see, I am so very busy with my top priorities; school and work. I did not have any time to spare updating my blog this couple weeks.

School is finally over at this point. My semester did not go as well as the previous semesters, as expected, but I am happy with what I got. I am grateful that I went through all my courses without failing. Hehe..

I have made many mistakes thorughout this semester, but some of them are worth while after all but some of them are otherwise. Some stuff that I can list out:

1) I have been working for too many hours in a week, that I get tired very easily and continuously. Worth while doing? Yes, i get to save the money, for my new laptop..and also for my expanses here..without putting all the burden on my mother or my sisters.

2) I was so obsessed to college football, leading to the NFL obsession. I personally think this is healthy, to balance out my nerdy school life! Also, Penn State football team has been great this year, that I am proud that I get to be a part of that, especially during my final year here in Penn State.

3) I have been neglecting my family. I did not call them as much as I used to, due to my busy lifestyle. However, I do know that they are very important to me. They're always in my heart..always..

4) I did not spend much time with my friends, Izzawan, Yana..also, Oja.. being here in Yana & Oja's place with them..making me realize how much fun we've had before..and how much time we've been apart from each other these few years. My Sunway friends.. it's been a while since I heard from Anis, Anna, Idaman, Sheen..Sheen? she graduated..and I did not even get to call her during her graduation day..gosh..!

Hm..so yea..people make mistakes, I know. Forgive me..I am just a normal human being.. all I can do..is move on..and try to fix them.. insyaAllah..

I guess now is the best time to have my friends around me.. it's winter break, and everyone should be free. As I mentioned above, I am living at Yana's place for winter break. I will be working at the museum and creamery for the first week of my break, hibernate for the second week.. and the final week..

I AM FLYING TO MIAMI..BE A PART OF FEDEX ORANGO BOWL
PENN STATE VS FLORIDA STATE (01/03/06)
VISIT ORLANDO.. DISNEYWORLD, UNIVERSAL STUDIO..
MY DREAM VACATION, THAT IS!

Leaving Dec 31st - Jan 6th with Hubby, Yeng, Syah, Capek, Amin, Izzawan, Yana, Sarah and Aishah. So hoping that this trip is gonna be fun. Girls (Nard, Am & Kun), I am so gonna miss u..

Hm..it's 3.09am..hehe..I am browsing for some formal dress..for KIDS (as usual)! And I found this one cute evening dress (on the left, just in case it's not too obvious). I would really2 wanna wear this dress one day. Baby-pink and really girly2..eheheh..So Kak Liza, what do u say abt me wearing this to your wedding reception? *wink wink* Hey, of course I am gonna put on a cardigan on top of this..or a bolero?

Hehe..before I start writing a "book", I'll stop here. So, that's the updates for now. Anything interesting during the break? hehe.. just wait and see..until then.. MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!

It's over..almost, at least.. ;)

2005-12-07T06:25:00.000+08:00

I haven't had much time to update my blog. I am drowning in the pile of work that I have since last week. I barely have time to chill or sleep. School and work, have been my top priority..(finally!)..

So, I had my 1st final exam today. I don't really have a comment prepared for that test..but I am definitely glad that it's over. Of course some of the questions look "familiar"..if u know what I mean..hehe..but some of them are not..but special thanx to the IEs for sharing the useful "sources".

Okay, I have 28 minutes before I head to work. Couple things to share.

1. I will be extremely busy as of today..so don't bother to wonder where I am (duh! like anybody does anyways huh?) hehe..here's the list of stuff to do this week..yea..for me to do..!!

Thursday: IE 408W paper due at 2.30pm
Friday: IE 328 lab reports due at 5pm (they're 2 of them) & IE 468 hmw due at 9pm

2. My final tasks before the semester ends next week:

Monday: IE 468 project due by 5pm
Tuesday: IE 402 final exam & IE 328 final exam
Wednesday: IE 468 final exam (so nervous for this one..huhuhu)
Thursday: IE 408W final project due by 5pm

That's the summary for my two most "exciting" weeks of the semester.

Switching gear..Another thing on my wish list for this week (besides getting ALL my work done and getting through with all my courses) I would really, really wish that I'd get a ticket to the Orange Bowl..please, please, pretty please..

Okay..before I go into the details about this Orange Bowl thingy, I'll keyboard-off right now..Until then..take care of me..LOL!

Thanksgiving break...is over.. :(

2005-11-28T08:55:00.000+08:00

I still can't believe that it's over. I did have so much fun.. I did enjoy myself.. I did go out of State College.. I did a lot of shopping.. and most importantly, I did take a LOT of pictures..mwahaha!

I went to Washington D.c for the second time. But, this time, I get to meet new people, enjoy the shole trip with hubby, the girls and some other girls and guys. Also, I got to see the Smithsonian and enjoy taking pictures with the old, creepy buldings there. hikhikhik..

Okay, since I have tons and tons of homework to do, I won't keep this entry long..but here are some of my favorite(wait, is that the right spelling?) pictures from the trip. Pictures can actually speak louder that words..hehe.. so, Enjoy!

That's the whole group for our lil' trip to DC.

Me & Hubby..at the side of some river in DC. (Hindustani pose! LOL)

Hehe..speechless..

I love this picture! That's the monument at the center of Smithsonian.

Yes, we love to take pictures!

Me and the white house

All of us, with our warm-hearted host; Cik Wan & Kak Kin.

Overall, the trip was a success..thanx to all of you.
Hubby, the girls, Chi & Megat..thanx a bunch!

Miracle, I might say!

2005-11-22T12:11:00.000+08:00

It's been a long day, but definitely an exciting one!
My day started really early, submitted my IE 468 homework and went straight to work at 1pm to 6pm. Now? Kinda beat..but posting my entry..it's a 'must-do' for today. So yea..here goes...

Interesting conversation between Hubby and I while walking from EE East Building to the HUB (directly translated to English):

Me : Hm..is that a football player? He's tall and he's an African American.Maybe?
Hubby: Not all big African American are football player, honey.
Me : Why haven't we ever bumped into any football players on campus? Why? Urgh..Before the end of the semester, I definitely will track them down, take pictures with them and have them sign on my Penn State Sweater, seriously!

(I have my Bill Cowher's face on..hihi..)

Hubby: Hey, that's a football player.
Me : Owh my God! You're kidding!
Hubby: Nope, i'm not!

(me looking really closely)

Me : Owh my God! (jumping around in excitement)
Hubby: Go get his autograph.
Me : O wait..I HAVE A CAMERA IN MY BOOKBAG!
Hubby and I was debating on who should approach him 1st & ask if he wants to take a picture with us.

After a lil' "you-go, no! you-go scene", I got to take a picture with the Penn State cornerback , Alan Zemaitis. God knows how excited I was! I don't even know how to describe this moment in words. We shook hands, Hubby and I congratulated him and let him know how awesome he was last Saturday.

That's the picture! Me & Alan Zemaitis. Hehe..yes, I know..I am LITTLE!

So, after that exciting moment, we (Hubby and I..of course w/o AZ..duh!) went to get my salad at Sbarro..still excited..and gosh, I can't even stop smiling to myself!

Moving out of Sbarro..talking and smiling, I got even more excited when I saw three big guys at the entrance of Barney's. OWH MY GOD! That's like the most memorable moment. I went to them, without thinking any longer..and said to them..

(With my cutie, sweetie-ish voice) " EXCUSE ME SIR, CAN I TAKE A PICTURE WITH YOU??"

and he said," Sure, sweetie..!" Aaaaa!!! Am I dreaming or what? (I need some help, you think?).

YOU KIDDING ME? It's our most beloved Penn State quarterback, Michael Robinson (rightmost), accompanied by Matthew Rice, the defensive line (leftmost) and AZ (middle..yeaa haa!). Is this a miracle or what? So, of course, I got to shake their hands, congratulated them..and most importantly, TOOK A PICTURE WITH THEM. So yea..call me a freak..call me a psycho..but I got what I dreamed for(since I started to become a die-hard football fan..ehem ehem). I've always wanted to take some pictures with the stars of Penn State football team..and I did.

Owh, by the way, Penn State won our last game of the season, against Michigan State, the Spartans with the score 31-22. It wasn't the best game, but it was good enough to earn the BIG TEN CHAMPION TITLE 2005. ssswwweeeetttt...!

Although I could not make it to East Lansing, I got to go to Rec Hall, for the welcoming event. Some pictures from there: (they're not too clear, but you can see how it is).

Try to look for the big ten trophy, held up by M Rob among the crowd. C'mon..you can see that..!

The players' arrival..hehe, can't really see which is which, but they are with the tags on their hats. hehe..

Bottom line, I LOVE TODAY! This day is definitely gonna be stored in my personal Penn State memory. WE ARE...PENN STATE!

Word of the day: Excited, exciting, excitement and any word with the root word 'excite' in it.

Lecture? Pay Attention?

2005-11-18T10:51:00.000+08:00

Dr Newman said, " Allright kids, two things you need to figure out before you go out there and make sum big bucks:
1. Know who you are.
2. Be who you are.
So, thanksgiving break, write a paper on these two most important things. I want it on my table by 5pm on the Tuesday right after the break!"

Hm..the question may look easy. But how do u know who you really are. Some people couldn't figure it out & they end up being somebody that they're not. Ala..you know..like..'wannabe'..

That's my homework for the break. Find a little time to explore something about my inner-self and write a 3 page paper about it.

Question for myself: Am I being myself? Or am I just being like this to impress everybody around me? People change..yes? Have I changed? Bad? Good? Am I happy the way I am? Sometimes, people see me as the happy, chatty, giggle-giggle type of gal, but sometimes I find myself crawling in my blanket, crying out loud out of loneliness. So, who am I? 'Good questions,'says me. haha!

I get upset looking at people change. You know..some of them turn to be somebody that I thought I never knew. It's even worse when that person is closely related to me. My best buddies, or my family members..or..some people that I dearly love. It makes me sad..it makes me wonder..how on earth can people change drastically?

Well, maybe it's nature. Everybody's growing, and things cannot remain the same at all time, of course. Maybe that's one of the reasons I hate to browse through friendster. Looking at the pictures, you know. Seeing how people change through time. It's different. I can't turn back time. I can't. I just can't.

My heart says: 'I want her back. I want her back to who she used to be.'

Allright, back to freakin' IE 468 homework. Cavalier, please..why Cavalier? why??!!

hehe..emo mode! u know.. *wink wink*

It's DELIVERED!

2005-11-17T00:56:00.000+08:00

The package was delivered to Mak yesterday. Alhamdulillah everything worked out fine for everybody. I hope all of them like the gifts I sent. Hehe.. I just got off the phone with Mak, and how relieved I am when she said that she likes the cellphone. Kak Liza worn the shirt out already and Kak Ani, was debating on taking the handbag I sent for Mummy (my aunt). Haha, funny! I knew it's gonna happen. I knew that they're gonna be arguing about the bags. Be patient Kak Liza. InsyaAllah I will get you your engagement/wedding gift when I come home.

One interesting thing my mom told me. If you don't think this is interesting, your prob, not mine. hehe, so, while my mom was looking at my picture hanging on the wall with her "timang-timang", Dina, my niece got all jealous. Haha, i like la kan..so Dina, once Ucu comes home, your NENEK is mine (like she can read this..huhu). Hm..I don't think this little girl is gonna like me. I'll be her rival when I come home.. MWAHAHAHA (my evil laugh, sorta) Owh, below is a picture of her with my dream cellphone. Here's the cutie pie Wardina..buwek!

So, today. I am in Leonhard (as usual, my second home). Gotta head to work in like 20 minutes. Basically, my day is plain today. Nothing interesting, nothing new.

Hm..boring huh? At this moment, all I can think of is to get out of State College and get my mind off my school work, quizzes, tests and projects! I guess I am too worn out from school. In few days, we will have our Thanksgiving break, and hopefully when I come back from that break, I will be more motivated to struggle for my grades. And few weeks after that, I'll be off for about 3 weeks. Huh! Seriously, I can't wait!

Time definitely flies really fast. After the end of this semester, I only have one more semester to go and I will be done for school .. yippy! Yea..at one point of my life, I will go back to school but na'ah..won't bother thinking about all those until I get my precious bachelor's degree. hehe..

I am so gonna miss State College. If I am rich in the future, I'll definitely come back. Hehe, maybe for one of the football games..haha..ok ok..i better stop b4 i start daydreaming again..

Owh btw, I feel a little better today. I am over it, and I am so ready to work my hardest for the rest of the semester (for some of you who know what happened to me yesterday).

Couple thoughts..

2005-11-15T15:48:00.000+08:00

It's 2.12am in the morning, and I just can't put myself to sleep. Tired, yes, but I just couldn't get this things outta my head now. I don't know..this question is playing on top of my head. Kak Liza asked me,"Is Aim coming home with me after we graduate?" (translated from Sarawak's dialect).

On the left, is the picture of my chubby hubby. That one question is still lingering on top of my head. I know this may sound pathetic or clingy, but seriously, how can I bear with the fact that we're gonna be apart from each other? I know, I have my family and friends, but it won't be complete too without him. We've gone through our ups and downs since the three years ++ we've been here. He's always here when I am down, when I am excited, when I am lost or when I am over-active (haha!). Basically, he's always by my side in any point in my life here in Penn State. I remember back then, the first semester we were both here. He's doing so well in his courses that I almost break down and gave up on myself (since I did not do as well). Without complains (not that I know of), he's there to provide moral supports, brought back my confidence and never fail to make me realize that I can do it. Although that had been my hardest semester, I was able to go across the obstacles and move on. I crawled up the ladder until I reached to where I'm at today. Not on the highest point yet, but Alhamdulillah so far I am happy with where I stand. Improve myself? Yes, insyaAllah. His words are always with me and they keep me strong, always.

His plans is to pursue his dreams to go to Grad school after we both graduate. If there's a will, there will be a way (or maybe more ways) for us to be together, no matter how long it'd take. Hm..guess let's just leave it all of this doubts and worries to our fate. Try hard? That's for sure! InsyaAllah, we'll make it thru the rain *sob sob*

I hope that I will always be blessed with my family, him and my beloved friends around me. Without all of you, I may never be who I am today. All the things that you have done for me, it's priceless and there's no way that I can pay you enough for all the support and good times.

Mak, Kak Liza, Kak Ani, and all my beloved friends out there, thank you for loving me as I am.

Enough already of this heart-to-heart trash talk. Gotta cut it out and hop on my bed.

Reminder for myself: next time, do not 'terhegeh-hegeh' to sleep more than 10 hours and skip all your classes. As a result: I can't sleep tonight and end up thinking too much until my head is gonna explode. Urgh! Bad, very bad for my grades..kehkeh

P!nK ob$3ss!oN

2005-11-14T03:00:00.000+08:00

It's Sunday already. Just got back from brunch with couple girls and boys. I was up early, like at 11.15am (wow..'very' early), crawl out of bed and went out for brunch.

Friday was my pink obsession day. Gotta do a lot of shopping, with PINK as my shopping theme. I bought a pink bag, another pink bag (hehe!) and a pair of pink shoes. Hm..I am starting to like the color pink that I cannot lie. Wait, what is wrong with pink anyways? I used to refuse to admit that I like pink. Of course my favourite color is still RED, but sometimes, I need to pick on other colors too. It's a girly-girly color, I know, but what's the point of denying myself? To act cool? What? Cool people don't like pink? Come on..grow up! Pink is a cute and beautiful color. Period. Hehe..before I get too emotional, I'll just switch gears to something else. LOL!

Yesterday, no PSU football game (boring..!) but I got to watch some other games for a bit. Fun..but not as fun as watching our own team..right? So, the girls and I had our masak-masak night and fortunately nobody had any symptoms of food poisoning YET..it went good and it's definitely a good time. Yana, next time, you should be there..!

Not long after the yummy-yummy dinner, we had our own little tournament, Dance-Dance Revolution! Bounce bounce! We did not really come up with a winner since it wasn't really a rreeeaall tournament..it's just a bunch of people having fun.

So, the host, Hubby, Chi and Megat, THANX for letting us cook at your stove. Am, Kun, Nard, THANX for helping out with the cooking and to everybody..THANX for helping out with the eating..hehe!

These pictures are taken before the so called DDR tournament and during the so called DDR tournament. Enjoy!

The girls, after dinner

Nard & Megat

Am & Megat..focus! focus!

Nard & Me..erk..

Hubby & Chi..uik? Nard, Megat..no 'interframe-ing' please!

Another SPONTANEOUS event that we have after the so called DDR tournament; TRIP TO WALMART! haha..the girls get to buy a one-dollar-Maybelline lipstick (o wait, not just 1, in fact a hand full of them!). The guys? Hm..bored waiting for the girls to finish shopping..LOL!

There goes my Saturday. Main point; I have had fun. Thank u guys!

Friday...finally..

2005-11-12T03:48:00.000+08:00

Currently in Leonhard..done with classes and all. It's been a crazy week (haha..same old stuff). Got back my exam..as I expected, not good, but HELL I DON'T CARE!

Last night was fun. Went out with the girls, SPONTANEOUSLY..to Walmart! (of all places). Shop, shop and more shopping. I had no idea what to pick up for myself, until we all found ourselves standing at the cosmetic aisle. Guess what? I bought some make-up stuff for myself, with the help of the professional AM, and not so professional, Nard..LOL! What a night! We should do this more girls!

What else is new..owh yea..Hubby and I fixed my ibook last 2 nights. Long process, but we made it through. Heh, so now, I have 2 laptops in my room. Ridiculous, but FUN! I have Mac Operating System and also Windows Operating System. Cool? Na'ah..

Hm..i am so not in the mood of writing up my entry right now..but I gotta kill time before I head to work. I need some air..and maybe more shopping.

Good news from home. My buddy in Kuching, E-za, is getting engaged this December. Of course it's with a guy! Too bad that I can't make it to the ceremony, but my prayer is always gonna be with you hun! I hope that I can make it to your wedding, I will TRY my very best! Another good news, my second sister, Kak Liza is getting married next year, somewhere in August/September. So, that wedding, I'll be there (with Allah's willing). Me? Wedding? Heh..speechless..let's just wait and see. I promise, if my "time" comes, I will definitely tell the whole world about it (thru the internet..huhuh).

So, ok, this Saturday, masak-masaking at Megat/Aim/Chi's place allright girls? Nard? Am? Kun? Time suggestions? So that's the weekend plan. Shopping plan..hmm..we can arrange that SPONTANEOUSLY..it seems like that's the word of the day..haha!

It's almost work time. GTG! Looking forward for more and more fun this weekend. Keeping my fingers crossed (as always)!

Killing time

2005-11-10T08:59:00.000+08:00

Yes, this is to kill time before I get to break my fast today. Hm..the picture on the left is Bill Cowher. Hm..he is known for his "masam-ness" most of the time. Why is his picture posted here? haha..hubby said we (me and Cowher) have one similarity, the frown that is. What were u thinking? Me? Head coach of Pittsburgh Steelers? Keep on laughing people..not gonna happen! Well, I can frown like him for hours, seriously. But, I can't be a good football team head coach.(duh!)

Yesterday, was a long day. Work, classes, lab and an exam at night. I missed my Gilmore Girls show and currently I am downloading the episode on my computer. UNBELIEVABLY SLOW.

My exam was bad..hehe..u heard me, it was BAD! I cried, yes, in LEONHARD! That was the first time I cried in front of my friends there...erk? They were panicking when they saw the tears trickling on my cheeks. Poor them..they know me as DAY, the cheerful, loud girl in the computer lab. They've never seen the cry-baby in me..hehe, they managed to cheer me up though. Many many thanks to them. Heck yea, I feel a lot better today..no more worries. Spanish words they taught me: JOSTOY BIEN (I am good!).

Oo..it's time for me to fill up my flat, lil' tummy. So..until then..

AM, QUN, NARD, care to shop?

Wonderful Monday

2005-11-08T03:47:00.000+08:00

First of all, I would like to wish one of my best buddy here in PennState a HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY. So we had the suprise little gathering for her last night ad midnight and I hope that somehow, she will know how much we love her..Aww..so sweettt..hehe..to NurIlliana Amir Hasrat, may God bless you and hope that u will enjoy your special day..okie dokie?? Mwahs mwahs to you..

Next, currently I am in my room, skipping class..huhuhu..thought of getting started studying for the test tomorrow. AAaaa..I did not skip all the three classes I have, kidding me? I am skipping my last class of the day. That's not too bad..right?? As I mentioned, I have a test tomorrow night..meaning..staying in the room tonight is a No-No..no more watching the Patriots game tonight allright me? Bad for your grade. :(

So this weekend was fun. Saturday was filled with love and laughter and FUN! before the big game against Wisconsion the Badgers, the Msian PennStaters had some kind of a gathering among ourselves. Gather, talk, gossip, hugs, talk some more, laugh, and most importantly FOOD!! Went to Sarah's place in Penn Tower then Bodak's place, Meridian II. Pictures? Of course la kan..many many pictures. I gotta pick my best pictures of course..hehe..

The girls at Sarah's place

Gadis-gadis NgeGeh..huhu

Hubby and I

After a large amount of food, some of us went to the game. This time, unlike most of the other games, I am NOT the only girl in the Malaysian crowd at the stadium. There's Nard, Dart and Yana. Unfortunately, they didn't make it to the senior section, but still we get to walk to the stadium together until I found out that my ticket slipped out of my pocket..drama..drama..So Hubby and I ran back to see if the ticket can be found anywhere on the road. With my heart beating so fast, I ran as fast as I could, looking for it. LUCKILY, i found it lying on the road, upside down (pheeuww!). I went to the game..in fact the last home game for the season. High possibility that that is my last game for like..ever. So, that's that. I got to take some pictures in Beaver Stadium, as one of the most memorable experience as a student of PennState University. *sob sob*

That's US before the game

Hubby and I at the stadium before the game started

Senior fans after the game

Owh no no, we didn't lose..we look sad b/c it's our last game of the season, or maybe forever. That's why all of us looked a lil' bummed..hehe..especially Anjeet, the guy on the right-most..haha! The score was 35-14 and yes, we scared the badgers!! After the game, I got to wait for the players to walk out of the stadium, and I got some of their autograph, like.. of them. EZ Smith is the only one that I am familiar with..but the most important thing, they all played well, and they deserve a pat on their shoulders..*wink wink*

So, that's it for this entry. Full of memories and good times..until next time..~

Eid Mubarak!

2005-11-04T10:19:00.000+08:00

It's so very nice outside. Sun was out, sky was clear. It seemed like the perfect weather to go outside with your baju raya(kurung or kebaya etc etc). Yerp yerp. O wait, I don't have one..hehe..

However, today, I went to work, exam, class and lab with my baju kurung. Purple, it was the one that my bestfriend, Zai gave me. Owh, I'm just gonna post these two pictures 4U2C.

Try to guess..both are my pictures with the same baju kurung. One of them was taken 4 yrs ago and the other is taken like 15 minutes ago..different? I don't think so..

Hehe..so hopefully next year, I will be able to celebrate this meaningful event at home..with my mommy..and my daddy..

Owh..speaking of daddy..I got a good news today, early this morning..Before that, I would like to thank my daddy..Pap..for the gift, A CAR THAT IS! I will definitely appreciate it and take good care of it when I come home..and I will try my very best to give you a call very very soon..hehe..

Before I get off here..I would like to wish everybody "Selamat Hari Raya..Maaf Zahir Batin"..I really hope to see most of the PennStater this Saturday, let's take some nice pictures since this is my last raya here..(i hope!)

I have nothing much to say..enjoy the Raya!

There goes my Weekend

2005-11-01T06:21:00.000+08:00

Hm..this morning started with a bad news. I got my IE 468 test back and no, I didn't do too well. But heck, it's not the end of the world. The score spoils my day but I am definitely not gonna cry for the stupid test. It's not like it's gonna change the score anyways. Na'ah..what I can do is just work harder and become a NERD. LOL!

Weekend was fun. Saturday was spent productively (as if..) I worked at the Creamery Saturday morning until 3pm. I got to meet the long lost fwens of mine.. I haven't seen them for like...hm..FOREVER! It's been a while since my last shift at the Creamery. Things just got crazy and I can't afford to wear myself out. But seriously, I miss my friends at the creamery..A LOT! Working with them is so very much fun. Makes me laugh and enjoy myself a lil' u know..*sigh* But don't worry guys, maybe I will be working during the break, so stay tune!!! LOL (again?)

A picture of us, getting ready for the game..huhu..From left: Cory, Nate, Me, Amanda & Vanessa.. The fingers? Ignore them..u don't wanna know..heh heh..

Owh yea..more updates. The girls have break-fasting event at dD and Mahirah's apartment. Had a good time watching the football game(s) and definitely enjoying the FOOD. U kidding me? It's fried fish, MY SO FAVORITE FOOD!! Yummy yummy la kan..Thanx to the host for hosting, thanx to dart and mahirah for masak-ing, thanx to am for kacao-ing, thanx to me for rasa-ing, thanx to everybody for showing up. I had a really a great time!

Saturday: Big Ten Football: Penn State beat Purdue 33-15 (yeay!) Michigan beat NorthWestern (yucks!) Wisconsin beat Illinois (duh!) Ohio State beat Minnesota (hmm?)..
Sunday: NFL sports: hehe..I only watched Eagles vs Broncos and Patriots vs Bruschi. Broncos and Patriots won. Tonight, Steelers game at 9pm. My next agenda. LOL! (shut up!)

That's the updates for the day. I'm getting off work in 10 mins.

P/S: OOPPS..I FORGOT TO PUBLISH THIS ENTRY..HAHA..I ONLY SAVED IT..FOR GOD KNOWS WHY..SO..FOR THE SAKE OF COMPLETION, I'M POSTING THIS ENTRY..LATER THAT IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE..HUHUHUHUH..FUNNY ME..(ERK..)

Luahan hati ke hati

2005-10-29T05:31:00.000+08:00

Ok. I need to spit this out of my head before my weekend starts, or I'll be so tensed! I am at work. I was trying to tutor this one guy for his C++ stuff. He was having trouble with his program and he actually expected me to FIX the program for him. I tried. He obviously is doing his homework in the very last minute, and he expects me to just look at it and fix it in a blink of an eye. BULL SHIT!
He didn't even have his notes with him, and why on earth would he think that i can easily look at the mess he created and give him the solution without any single reference? I've helped somebody before, with their C++ homework, BUT with their NOTES!!! DUH! Finally, he left (angrily, I guess) and I feel bad about it. I wish I could just tell him "hey bro, next time, make sure you're prepared. At least have your books or notes with you when you come in!!! I am not a teacher. I am here to help what I can!!!"

That's the end of that. Conclusion: I AM NOT AT FAULT!!

Seriously, he should go to the TA ahead of time. That's what they're there for. Urgh!

So now that it's out there, I can go ahead and enjoy my weekend. :P

Fun..fun..

2005-10-28T05:19:00.000+08:00

hahahuhu(that's a good intro..erk?)

I'm in Leonhard right now, with some crazy IEs. So, they are struggling with their homework, projects and stuff while I am sorta wasting my time, typing up my entry. I just got off from my IE 402 group meeting and I have 22 minutes to the next class.

Hubby is nowhere to be found today. He hasn't called and he did not pick up the phone. Hm..well, maybe he's still in bed. Nothing new with that. Kehkehkeh..

So last night, erm..I mean this morning, I had a weird feeling. It's just one of those days, you know, you just feel like crying. Thanx Hubby for the time spent on the phone, listening to me cry. Haha..and special thanx to this pro-Michigan-anti-PennState-football-team guy who actually spent his time talking and "kinda" cheering me up indirectly in the middle of the night. I really, really appreciate it buddy.

So, the agenda for today is halfway done. I was late for the Palmer job, but Lynne, she never fails to tell me that it's ok to be late. Haha.. she's the best supervisor EVER la kan.. spent the whole 3 hours doing homework and reading my notes. So, next, IE 408W class. Fun stuff. No lab today, but I gotta tutor 7.30p to 9p. Steve, you better buy me lunch or dinner someday for this!

Okay..in conclusion (ayat skema), I am in a good mood today (at least I am, so far). So, I'll keep my fingers crossed for now. No more crying tonight allright me?

Owh, I received Zai's raya card. That might be the only card for this year. Erk, sad..But na'ah..that's fine. Owh, don't get me started on the being strong part. Aja-aja fighting!! Huhu.. Thanx Zai..mwahs mwahs..

so, off me go..class! Here I come Dr Newman. I love u too.

Grasias (is that right Jonathan?)

For a change..

2005-10-27T17:58:00.000+08:00

It's late. Me not asleep yet. Just got off the phone, talking to mak. haven't called her in a while. It's been crazy this week. Exams and all. No different from any other weeks.

Now? Tears filled up my two big, wide eyes. If I have more than two eyes, I bet that I would fill those up fast too with these feelings I have.

Basically, I don't know what to feel, how to act. I miss home, yes. Miss my family, yes. However, I still do not think the WHOLE family misses me, if you know what I mean. Sometimes, I cry at night, thinking abt all the things that I did, all the words that I said, all the hearts that I've broken. And why exactly am I crying in my room right now again? I don't think the whole thing was totally my fault!

One simple wish I have; I do want things to be right again. Everything. What if this is gonna be the last time you hear from me? Are you gonna cry for me anyway? Aren't you gonna miss me at all? Not even close? Naaa..whatever..*sigh*

Today, JPA deposited the Nov-Dec-Jan allowance. Kinda excited about that. But na'ah..considering that I won't be receiving my paycheck this Friday, due to some Human Resource's fault, I am not too excited anymore afterall.

Another sad news. Mak's package-shipment exception. What does that suppose to mean? Erk? Of course I did call the FedEx people, and they need confirmation about the content of the package. No no, it's the Malaysian inspection, they are so full of crap! I had already declared the things I sent into this one long document, but NNNOOOO they need EXTRA EXTRA info. WHAT???!! Urgh, I hope the package will be delivered really soon. Before Raya please?? Pretty, pretty pleaassee..?? *another sigh*

I am seriously CRAVING to type up something happily on my blog. I seriously do, but there is NO WAY that I can lie about my inner feelings. I can't fake it (unlike some people..) so do not expect all the fakeness to come from me. At least not for now. hehe..

I gotta get going. If you're confused of what I posted in this blog, ignore it. It's just this stupid mixed-feelings of mine. Tomorrow: work, meeting, class, work. Conclusion: duh!!!

Nighty nite..~layter!